Freedom!!
Well, i have nothing interesting to share.
But heck care. This is MY blog. It is my say of what i want to type.
Even if it just mundane, boring stuff or simply things that is in my current mind.
If you want to read it, by all means.
If you find me boring, then leave!
School's ended.
My kids have gone home to their daddies & mummies for a good 1.5 months.
My exams are over.
It has been a hectic year for me.
Very, very hectic.
People who are close enough to me, who have been around for me all these while, simply knows how super hectic i have been straddling myself physically, mentally & emotionally through all the different aspects of my life.
I am left with about 1.5 weeks to clear work stuff & get ready for 2010.
I'm nervous in getting the P1s next year.
Heard that almost half will come without knowing how to read.
Jeng, jeng, jeng! Hard work for me next year.
For now, it has only been the 1st day of year end, i am already planning on the upcoming movies, & the unwatched dvds & unread books lying everywhere in my parents' house.
And of course, waiting anxiously for PSLE results to be out next week.
Come December, full force in the spring-cleaning.
I still have a few more errands for the wedding.
A few more loose ends to tie.
A few more confirmations to be made.
For now, to all children, Happy Holidays!
Enjoy yourselves BUT keep safe & healthy!
See you next year!!!
Coming to an end
Just 2 more days before the academic year comes to an end.
Oh well, for me just one more day as i'll be on exam leave tomorrow.
That leaves only Thursday for me.
It has been a stressful academic year for me.
Taking another batch of P6s year after year is really no joke.
I'm glad i'm finally letting it go for next year.
Tak boleh tahan lagi!
Of cos', 2010 picture has already been painted in front of us.
It doesn't look too good either.
But that can wait.
I'll worry about it later.
For now, I'm living a day at a time, where work is concern.
I'm ready to let the year go and really focus on me, myself and I.
Just 1.5 more weeks to go to wrap up the end of year reviews before it's all about my life.
I'm really, really tired straddling my time, energy, mentally & physical self between family matters, work & the upcoming wedding.
I'm really looking forward to relax & rejuvenate myself over the December holidays.
I cant wait for my last paper to be over this Thursday, although i am panicky that i have yet to open the notes and textbook.
I cant wait to wave goodbye to the children & return them to their parents for a good whole month.
I cant wait to wear slippers, jeans & t-shirt to work.
I cant wait to throw all the papers lying around my workspace.
In summary, i cant wait for Thursday to come!
8 years later
Just came back from a long but fun day with the fiance.
We finally managed to tick off another 5 items from our incomplete hantaran list.
Thanks to the Christmas sale!
We had all the new and latest designs coming in into stores.
Suddenly, all the beautiful shoes have my size.
They had discounts everywhere.
Sales promoters were especially generous to give more discounts, more service-oriented, and throwing in freebies, and were extremely nice to give free (unnoticed & unknown by people) & beautiful gift boxes when told we were looking for wedding gifts.
Wee!!! I like!!! I don't care if i'm seen as a cheapskate or typical Singaporean, ok!
As long as i get value for the amount that i spent.
After dropping all the shopping bags at fiance's place, we headed down to Pasir Ris park,where the fiance's paternal families are having a BBQ.
Believe it or not, after 8 long years with him, this is the first time i spent an outing and family activities with them. Of cos, we've met & talked before during family functions like an engagement or cukur rambut but never a fun-fun outing as this.
I guess mum was rather strict with me. Limit the going out with the guy's family until i am officially married.Takut tak jadi nanti, she said.
Anyway, i can't escape this one. What i thought is going to be a short one for me, turned out to be one that i was reluctant to leave.
I was hugged & kissed when i salam the aunts & cousins.
Even his cousin's fiance whom i've met once during their engagement some months back.
It was a nice feeling to know that i am accepted for what i am.
I was not defined by my name, or my career or my size.
I was simply accepted as Kak Durrah, the bride-to-be & official-family-member-to-be.
That's it!
He had many girl cousins. Somehow we clicked.
Yus' fiance & i were in the same boat. 2 strangers joining this huge & close-knitted family.
We clicked instantaneously.
Soon, the girls or the under-30 group (as Bik Na called us), were gaping at how the uncles managed to fish one stingray after another from the sea.
Observed how the men fixed the canopy over the BBQ pit.
And eventually, we sat under the lamp post, played carrom any-o-how, created some dumb word games & laughed ourselves silly.
Sadly, I had to leave. But not before lots of phototaking.
We asked when would we ever get to have such big get together again.
I made me wonder why there are times we can get along with strangers, but not with our own?
I believe as along as there are humans on this planet, disputes & misunderstandings will happen.
But will kinship & family ties ever be replaced by all these mundane matters? Matters that if we look deep into it, does not really matter after all as compared to family ties.
Or is it just because of their damn ego & selfishness that they are willing to forgo everything despite knowing that the same blood runs through the veins for many generations to come till the world ends.
To each his own.
Anyway, no photos of today's event will be uploaded, unless i'm being tagged by the cousins-in-law in FB.
Otherwise, true to how i'm being brought up.
No flaunting of self with the future in-laws till we have signed the official documents.
55 more days to go :)
Love from Mt.Bromo
Hamizan came up to me with a handful of cotton balls and handed it to me.
"Cikgu, untuk Cikgu," he said with pride.
Hamizan just came back from an internationalisation trip to Surabaya on Tuesday with 16 other pupils and teachers.
According to Maimon & the VP, they were climbing up Mt.Bromo, where there were many cotton plants growing around the area. Hamizan started collecting them and said that he wanted to give it to me.
Awwww, i'm so touched. The child remembered ME.
Hamizan lost his father recently. His father died in a work mishap overseas.
He is the 3rd child from a family of 8 siblings.
Ever since then, we saw a change in his attitude.
Often throwing tantrums, refusing to study, showing open rudeness & defiance.
But on the other side, he is a responsible brother.
Looking after his P1 brother patiently everyday.
He is a clumsy child, in a cute way.
He always bang into walls and bounce back.
We had to constantly remind him to walk with poise.
Hamizan is in the pull-out programme.
He entered my class in May, when Ain left for her maternity leave.
Ain had always complained of him being rude to her.
He was surprisingly quiet in my class, but he's lost in his own world.
One day, he didn't do his homework.
When asked, he said he had floorball practice the day before.
As usual, i told them to sit outside, complete the work before joining back the class once they are done.
Hamizan was unhappy, obviously.
He threw tantrums.
Kicked the furniture, threw his bag and give me that "i'm-going-to-scratch-your-car" look, while mumbling(and cursing me, i guess) under his breath.
I told him that unless he knew how to manage his time, he has to be out of the floorball team.
He gave me that defiant look while his tears streamed down.
I will never forget that look.
Look full of hatred and resentment.
Once he cooled down, i had to reason out with him of my actions towards him.
He understood that i was not punishing him.
My relationship with him improved from that day onwards.
He did all my homework (although mostly wrong).
He no longer disturbs his classmates.
In other words, i no longer need to scold him.
All i have to do, is call his name with a firm voice, and he knew instantly that i meant business.
I'm thankful that i could be a part of his troubled life.
That i am able to give him the encouragement to not succumb to adversities of life.
It's true when people say, you either make or break someone's day.
In this case, his attitude towards learning.
Well, in my class at least.
What happen to the cotton ball?
I had to throw it away.
Parents forbid me to keep it claiming that Auntie Rocker lives in that plant and seeing that it came all the way from Mt.Bromo in Surabaya, Indonesia.
Furthermore, i'm a bride. Darah manis, they say.
For all you know, they say, that "thing" reminded Hamizan of me.
Well, i listened to parents of course.
But i never forget Hamizan.
The boy who took the effort to collect the cotton from Mt Bromo, just for me.
KL Trip - Part 2
I was in no mood to update the basi KL trip.
But apparently somebody told me that she is actually eagerly waiting for me to update.
Tak tahu pulak i have such a faithful reader. LOL!
Ok here goes!
I forgot to add that the 1st day ended in a shopping trip at Sunway Piramid.
It's a super huge shopping mall, in the vicinity of Sunway Lagoon.
With bright, beautiful & aesthetically designed lights all over.
Rasa macam Christmas, only better.
The branded stuff sold there were cheaper than Singapore's and more variety & latest design. Even better than KLCC.
So what did i shop for?
Books! I know, i'm a sucker for books.
But i bought books that are not available in Singapore, ok?
I was thinking of going there with my aunt, uncle & their girls.
Oh well, i dont think it will be near future.
So 2nd day, it was an early day for me.
Especially when i finally went to bed near 1am after making my rounds and making sure the girls are safe in their rooms.
We started off at 7am for breakfast before leaving to go to SkyTreks.
A particular company that runs high-elements obstacles in the midst of their nature reserved forest.
The girls did flying foxes, balancing beams, flying trapeze, stuff like that about 7 metres off the ground.
I was so proud of them!
The initial screams & squeals & shakiness eventually blows away as the girls exhibited bravery, courage and confidence.
The one-cycle activity became to 3-cycles for all of them.
They did not want to leave the place & even wanted to try the adult version!
But time is finite hence, we have to make a move.
After lunch at Pizza Hut & a short (uninteresting) Shah Alam tour, we made our way to FRIM.
FRIM - Forest Research Institute of Malaysia.
A group of people who looked after the 140 year old forest.
It has a nice view.
Scenery that was photographed to make the cover page of National Geographic magazines.
The weather was beautiful. Not too hot, not too cold. Very cooling.
The downside?
We had an ABSOLUTELY, SICKENING, IRRITATING, SUPER BAD & RUDE ranger to guide us through the forest.
He was a racist towards Singaporeans.
Keep condemning Singapore & Singaporeans.
My last straw came, when he made pervertic remarks towards the girls.
Bearing in mind, ours was the female bus.
There was not a single male looking after us.
The 4 of us had to stand up and protect our girls.
He was, after that angry with us & shortened the whole walk. Thank God!
But one thing i can't forget (apart from the biadab ranger), was when Erika came to me and said this,
"Ms Durrah, i need to go to the toilet. Very urgent!"
And she was squirming and almost in tears.
All teachers knew, once kids are almost in tears, it means they cant hold on to their bladder any more.
My problem is, we were in the middle of the jungle!
It will take 30mins before we are out of the forest and it will take another 30mins if we were to retrace back our steps.
Either way, she had to wait 30 mins more.
After nagging at her for not listening to me when i told them to go the toilet before we enter the forest, i said, "I will give you a $100, if you can find in a toilet in the middle of this forest. Or else, either you hold back to your bladder or you do it behind the bushes."
It was just a threat, by the way.
I knew the pantangs in a forest. No pee-ing everywhere.
But Erika managed to hold on to her pee. She did the 200m sprint to the toilet upon stepping on the tarred road. LOL! It was hilarious!
We were out of the forest just in time before came the super heavy downpour.
Another group, with the P was stuck in the forest in the heavy rain. Poor them!
Me on the other hand, found out that i dropped my brooch in the forest & reached the ground with my terkibai-kibai tudung. Sigh.... Had to make a quick dash to the shopping complex beside the hotel just to buy a new brooch.
2nd day at KL was a kecoh day.
I will leave the Graduation Night and Day 3 updated to another entry.
Till then!
House Woes
The search for the dream marital home has been intense since the past 3 months, the moment i knew that the ROMM registration confirmation can be used as a proof document in our search of our homes.
For me & fiance, the house is really an urgent need.
There's really no space in my parents' flat to accommodate the 2 of us.
The in-laws? Err..i would rather not go that way.
It's too stressful for me to not just adapt to married life, but to adapt to the in-laws house rules & expectations too soon.
I want to take it slow & steady.
I've always wanted to stay in my vicinity.
Not just to take advantage of the parents' grant but also, in the long run, it's nearer to both our work places & parents have readily agreed to look after our kids.
Furthermore, it's not really for off from the in-laws' place.
And i know in times of emergency, the parents & siblings would be more than happy to lend me a helping hand & i know i have no qualms about their love & sincerity in helping me out.
Blame it on my childhood experiences.
Believe it or not, the events in my childhood life made me aware of certain things more.
As such, i am much more determined that my marriage & kids will not ever have to go through what i did.
I had a hard time coercing (or rather insisting) the fiance to agree on my decision (that i will not budge) of staying near with my parents.
He wanted to stay at Punggol or Sengkang, the newer flats.
The high reno cost for resale flat is his major concern (and mine, too).
The only issue is that both sets of parents want a say in our choice of home.
Or rather, i felt that they want to have a part & feel important and relevant in our lives, their children.
I guess it's not easy for them to marry off their eldest children.
Seeing their kids leaving home & building our own future & family.
But on the other hand, they forgot that their kids are no longer kids anymore.
We are turning the big 3-0 soon.
As much as i want them to be involved in our lives, i do want a space for us, as a couple.
Sis said, "This is what happens when you have two families involved."
Out of respect and love, we listened to them.
But what happens when all don't see eye to eye? WE suffer.
How do i feel?
Honestly, part of me i felt blessed to have 2 sets of parents who loved us, who accepted us, who wanted us to stay near them.
Out of the many things in this world, it's them that money can't buy.
Their love and most of all, their doas & blessings that we need most in this life, and thereafter.
THAT keeps us giving in, and giving in, and giving in to them endlessly.
But on the other hand, i wished they respect our decisions.
Yes, we may be immature (in their eyes) and stuff like that, but how i wished they remember that we are adults, getting married & badly wanted to be independent & build our own family & home on our own.
Yes, they may advise us on certain decisions we made.
That we gladly accept and appreciate.
But please, don't give us that "you-don't-know-anything", "i-told-you-so", "you-are-going-to-regret" kind of attitude & tone on us.
Ultimately, it is our home that we are building.
Give us a chance to build our own dreams.
It's time you let go.
Every decisions come with pros & cons.
While the decisions we made may not be to your liking, please do not make us feel guilty for the decisions we made for our lives.
It's hard to consider 4 people's different opinions.
We still need all of you to guide us through.
We promised we will consider all of your advices and opinions.
But...
Please spare a thought for us.
Please give us a chance to carve our own future.
We don't need you to make us feel guilty and incompetent in making our own life choices.
All of you have brought up the two of us well.
We will survive, though hard it seems to all of you.
We do not want to keep relying on any of you.
We choose to get married, have our own home, kids, car etc.
Therefore, we will bear all the consequences though we NEVER doubted any of your good intentions.
Is respecting our decisions and wanting independence, too much for us to ask?
Women
I can't help but felt so sebak when i came across this particular poem about women.
It brought me to recall what my family has been through.
There's a saying that goes, "Behind every successful man, there's a woman."
Apparently, that saying comes from Islam teachings, that a woman is the one that makes or break a society.
Women carries the burden of bringing up their offsprings with the right akhlak & moral values.
A responsibility that is questionable in later life.
A no easy task at all.
God is fair. While syurga isteri terletak pada keredhaan suami, syurga lelaki terletak di telapak kaki sang ibu.
As i'm entering into marriage, i'll be lying if i say i'm not afraid at all.
In fact, i am.
I wonder will i be able to be isteri solehah?
Will i be able to be ibu mithali?
Will i be able to be a filial daughter & daughter-in-law?
But i know, somewhere, somehow, someone, will guide me along the way.
So to all the other women in my lives, whom i love & care about, or even you who just came by to be a reader, here's something to share with you.
Amazing Creation from God
By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything
with only two hands."
The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands! No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish."
But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."
The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?" asked the angel.
The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."
The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment,
her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."
And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
And laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
When they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
And cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
A birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member.
Yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
Can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
To show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH
KL Trip - Part 1
Hello, hello, hello!
I'm back from the KL trip.
It's been 8 years since i went for a holiday. This excludes the short trip with the family to Nilai last year.
The trip, surprisingly were fun.
Fun, basically because i had 9 really good and obedient girls in my group.
We started off as early as 6.15am to Tuas.
Cleared the immigration quite fast, before a long, almost 6 hours journey to KL.
Girls, being girls, we had to stop almost 4 times just for toilet breaks.
In the end, we were always the last bus to reach for lunch and dinners.
Upon reaching KL, we headed for lunch before going to Batu Caves.
I gawked upon seeing that LOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGG climb up the stairs.
To be exact, 204 steps non-stop, under the scorching hot sun.
I'm not kidding.
I literally feel my skin tingle & burning.
For the 1st time in my life, sun block and i, became the best of friends.
By the time, i reached the top, i was so giddy, with wobbly knees.
I had a mind not to enter the cave, but at the same time, i was really eager to see what's inside the cave.
Braced myself up to remain standing, & apply tonnes of minyak kapak, so that the giddyness go away.
Inside the cave?
It was awesome!
Geography lessons which i took 11 years ago, became alive.
Geography lessons which i failed throughout my secondary school days (except 'O' levels), became real and applicable to me.
The bats, the wind-tunnel, stalactites & stalagmites, columns, river depressions were all too real for me.
Why wasn't such opportunity given to me during my school days?
I regret that photo-taking were not allowed in the caves.
I was amazed by what Allah created in this world.
The cave was 140 million years old. Imagine that!
Of course, there were plenty of cockroaches.
The girls were leaping and screaming.
Sabrina was very nice to hold on tight to my hands because she knew i was still dizzy, and literally couldn't walk straight.
Sheesh, talking about me looking after the kids.
There was one part where we stopped in the middle of the cave.
All lights off, even the watch lights.
We were in total darkness.
Darkness which i have never been in before.
I cant even see the outline of my fingers.
It made me think, probably that is what the blind is facing.
Here we are taking our sight for granted.
When they live in total darkness, not being able to see the colours of the world.
The kids made me climb another 70 more steps to the peak to see the temple cave.
They wanted to hold the huge iguana & long, slimy snakes.
I stood 5 metres away from them while cheering them on to touch and put the snake around their neck.
Haha! Such an irony.
In total, i climbed 274 steps.
The walk down, was much bearable.
Not tiring but i took another half an hour, with Asirah holding my hand.
Why?
Simply because i'm afraid of heights!
The steps were step.
The width of my shoes is bigger than the steps.
I'm so afraid of rolling down the flight stairs.
The day ended at 9pm.
Checked in into the hotel. Debrief. Settle the kids' room.
Orientate them the rules & regulations in the room, before i retreat to bed at 1am.
Updates of Day 2 & 3 will be coming soon.
So are the pictures in FB!
Tunggu....
Teacher cum Facilitator cum Nanny cum Babysitter
Ok, so i am going on my virgin trip with the school on official duty.
The inaugaral P6 Graduation trip cum prom night to KL.
I managed to escape the many working trips overseas for the past 6 years at Cedar.
Look, overseas working trips is not just attending meetings or conferences or what people call it as outstation.
Overseas trips for teachers means dragging other people's children halfway across the globe.
Ok, i'm exaggerating here. Not halfway across the globe, but you do get the idea.
Parents leave their trust (or not) to look after and send back their precious little angels (or otherwise) without a scratch or bruise.
In all the previous trips, the AM & P & the group teacher had to make a trip to the country's hospital.
We even had one parent who travelled all the way to China to pick the child up.
I'm told to prepare for the Korea trip in March, but this KL trip came as a surprise to me, since i'm taking the graduating classes this year.
It's only 3D2N trip, but i'm nervous about it.
It's the biggest group going in the internationalisation trip history - 150 children.
By coach. Across the causeway. 5 hour journey.
I'm expecting kids to go "uwek, uwek" along the journey.
I'm expecting kids to stop the coach in the middle of nowhere to go to the toilets.
I heard my colleagues told me that they literally had to scream at the kids and force down vege & fruits & vitamin pills down their throats.
For this trip, we are told to keep warning the kids to stay indoors after light out, due to their raging hormones at puberty.
We are so afraid of finding boys in girl's room or vice versa.
And not to mention funny, funny things that they are SO capable of.
I shudder just at the thought of it.
Thank goodness, i have 9 good girls in my care.
It's gonna be a different kind of trip i suppose.
I expected shopping trips, but NO!
It's gonna be an adventure trip.
With flying foxes, and safety harnesses and helmets and forest walk, and climbing up 204 steps at Batu Caves, with wild monkeys all around & watching the bats in the dark and observing & probably stepping on guano-s. Lots of it.
Guano-s by the way are bat's poop.
So yeah. I'm so "looking forward" to the trip.
Halfway through packing my luggage.
Most important item? My 2 packs of mosquito patches.
I had Kak Nahidah telling me, "You jangan nak buat tu semua eh! You nak jadi bride tau. Apa-apa jadi, nanti u kawin jalan senget, susah nanti."
Ish, nauzubillah!
Nevertheless, i pray for only 1 thing for this trip.
No visits to the hospital. Everyone of us come back safe & sound.
Macam nak pergi jauh ke mana ntah.
But with children around, the impossible can be possible.
My rules for the kids? Simple.
Have fun, enjoy but remember 3 things: Discipline, Safety and Obey instructions.
Like what's new from a teacher, right?
Till more updates after the trip.
Toodles!
82 Days to go...
Ok, i'm side-tracking from my initial reason of on-ing my Macbook.
I'm suppose to do my assignment, but all that i have done in the last 45 mins is go to Facebook, read online news and now blogging.
The only thing that I have done to my assignment is just change the header from TMA02 to TMA03. Great..
Yesterday, the fiance and i went to RH warehouse for our bridal outfit selection.
Of course, i drag my sister along. But she's more than happy to follow me.
Just to give me a woman's 2nd opinion of what might look best on me.
Anyway, i was rather disappointed, i must say.
First, i was told to choose only 4 out of the 8 outfits.
1 for nikah, 1 for outdoor shoot, 1 for sanding and 1 for bertandang.
The other 4 reserved for studio shoot will be chosen only on the studio shoot it self.
2ndly, i've been watching too much bridal shows on Style Network and ogling at those gorgeous dresses.
Therefore, when Kak Fauziah showed me the range to choose from, i was so, so, absolutely disappointed.
I expected to be lost in a sea of gorgeous outfits that i will be spoilt for choice, but NO, it didn't turn out that way.
Not just because i had to take from the ehem, slightly bigger range, but even if i'm one of those petite brides, the range is limited.
Finish shortlisting 7 outfits within half an hour. Finalising all 4 within 45 mins.
Sedih seh!
3rdly, some of the outfits that i wanted was out, taken by other brides.
I mean, if the brides use it for October or November weddings, it will still make it in time for my wedding in January, pe!
Why deprive others (or rather, me) from it?
But i was assured that come fitting day, i can still choose other outfits if i want to.
Felt a bit relieved.
Nevertheless, the ones that i chose, it's rather beautiful.
It's a mixture of colours. My favourite colours.
Hehe, no pics definitely...hilang seri, takde surprise.
So as of today, the outfits are only for my family's & my in-law's eyes...to prepare them for their theme outfit on the day.
My sis loves one of it the most.
I love the other one.
Bro loves another.
And the in-laws love the final one.
So all in all, the outfits are loved by almost all of us. LOL!
My fiance? He loves everything.
Then again he didnt have much say in it. The mak andam tolak him ke tepi and said, "Awak tunggu dulu eh. Biar dia pilih baju dia dulu, then baru kita matchkan baju awak."
Hehe...kesian dia. But at least all the colours suit his skin tone, too...and he approves my choice. So no hal!
So now, i'm praying hard that come fitting day, i would have lost a few inches and have other choices of outfits to choose from.
But no, i didnt regret anything. 80% i love the outfits.
I'm not a visual person.
I cant visualise myself in those outfits. I trust my sister.
On the other hand, i know, with Kak Jul's touch and the veils, i will look like a doll, again.
Just like my engagement day.
For now, 82 more days to go.
Wedding Updates
It's been quite a while since i updated by bride-zilla journey.
It's progressing i would say. Then again, no choice it has to progress, isn't it?
Went to ION Orchard last weekend to get a few stuffs for my dulang hantarans.
I have yet to go to International Plaza to collect my shoes.
Ifah's mum kindly offered to do the sireh dara for me.
Outfit selection is coming this Saturday. Definitely bringing my sister along.
Fiance's on leave on Friday.
Planning to drag him to town again to buy a few more stuffs.
Wedding invites - checked!
I'm quite panicky especially when the cards have to be out by end November.
The people said they TRY to deliver by 3rd week of November.
Know what?
I can't wait for school's term to be over.
I'm so looking forward to the self-care that is much needed - mani, pedi, spa, facial.
Kat was offering me help. She was shocked when i listed down the things i have yet to do.
She scolded me, "Excuse me? When are you getting married? 2011 is it?"
Dragging dad to survey the berkat at the wholesalers next Monday.
Have to go Arab street beli kain untuk baju hantaran.
I want mum to sew for me.
Not to mention the mess at home. In my wardrobe especially.
And the thought of taking out the tikar in the store room yang macam tongkang pecah scared me to death.
Didn't know nak kahwin pun stress gini.
Dahlah keluar banyak duit, the stress lagi. Not to mention the aftermath of the wedding.
It took us 3 days to fully clean the house after the engagement.
Tu pun, the next day, all lepak gila.
Wedding will be worst, especially when we have to travel to 2 sides to help clean.
Unless nak ke rembat with both sides of the family.
For now, there's the KL trip next weekend.
Not fun if you have to look after 150 children.
I'll be there on official duty not some holiday trip.
That's the update of my current life.
Nampak je cool, but actually feel like pulling my hair out.
I really need a personal assistant.
Memories as it is
I connected with some old friends through FB.
Pictures were posted.
And it never failed to amuse me how far (and old) all of us have become.
Old friends whom i was close to (back then), some i was even close with their families.
Some whose siblings were only 2 years old back then, have now grown to teenagers and adults, some even married.
Friends' parents who always welcome us to their homes and feed us well, have became frail and some had even passed on.
Friends who were always around me, have moved on with their lives.
Some more successful than others.
Some grown prettier/ handsome-er/ taller or still remain status quo over the years.
Some married, with few children.
Some even married & divorced.
But definitely all of us have matured over the years.
Mistakes were now forgotten and forgiven.
Friendships are once forged again. This time with spouses & children in tow.
Hoping to make it a family friend.
I can't help but being sentimental.
Of cos' in my original clique of the 5 of us, i'm the last to get married.
But hey, no worries. I'm no "minah kawin-kawin."
Looking through their photos in FB, made me reminisce back to the old, kental, kecoh days.
These, of cos' are my secondary school friends.
The naughty times we spent playing tricks on teachers and friends and merayap-ing at Parkway.
The fun times we spent at school events and supporting one another in competitions.
The stressful times we spent mugging for our 'O's and being 'detained' for self-study programmes.
We study hard but play hard too.
But so many years have gone past.
We changed in some ways. For good, hopefully.
So me being one of the last few to get married, i hope to get some, if not all of them gathered once again.
Cos' the kahwin-kahwin cycle is ending soon. It's the start of cukur rambut cycle. Soon the cycle of "my son's / daughter's wedding" will come.
At times i do wish we could go back to visit some of our past.
Just to relive certain moments once again. I missed them.
But till that is ever possible, memories will remain memories. Be it fond or otherwise.
Cos' once a person stepped into our lives, they will somehow leave behind footprints.
And we are never the same again.
Belated Teachers' Day Dinner 2009
TDD has taken different format since my first TDD in 2004.
While i enjoyed the games & nonsense stuff going on in previous TDDs, at least now, it's cheaper, we can come and go as we want, & no pressure in finding outfits to fit certain themes.
THAT is very stressful for me.
This year's was held at Straits Kitchen, Hyatt Hotel. The initial plan to have a BBQ in school (budget constraint) turned to this when staff welfare announced we have surplus money given to us!
My first time being there. Heard lots of good reviews about it, but i was rather sceptical cos' i know it's all about local cuisine.
I was absolutely WRONG! The food was SUPERB!
I tried the chilli crab (with Nahidah's crab "flying" away), carrot cake, fried kway teow, roti kirai and some vege & chicken. All about just a spoonful each.
Didn't try all, cos by the 2nd round, i was full.
I'm not a big eater.
They had free flow of fruit juices.
Wanted to get the sugarcane, but told me it was additional cost at $8++ for a glass!
That's crazy. I could get 4 days worth of sugarcane juice with that amount.
Gave that a miss.
The only downside was, there were no chocolatey stuffs or western dessert.
Desserts were like kuih lapis, ondeh-ondeh & the likes.
Price was quite reasonable about $50+++. About the same as Carousel.
Was thinking of fiance the whole time.
Probably, there could be an occasion where we could go there together.
Such a nice cosy place.
But all that food would have gone to waste without good company.
The whole jing-gang managed to "pull" tables together (with the disapproval look by the waitress, but like we care) at a corner, away from the management people, with exception of Zaki.
It was good seeing Ain come to join us.
Topics range from normal, daily stuff to F1 to Beyonce's concert even to boob-jobs. LOL!
Wonder how that came about. It was joined by our VP though.
The "seniors" were discussing how to induct Seetha & I into marriage life & pregnancy, to child-birth.
The topics were crazy.
The night ended (for me) at about 10pm. Got a lift from Maimon. Both were sleepy & tired & couldn't join the rest for supper coffee.
Furthermore, it was late already. If i used to have mum & dad giving me curfews, now i had my fiance to set curfews for me.
Alright, people! Next bonding session, coming Friday.
Mid-Autumn festival with mooncakes & durians (& mangosteens too, i heard).
Since we are not intending to buy lanterns, bawaklah lampu suluh sendirilah. ya?
Spend so much time at work, that colleagues eventually evolved to become friends.
Pictures will up soon. Both here & in FB. Give me some time, ya?
Roles & responsibilities
We can't deny the many roles we play in life.
Some roles contradict each other, some roles get in the way of another.
And what do you do when you are torn between 2 important roles?
Sister:
Her excitement, nervousness, anxiety all rolled into one.
She's bringing home her bf to be introduced to the family.
She wants it to be perfect.
Mum:
The way mum talks, the wrinkles on her forehead, her quivering voice, her solemn face.
I knew she was worried about what sis had told her the previous night.
She's confused. She's afraid. She's worried.
For dad, for me, for sis.
I caught her crying when she's getting ready for work.
Two different events. Two different emotions. On the same day?
Me?
I knew my sister's excitement & anxiety.
Been there done that.
I'm happy for her. I hope she wont go through what i went through.
Have been putting in good words for her bf to dad.
Mum, on the other hand.
She's a perfectionist.
She's out to impress her potential in-laws about how good her daughter is.
How they can rely on her daughter to look after their son's tummy.
A criteria that all mums look for in a daughter-in-law.
How do i know?
Apart from been there, done that, mum told me personally.
Mum expects me to tell her expectations to sis.
Sis expects me to tell mum what she wants, which often don't go too well with mum.
I HATE being in between. Both are often at loggerheads.
Both didn't see each other's point.
My view?
When it comes to your marriage, just allow mums to do anything they want as long as they give us their blessings & approval. After all, that's just what we want.
And because of these 2, it's either i end up quarreling with sis or mum.
It's just whom i choose.
More often, i'll keep quiet but will end up quarreling with sis, cos' maybe it's my stand and philosophy that maybe she should just give in to mum.
How long more do we live in this world?
Do we want to die as unfilial children? No doubt sometimes mum can be unreasonable, but after exchanging a few words, no harm letting her "win".
It hurts when people i love most misunderstood me.
Tell me, how do i put your request across to an upset mum?
I tried to be there for you. Yet, this had to happen.
But you?
Where were you when it was MY day? It happened thrice.
For the same reason. Your ego & stubbornness.
Which has got nothing to do with me, unfortunately.
You abandoned me when i need you most. When you matter most to me.
Yes, i have many flaws. FULL of them.
But i tried my best not to let my flaws get in the way of your happiness.
I truly want to be there for you.
I want to make it perfect for you.
I want to make it perfect for mum.
I don't want you to go through what i did.
Unless, you don't want me to.
Then tell me so.
Panicky...Panicky
I get the panic attack each time i came to this blog of mine & saw the countdown ticker.
It's only 2 months away (minus dec where many things should have been settled), and MANY major things have not been done.
My invites not ordered, let alone printed.
My dais design not decided.
My bedroom deco not decided.
My cake design & flavour not decided.
My hantaran gifts not bought yet (except the ring).
Food not decided. So is the berkat.
Realised that i do NEED the solemnisation corner decorated. And i don't want Decorama to do it for me. Therefore, now searching for a last minute one.
Gubahan concept not decided.
Guests list not listed.
Haven't gave tinketz my pics for the guestbook.
Haven't call up the artist to have our caricature done.
Haven't send Flipside my songs for the video montage.
Haven't send the DJ my song compilation.
Haven't decided if mum still wants the Dibai'e group on Sunday morning.
Haven't gone for the ROMM interview. Must find a common, convenient date for all 4 of us: Me, fiance, dad & dad-in-law, which is almost near to impossible.
Of cos' his side, there's the hadrah that he havent book & i'm getting really panicky.
Bus & car are still vastly available.
But the hadrah?
Great. Macam lawak kelakar seram kan? Nak kahwin, satu benda pun belum buat.
When by early Dec, invites should be out. All should have been decided & gubahan should have been sent.
Too many things to look into now.
Not to mention the extreme pressure of the kids' and MY exams round the corner.
Even dreamt last night that i forgot to study for my exam.
I seriously need a personal assistant or a secretary. LOL!
Anyone interested to apply?
I'm a perfectionist. I want things to be done my way.
Maybe that's the problem.
Maybe i should delegate some of these things to my sister, perhaps.
For now, my sister's job is to be my image consultant cum floor manager cum wedding planner cum bridesmaids coordinator.
But most of all, i just want her to be my sister.
Hopes and Expectations
Albert Ellis, a famous psychologist and one of the counseling gurus mentioned in his book,
"To love and care for self means loving and caring for self unconditionally. To accept one's own limitations and imperfections. To live for oneself."
But how many of us do this, truly?
Do you dare say, you lived your life based on what you believed you are?
You don't need recognition for what you did? You don't need approval from others? You don't need appreciation from others?
How many of us have asked this question, "Who am i?".
Are we defining ourselves based on our career, family or friends?
Too often we said, we love others unconditionally.
We accept others for what we are.
Do we really?
Do we not have expectations on others?
That a mother should be behaving ....
A father should be ....
A husband should be ....
A wife should be ....
We became disappointed when we "expect" something from someone, but it didn't materialise.
And we say, "I didn't expect that from you."
I admit i have been doing lots of reflection lately.
On myself, on the different events that took place lately, on my r/s with people around me.
I guess people have many expectations on me.
As a daughter, as the eldest, as a teacher, as a management, as a fiance & wife-to-be, as a daughter-in-law, as a niece.
And i have high expectations on myself.
I'm a perfectionist.
It's taking a toll on me.
To live up to these expectations.
I love whatever i'm doing now. I love the people around me.
I just wish i had the time to go for self-retreat, to rejuvenate, to have a me-time & come back a better person.
Jangan Bersedih
Currently looking for this book. Saw my aunt reading it some time back, but have yet to find it.
It will do all of us good reading this Islamic motivational book.
Well, things may not always go the way we wanted it to be.
All our prayers may be not be answered 100% but i believed it is answered in certain ways.
I'll be lying if i said i am not affected by all these.
I'm fighting back tears. I'm fighting back all my negative feelings.
To stop myself from not believing in qada' dan qadar.
I know, the responsibility is high on me to remain logical for my family at least.
One member have to.
The responsibilty on me that life will have to continue for me & my loved ones.
That the 'journey' be made less painful for all of us.
It's not easy for me to hide all these emotions, but i told myself i have to for their sake.
I'm taking one thing at a time.
Allah has His reasons, thus i chose to believe, all these, though hard to swallow, will bring some kind of good to all of us.
Who am i to question Him? He knows what's best for us although sometimes it seems unfair to us.
Just like taking medicine. It's bitter. It's painful. But all that is needed to cure our ailments.
Same for all His tests.
It's bitter. It's painful. But all that is needed to cure our ailments spiritually.
I'm taking it calmly. Sometimes, you just have to see and count your little blessings.
At least all of us remain intact & united.
At least my wedding will still go on as planned.
At least i found who are the true friends.
That itself is a blessing.
A quote i once read:
"Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari.. Dia datangkan petir dan kilat.. kita menangis dan tertanya-tanya, ke mana hilangnya sinar.. Rupa-rupanya,Allah nak hadiahkan kita pelangi.."
It's true.
Sometimes what we deemed as "bad", may not be so.
To end this entry, i had this from excerpts of Jangan Bersedih by La Tahzan:
"Tiada suatu bencana yang menimpa di bumi dan (tidak pula) pada dirimu sendiri, melainkan dia telah tertulis dalam kitab (Lauh Mahfuzh) sebelum Kami menciptakannya"
(QS. Al Hadid:22)
"Barangsiapa yang Allah dikehendaki menjadi baik maka ia akan diuji olehNya" (Al-Hadits)
InsyaAllah, all of us will get through this safely and peacefully dengan penuh keredhaan dan ketaqwaan. Amin
Tribute to Teachers
I received these two things from friends.
Something for all teachers to think about and hopefully 'renew' their passion in this field, which sometimes go away after so many trials and tribulations.
A Tribute To Teachers
There is no job more important than yours
no job anywhere in the land
You are the keepers of the future
You hold the smallest of hands
Into your care you are trusted
to nurture and care for the young
and for all your everyday heroics
your talents and skills go unsung
You wipe tears from the eyes of the injured
You rock babies brand new in your arms
You encourage the shy and unsure child
You make sure they are safe from all harms
You foster the bonds of friendship
letting no child go away mad
you respect and you honour their emotions
you give hugs to each child when they are sad
You have more impact than does a professor
a child's mind is moulded by four
so whatever you lay on the table
is whatever the child will explore
Give each child the tools for adventure
let them be artists and writers and more
let them fly on the wind and dance on the stars
and build castles of sand on the shore
It is true that you don't make much money
and you don't get a whole lot of praise
but when a small child say "I LOVE YOU"
you're reminded of how this job pays.
-by Muhammad Abdullah Al-Samarraie-
And this movie that reminds us how our actions, or lack of it, impacted a child's life.
Teachers' Day celebration 2009
Another celebration for teachers' day.
My 6th year celebrating it. The novelty has long gone, when one realise what the rest of the 364 days has in store for a teacher.
Nevertheless, for memories sake.
As usual teachers' day is also aces day.
Started off with the Cedar big walk. It's literally BIG! about 45 mins walk around the school's vicinity.
Followed by relief before the concert.
Concert this year took the games segment concept.
Luckily i manage to escape the "Are you smarter than a P6-er?" game.
If not i would be embarrassing myself on the stage.
But i didn't escape the Project Runway. Design an evening dress with papers and trash bags.
Mumtaz, Anita & myself dressed up Ken Chong in a 'halter-neck tube' top. Lol!
But the best, was when Ken did a catwalk juz like a bapok LOL!
We won, of cos! A $10 popular voucher each.
Presents as usual were overflowing.
From ornaments to unwanted berkat jemputan to cupcakes, kuih putih telur, muffins, stationaries and of course my favourite, those heartfelt cards & notes, with their scrawly handwriting.
But the most touching, goes to Hanis.
My irritating yet funny P6 boy. I went 'awww' the moment he gave his present.
It's so uncool for a boy to give teachers presents especially the P6s. He was shy when he gave it to me. Wanting to get it over and done with before running away.
This was what was written,
"Thank you for...
Teaching me right from wrong.
Helping me to keep my dreams in sight.
Creating a smile from my frown.
I don't know where i would be without you!"
And my all-time cute & adorable Naila wrote,
" Dear Cikgu Durrah,
Happy Teacher's Day! Thank you for teaching me Malay last year.
I really enjoyed it. You are always kind, pretty, helpful, sometimes scary and fun.
You are the best Malay teacher in the world."
I know i'm scary. I looked like Trunchbull at times. Lol!
To me, satisfaction comes when i see the children grow to have the right moral compass.
And know that deep down inside my heart, i love each and every single one of them (walaupun mencekik darah) and that in my eyes, all of them are special in their own ways.
Dinner has been postponed till after Ramadhan.
Now we are going for cake-cutting (dapat tengok aje).
And after the whole day, i'm imagining a cold, mango ice blended now.
Sigh!
Of stress and pressure
It's time of the year again where i see more white hairs than any other part of the year.
Yes, PSLE is only 38 days away.
The pressure is intense. The stress is at its max. The expectations are at its highest. The time is limited, therefore, free time is lessened.
Parents, school, teachers have very high expectations on the children.
All of us want to see them successful and pass with flying colours.
After taking P6s for 6 consecutive years, with the exception in 2007, I am used to this high-strung pressure especially during September to October period.
Teachers' Day is just a few days away. I've been reflecting on my journey as a teacher so far.
It hasn't been easy. But i remember all the fond times i had with the children. I'm happy that i am part of their growing years and see them developed along the years.
This batch of P6s that i'm taking right now, is my first batch of P1s when i started in 2004.
They have grown so much. Physically, intellectually, emotionally, morally and socially.
To me, my greatest satisfaction is when these kids grow up with the right moral values.
Being a top student is a bonus to me.
Honestly, i hate to see each batch leave Cedar.
Each batch is different. After being together for 6 years, they have built their own class identity.
But one thing for sure, despite the frustrations i had with them, despite them irritating me with their annoying habits, they made me laugh and discover myself more.
Each batch is funny in their own ways.
But with the 2008 batch, i still remember this particular incident clearly.
It was around this time, in 2008. Teacher's Day is round the corner. So is PSLE.
It was my last lap preparing them for PSLE.
During my lesson, i saw a piece of paper being passed around. The paper was read under books and tables. Notes were written on it before being passed again.
All these happened when i was teaching.
I got distracted & upset. Here i was trying to make them learn from their mistakes, there they were passing notes & giggling.
As usual, first warning were given. Still, it continued.
Second warning came. Still it didn't stop.
My temper came and i demanded the paper be given to me.
They refused. By then i was so angry i snatched the paper and tore them. All of them looked petrified.
The class were upset. But they told me, before they left, "Cikgu, we are sorry for what we did. But please, don't read the paper that you just tore."
It dawned on me that it could be something fishy going on. The least i wanted was them ganging up against each other (which often happened).
After they left, i picked back the pieces from the dustbin, broke my promise & pieced up the pieces together.
What i saw, brought tears & guilt to me.
They were collecting funds and assigning duties to one another to give me a surprise teacher's day party for me.
I realised that they did it in my class, cos' they came from different classes & the only time they got to meet as a big group was during my class.
I cried and confided my guilt to Ain.
It was a lesson for me. Never be judgmental. To have extra patience.
The guilt is still in me till this day.
Of cos, not to dampen their spirit, i pretended i didn't know anything.
On teacher's day eve, we had a class party. They treated me like a queen.
But i did something that made them realise i'm human too.
I apologised to the children.
From then on, they realised that teachers are humans too.
We made mistakes.
Cos' often times, they think we are weird people, who don't have families. Who don't do grocery shopping. Who are perfect and know everything.
That incident make me a much humble person.
So what if they are children.
If i need to apologise, i will.
As teachers, all of us realised one thing.
The children do not learn much from us as much as we learn from them.
Teaching is a journey of discovering oneself.
To all teachers, out there, have a happy & enjoyable celebration tomorrow.
Life as it is
It's been a long time since i've blogged something happy or uplifting.
Simply because life is not as uplifting as it was a few months back.
In fact, it hasn't been since the past 2 years, but having loved ones around you and excerpts of happy events and occasions here and there, make life more bearable.
Life itself has never been this stressful before.
I've kept many things within myself.
I've even contemplated going for counselling to ask the professionals to help me sort out my thoughts and feelings.
It's too berkecamuk at this point in time. I just need someone other than my immediate family members to give me a different light and perspective.
But the time has yet to come. It will come soon, real soon.
Everyone's on tenterhooks. Everyone's praying hard.
I'm trying to remain positive, hopeful yet preparing for the worst. Such an irony!
Ramadhan is just round the corner.
As i grow older, i realised the holiness of the Ramadhan month.
And as it comes nearer, it gets more and more emotional for me.
It has been a rough ride for all of us.
But i believe it will come to an end soon.
The wheel of life goes up and comes down. But it will definitely be up again, insyaAllah.
Dear Allah,
You have seen our tears.
You have heard our cries.
You have heard our deepest wishes.
Whatever You have given us, we redha.
We have put our complete faith & trust in you.
You have given us the strength to carry this challenge.
For this Ramadhan, please take it away from all of us.
Please wipe away my parents' tears.
Please bring back the happiness to them.
Please bring back the laughter in them.
Please let them live their old age together happily.
Even if my prayers are not answered, please answer theirs.
In You we placed our deepest hope, faith and trust.
We need miracles from You.
And may Ramadhan be full of blessings for this family of mine.
Amin
Truth only reveals itself when one gives up all preconceived ideas
It hurts much.
It cuts deep when the people that matters most to you, that you care about, misunderstood you.
Misunderstood SO much that it is beyond any explanation that could repair the situation.
Unresolved misunderstandings could just snowballed to more ill-feelings and ill-thoughts towards the other person.
The other person could just harbour lots of guilt, lots of unfairness towards the other.
Relationships are then destroyed. Relationships that were built for ages diminished into thin air.
Thinking became pessimistic and judgmental. Truth were not surfaced. And forever, the truth will never be believed.
For me, once the truth is surfaced, and judgements are still be made, i'll leave it to God.
No matter how much i have forgiven, no matter how much i've forgotten, certain things are meant to stay. Some things will never be the same again. Never.
It's only through the adversities of life, that one can see the heart of all the people around them.
If strangers can provide the comfort we need, the least i could ask from you is don't judge us.
Be thankful for what you have. Cos' you'll never know how fortunate you are to have all those until God takes it away from you.
For now, at this point in time, i treasure nothing, but the family ties that Allah has bestowed upon us.
It's ok if you turned away from us. As long as Allah still hear our cries, it's all that matter to us.
May you be happy & find what you have been looking for.
And no matter what you think of us, no matter what you feel about us, i still love you.
A new baby is like the beginning of all things-wonder, hope, a dream of possibilities.
What a way to know about the news.
Happen to read about it on her hubby's facebook entry.
I just had to call her and hear it from her mouth.
Yes, my bestie is pregnant! Woohoo!
I don't know why i'm so excited, but i'm truly happy for her.
Truly, truly happy.
It may seem very fast, since she just got married in June this year.
But Allah has given her the blessings.
She's making me her child's godmother.
I have one more baby that i can partly call my own. Hehe!
Oh bestie, how time flies!
From where we came from to seeing you becoming a mother in 9 months time.
Have a safe & happy pregnancy!
I'll see you soon!
Friends are kisses blown to us by angels
A friend is not the one who cries with you but the one who wipes your tears.
I'm really heartened and touched by the non-stop words of comfort, pats on shoulders, comforting smiles, "are you ok?" verses and many more from my colleagues.
They are the last people i expect to say anything to me, cos' not all of them knew what's happening in my life now.
3 days away from work, apparently they missed me. They noticed i was away for a long time.
It doesn't matter if they "missed" me because of work purposes or i'm truly missed.
It's their genuine care & concern that touched me to tears.
During that 3 days away, i knew many were involved in covering my duties & workload.
And now that i have to take another 2 days, i felt bad i wished i wouldn't need to.
It's the 3rd working day since my last MIA.
I still have people coming to me if i was ok. If i needed any help. If everything's ok. If i needed a shoulder to cry on.
Honestly, i've been stuck in my cubicle to catch up with work. My mind's still disoriented.
I realised i forgot to sort out the exam papers for this morning.
The heads smsed me to remind me nicely. They weren't angry. They knew my life had been disrupted. I couldn't ask for more, can i?
I'm thankful for the daily sms-es by my P and Faridah asking me how am i.
Kat for telling me that i'm missed and if everything's ok with me.
Siva for that heart warming smile and hug.
Mr Sun and VP for the constant "How are yous?"
Naufal & Fadil covering my Robotics stuff and sacrificing their time off.
Elaine for arranging reliefs.
Jolene who came back from her semester break to help me out. I missed that girl.
Kamariah who helped me do some marking.
Of cos' not to mentioned others, who covered my duties with no complains & relieving my classes.
I promised, after all this is over, a small token is coming their way.
Many people come and go from this school. Many complained.
I, too, complained of the endless work.
But i love being here, honestly.
The people here are really like a family to me.
I don't think i'll ever leave this place if everyone else remains here.
I not one who can show my emotions openly to the people i care about.
But let this blog be a place where i keep all my emotions, till i shut my eyes.
To all, who have helped me in one way or another,
In big or small ways,
Encouraging me and supporting me,
Not judging me and accepting me for what i am,
For all the love, care & concern,
That really moved me to tears.
Thank you so very much!
I love you guys.
This journey won't be easy without all of you around.
I'm truly blessed to have all of you around me.
I can't thank you guys enough.
I know i'll be ok with all of you watching out for me.
Short Update
If you've noticed, my sister & i have been missing from the cyber world, namely the blogging world, twitter & FB for quite some time.
We had some things to attend to. Some important things.
Although it has yet to be settled, it was nice to be given a breather from whatever we are going through.
Sometimes i wonder what is Allah trying to show us. Whatever it is, i prayed that He shows us why all these had to happen.
No, i had no regrets. It's an experience. A learning experience for all of us. An experience that tests our faith for Him. An experience that tests our trust towards our loved ones. An experience that puts our relationship to light.
And i'm thankful for all the true friends and true love that i've found throughout this ordeal.
There are times i feel like i'm breaking down. The pressures and expectations are simply too much for me to take, admist all the other aspects of my life.
Everyday i prayed hard that whatever He gives to us, we accept it gracefully. Therefore, grant us the strength, courage, patience and wisdom to let us go through the other side safely.
People encouraged me to write a book on my life journey. If only they knew the deepest little secrets and deep emotions that i've kept within me.
Nevertheless, i believe all of us will get through this. Should Allah grant our wishes and all ends well, Ramadhan and Aidilfitri this year would bring a whole new meaning to all of us.
And i pray that my wedding will be a celebration of all the turmoils we've gone through.
I believe all these ada hikmahnya. It's a matter of how we see things.
Let's move on!
Alright, let's move on with my usual tone of blogs.
Had enough of my stalker.
I hope by now she's clear that i DO NOT envy her PATHETIC life!
Year 2 started yesterday.
It's nice seeing back most of my classmates.
Especially hearing Faruzah's laughter.
That woman has one big, hearty, contagious laughter lah.
And i'm glad that Annie is a corny lecturer.
She made funny comments about many things, which is much appreciated when this module is so dry & theory-heavy.
Thank God, i've taken it during my Advanced Diploma classes, so it's much more bearable & clearer to me.
The only thing is, she warned us that this year the exams won't be of the same standard as past years' papers.
It's gonna be harder. *gasp*
She told us to upkeep our readings consistently.
Mana ada time seh!
And read beyond the text some more!
Memorising S.Freud's theory je dah peningkan kepala aku.
Anyway, Sigmund Freud is a famous guru & theorists in human's psychology.
But i don't agree to his school of thoughts.
He basically said all humans function with lust & greed.
With lust & greed, we developed our ego.
And humans whose lust or greed not satisfied from birth to about 6 years old, will tend to have psychological & emotional problem in their adult years.
I absolutely don't agree!
Oh well, it's because as a Muslim, i'm always guided by the Islamic morals, values & beliefs.
So it's so difficult for me to find anything right let alone agree with his theory.
I so love my course of study now.
Able to learn human's psychology & reasoning.
I may look dumb or selenge, but still water runs deep ok?
It's so good to analyse people's speeches & read the hidden meaning.
Observe people's behaviours & understand their body language & personality.
With the 1st class on yesterday, today is officially my 1st zombie day for Term 3.
Many more zombie days to come.
I'm really sleepy & tired. *YAWN*
To my STALKER!
I wanted to blog about something else today..something that i've been keeping for so long..something that no one understands.
But by God's grace, i realised i found i have a blog 'stalker'.
LOL!
I thought this blog is only meant for me to keep my memories intact, or a place i share my unsaid feelings, or simply documenting my life journey.
Anyway, I'm not angry. I'm flattered that she bothered to read my posts.
Oklah, let's give this reader of mine some face, ok?
She's just 'concerned' about my life, hence being a BUSYBODY!
Maklumlah orang yang tidak berkerjaya. Memang banyak masa nak amik tahu hal orang.
Nilah orang Melayu kita. Belajar tak tinggi, tapi PHD mesti ada, beb.
Perasaan Hasad Dengki. LOL!
Hence, she's envying the life i'm leading right now.
High flying career-woman, with a purpose in life.
Planning & waiting for my BIG day.
Found myself a FH with equally good career & rising up the ladder, too.
I'm so proud of him!
Looking for our marital home, NOT intending to stay with in-laws.
Tak boleh angkat, some people ada hati nak kahwin, tapi tak mampu beli rumah.
Can't wait to start a family since all our finances are stable.
FH is surveying for a family car, that i can DRIVE to work DAILY, not setakat weekends, je.
So the 8 years of courtship is SO WORTH IT!
At least within that 8 years, we have a full planning of our life together.
At least within that 8 years, we saved quite a sum of money.
At least within that 8 years, we've build up our 6-digit CPF money.
At least within that 8 years, we've covered ourselves with insurances & investments for the easy life of our future children & our old days.
Unlike some people, nak kahwin, takde duit.
Beli rumah tak mampu.
Nak beranak, takde duit.
Lepas tu menyusahkan mak bapak, mak bapak mertua, adik-beradik, ipar-duai.
Ingat cinta aje boleh hidup ke?
Tunggu masa je in-laws kutuk.
Ada hati nak besar diri. Chet!
I'm not boasting, simply being PROUD of my achievements.
At the age of 27, i have something to my name. In fact, climbing up the ladder to management position.
Jangan marah!
Tak ingin aku jadi macam typical malays. Kahwin muda, beranak, jadi housewife.
Dapat laki baik & penyabar takpe.
Kalau laki main gila, tinggalkan, baru jadi perempuan mabuk. Takde kerja, nak besarkan anak. Baru mencacah cari kerja at the age of 40s with no qualifications & working experiences.
At least, finances & career taking off well, i can now concentrate on getting married, stable income, no debts & know i can provide my kids with nothing but the best. Mak selalu pesan. One thing at a time. There's always a right time for everything.
Tak rela aku nak besarkan anak-anak aku to work as a cleaner or chambermaids.
No pressure but let them fly as high as they could. Just like how my parents brought up my siblings & i.
Adik aku pun sekolah tak tinggi, but at least she's holding a reputable & stable job. I'm so proud of her, i really do. She's been there like what? 5 years? I'm surprised she's still there & surviving.
Alhamdulillah. Berkat doa ibu bapa.
Aku tak kuasa nak layan orang-orang HAPRAK a.k.a LOW CLASS macam si kepo ni.
Padahal, takde kena mengena dengan aku, seh!
Then again, she wouldn't know there's such a thing as IP address tracker is it?
Tsk tsk! How dumb! LOL!
So if i see any more of her IP address, CONFIRM memang dia. And this post is specially for HER!
To the rest have a nice weekend.
I'm catching Harry Potter today & tomorrow!
Yaay!
Kids say the darnest things
Disclaimer: These are all true anecdotes. Names have been changed to protect their identities, no matter how cute and adorable they are.
Teacher: Think of one 'thing' and write it down on in the column.
Smart aleck wrote 'Marcus'.
Teacher: 'Marcus' is not a thing. He's a boy.
Smart aleck: Ya, but he's irritaTING!
LOL!
Another one.
Cikgu: Warnakan benda-benda yang kamu boleh jumpa di dalam peti sejuk.
Murid A: Cikgu, taknak warnakan boleh?
Cikgu: Tidak boleh! Baca arahannya. Sesiapa yang warnakan dengan kemas dan cantik, boleh
dapat hadiah dari "lucky dip box".
Murid A: Ok. Abeh cikgu, kalau kita warna cantik tapi buruk sikit boleh?
?????!!!!!!!
One more.
Murid: Cikgu, awak cantik!
Cikgu: Iya? Terima kasih! (feels so flattered)
Murid: Bukan hari ni! Hari tu. (she was referring to my engagement day).
*slaps forehead*
Honestly, these are some of the things that make each day much more memorable, and make me love each kid more.
Their brutally honest words.
Of cos', some never fails to drive you up the wall, or make you take a step closer to your grave, or make one more white hair grow, or increase your blood pressure.
For now, my daily sleep and TV booster or simply whining away to friends and family members, is able to help me calm down and start each day being non-judgmental and revenge-free.
Right now, simply taking in the joy of seeing the little kiddos have a sense of accomplishment doing things they are good at, while taking in their chattering and laughter and not to forget entertaining their nonsensical questions.
"Cikgu, pinggan warna biru boleh?" "Boleh."
"Cikgu, pinggan warna 'pink' boleh?" "Boleh."
"Cikgu, susu boleh warna coklat?" "Boleh."
"Cikgu, susu pun ada warna strawberi kan?" "Hah? Warna strawberi?"
*Faints*
After all, all of us needs attention, assurances and afirmations from time to time.
Marriage Proposal
A FB friend shared this clip.
Is this for real?!!
Though it's romantic, unique & magical, i would freak out & yet shedding tears all at the same time.
And not to mention the pressure to say yes on the girl's part.
Imagine of the girl said no or let me think about it.
Sure malu besar seh!
Anyway, enjoy!
For those who are single, pray that your other half propose to you romantically, even if it's just a fraction of what this guy is doing.
For those who are engaged or married, i hope you had a romantic proposal.
For those who didn't, well, be thankful that at least you have someone who loves you.
This lucky girl had a magical, fairy-tale proposal, just like the Cinderella, Snow White, Rapunzel, princess-y stories that all little girls grew up with.
Hoping to find their own Prince Charming & Knight in Shining Armour riding on a white horse, one day.
I hope this couple too will end just like those fairy tales, Happily Ever After.
For me, no romantic proposal at all from the fiance. Chet!
He just dragged me to Diamond Industry & let me choose a ring to be presented to his parents so that his parents can officially ask my parents for my hand in marriage.
How 'subtle' can he be.
He assumed that i'll marry him. Or shall i say, he knew i will marry him.
So over-the-confident x 1000 & so sungguh tak tahu malu.
Oh well! That's what was written in my book of fate.
I'll just have to accept it.
After all, i do love him. So whatever goes-lah kan?
Although i may not have a magical, fairy tale proposal, i do find my Prince Charming & Knight in Black polo-T sitting in a taxi, i too want to end it with Happily Ever After, just like those fairy tales that i grew up with. InsyaAllah.
Of family and friends
It's amazing what FB has done for me. Found a few of my long-lost poly friends.
Missed those days.
At how we got chased out from the labs at 9pm. Cursing & swearing at the programmes when we can't debug them. Having lunch at Al-Ameen. Taking a bus down to Orchard during the long breaks in between. Or simply napping at some nook & cranny around the campus.
But 7 years since graduation, i have no idea why they need to send us to La Salle. I suck at art & i simply hated those Monday classes. Sigh, those were the days when life has lesser problems and we were more carefree.
Anyway, yesterday was my 1st outing with the in-laws for an official family event. His cousin's engagement. I thought it was just gonna be a visit to his uncle's place. Never did i expect to be part of the entourage to the girl's side.
And thank you eh, sayang.Tinggalkan i sorang-sorang while you temankan uncle berasap bawah blok.'
It was nerve-wrecking for me. I entered the house behind my future MIL. Everyone was scrutinising me. Everyone was asking who am i. I knew no one, except Bik Na. My fiance disappeared. My future MIL introduced me as, "Nilah tunang boy. Menantu kita". She was beaming with pride.
I just had to smile and salam like some menantu mithali (it's a private joke between me & sis. LOL) It is so not me.
Throughout the whole day, my FMIL had me by her side. Dragging me everywhere she went. Bringing me along to spy on people's gubahan just like any typical aunties.
I just had to follow her. Not to forget, she kept feeding me even though i'm bloated. She's one of those elders who will get offended if you reject her food offer. I had to force her son to eat, too. I won't suffer alone!
My intention was simple. I just hope my presence made would make her happy and ease what she was going thru' when faced with busybodies.
I felt guilty towards my own mum. I wouldn't want my mum to feel left out now that i do have a MIL. But bless her, for being a good mum and always instilling us with the correct values.
She wasn't angry or envious when i told her about my day. In fact, she encouraged me to be there for my FMIL. She reassured me that i did the right thing, and i shouldn't be feeling guilty about it. That she understood that i had a role to play as a daughter-in-law. But mum, you'll still be the best mummy in my heart. No one can ever take your place in my heart & life. That i can promise you.
After yesterday, everything just seems clearer to me. But scares me too. My role and status is about to change big time. It's no longer about me or my family. My family, in fact, is going to be doubled & tripled. I need to adapt to things quickly, especially when i'm going to be married into a big family, where everyone knows everybody else's family.
But i'll know, i'll always have my family to guide me through all these. One step at a time.
And to my dearest fiance, tolong eh, please. Never leave me alone until i have memorised your family's hierarchy & their names & learnt to match their faces to their names. I forgot ok, which one was Wak Li yesterday, and how i should address your aunty. You have to get me through this.
Reconnecting with feelings
Started the day with checking my emails (as usual).
Marianne emailed & shared with us these 2 videos.
Truly awesome! Essentially, this is a group of inspired 10 and 11-year olds and (obviously) inspiring music teacher from a public school in New York (hence, their name, PS 22 Chorus) singing and performing contemporary songs by Coldplay, Lady Gaga, Journey, Tori Amos, etc.
Watching some of the videos really moved me and made me reconnect with the feelings I remember starting out in this career with: wanting to touch children's lives.
Public schools are often referred to as "ghetto schools", schools which receive little funding and often has a pupil profile of kids from low socio-economic status families. They are usually rife with problems: underachievement, delinquency, gangs, etc.
In this case, however, the kids in the videos exude passion, exuberance and immense talent (some of the soloists are really incredible!) and I can imagine how proud and confident they must feel being part of this Chorus; for some of them, this experience will probably be life-changing.
Once in a while, when i received or experienced such anecdotes, it's always a reminder to me why i'm a here in the first place, despite the challenging educational landscape.
It's a reminder that i am blessed to be born into a stable & loving family who provide me with a conducive environment to grow in.
It's a reminder to me, to be a good mother when the time comes. To provide my child with nothing but the very best.
It's a reminder how my teachers have played a part in my growing up years and have been encouraging & inspiring me. Some i remember fondly, some i hated. But nevertheless, all are being appreciated.
I remember Cikgu Alamdin very fondly. My Sec 3 & Sec 4 Malay teacher. He was the one who planted the idea of being an ML teacher into my head. He was the one who encouraged me & inspired me.
And i feel that i'm following his teaching style, cos' his impact on me as a teacher is great. He's a no-nonsense teacher when it comes to studies. He scolded us badly when we were ill-disciplined and not putting in our best effort in anything that we do.
He's stern & firm. He emphasised on neatness and discipline in all aspects, yet he's a very open teacher. Often joked with us and always being there for us whenever we need him. Somehow he managed to make us respect him, not fear him. And me? I have immense respect for this teacher.
I'm not sure how he's doing now. The last time i heard, he survived a heart attack. My friends told me he's doing fine & healthy. Alhamdulillah!
And this quote by Henry Brookes, is so true.
A teacher affects eternity; he can never tell where his influence stops.
It's a reminder to me that i have at least 60 children under my charge, that i need to care & grow.
I hope i did touch these children's lives, a bit if not much.
Frustrations
I just have to blog this out of frustration.
I used to have peace for the past 5 years when i sit down at my work cubicle to retreat myself from all the noise that the children made.
My work cubicle is my own personal space.
It's messy with files, papers, books & stationaries.
I decorated with pictures of my loved one.
I have teddy bears and wilted flower bouquets given by the fiance on the shelves.
I have post-its pasted everywhere to remind me of the many things that i need to do.
Around me were the fun people.
And mind you, we have to draw lots when determining our work space back then.
But fate brought all the fun people together.
I love my work space.
Until it got 'invaded' at the beginning of the year.
It's just my luck that i had a super loud, bossy, arrogant a****** seated at the vacancy seat next to me.
And it's really loudlah tis person.
Masuk sekolah je start berbual & berbual & berbual & berbual & berbual & berbual.
I can't stand it! Especially when i need to concentrate on my work or i'm having a splitting headache which is most of the time.
The only time dia senyap is when she's not around.
Tak boleh tahan, seh!
I've resorted to buying a headphone to signal to this idiot "Hello, you're disturbing me with your loud voice & non-stop uninteresting stories."
Unfortunately, dia tetap tak sedar & sometimes poked my arm to get me listening to her.
Saiful decided to shift somewhere else.
I just cant bring myself to move my 5-year's treasure (& rubbish) to another cubicle.
I love sitting at this corner. It's slightly spacious then the rest. And has low human traffic walking around me.
The fiance bought for me this car sign which i hanged at my work station facing this person.
It reads: "Don't care. Don't know. Don't want to know"
Which still did not send my message across.
I'm told that at the end if the year we'll need to pack our stuff again.
It seems that our nice, cheery, orangey, big cubicles will be reduced in size.
The staff room will be re-renovated to make way for more cubicles to accommodate the increasing number of teachers in the service.
I hate leaving this corner.
But i'm praying hard, where ever i'll be sitting in December, i won't be seated near this retarded loudspeaker, else i'll need ear plugs soon.
There it goes again...
BINGIIIIIIIIT! I'm scrambling for my headphones again.
Penyejuk Hati
The day started as early as 6am for me. Thanks to the H1N1 and hence the stepped up vigilance.
Left after subuh. I knew i'm going to be slightly late.
I arrived on the dot. But only to be given the "guilty" stare that i am late.
Nampak sah yang lain tak solat Subuh. Then still got the cheek to make me feel wrong for coming late.
Anyway, i was excited to see the kids, surprisingly.
But of course, it doesn't mean they can escape my nagging for purposely forgetting to do their holiday homework.
As with kids, day 1 is all about getting back to routines. They forget their routines.
No routines = chaos = no learning
Some come back with new hairstyles, new stationaries & new looks. Some even came back with a new 'status'.
I empathised with them. Hope i am able to be that guiding hand to lead them through their troubles and live life normally. They are just kids after all.
Back to the morning issue.
I was pissed that i have to speak up for the Muslims to earn my rights when the rest of the Muslims just stare blankly.
As usual, the fiance is always the person i share my feelings.
I'm glad i have someone who always calms me down.
He replied my sms with something so simple yet it touched me deep.
He has been my encourager all these while.
Oh well, he does pissed me off at times. And honestly, i feel very embarrassed and scared if he were to tell me off or give me the slow yet stern voice.
And his latest 'hobby', imitating and repeating an irritating line from Spongebob to me over & over again
It's really irritating lor!
I wonder when it will die out.
Close Shave
Mum has always reminded us to always start every single task with Bismillah & selawat especially when driving.
And most importantly, no hee-hee-haa-haa especially when we're in a car.
That is why you will never hear 'normal' songs while in our car. 5 out of the 6 cd slots in the car are filled with nasyids & Quran recitations.
If mum is in the car, Ikim will always be in tuned. No Warna, let alone Ria.
She believe (which we agree) it is dangerous being in a vehicle. Therefore, we must always remember Allah and selawat many, many.
I'm so relieved i didn't forget to abide to her advices just now.
It was drizzling. I drove today. And i don't want my mum to be wet if dad were to fetch her with his bike. I rushed home hopefully to reach home before 5.30pm.
The road was clear. Not many cars. No jams. Speed check: 60km/h.
Ok, i know i'm driving slightly over the speed limit on a minor road.
Anyway, I was driving along old airport road. It was a 2-way road by the way, when a car from the opposite side just drove out without looking.
ALL cars from both directions had to do emergency brake & were hitting the horns like crazy. Unfortunately, i was one of them.
Idiot man! The best part was, he stoplah! Right smack in the middle of nowhere, straddling between 2 lanes of both directions.
Want to die also, don't implicate otherslah!
He did raise up his hands to apologise, but still!
IF anything happened just now, at least 4 drivers would be injured, including myself.
Not to mention the car wreckage.
God knows how thankful i was, to still remain alive and reach home safe & sound.
At least i'm given half a day more to see my loved ones.
I'm still in a shock. Trembling.
Life is so fragile. Anything can happen anytime, anywhere.
And i am still not ready to meet Him.
But for now, it's a lesson and reminder to me, never to miss my bismillah & selawat before doing anything.
Cos' i did not forget it just now, and alhamdulillah i'm being spared from the incident.
Please don't break down on me
My 60gb external hard drive was making noise yesterday.
Jabbar & my TA said if it started making noise, it will most probably go kaputz any time.
It has my 5 years of treasure in it!
It's gonna take a super long time to back it up into the 1TB external hard drive.
I'm praying super hard it remains intact till i did all the necessary backups.
Compilations of exam papers, my pictures, songs, teaching resources, important documents are all inside that.
I can't afford to lose that thing let alone let it break down on me. Arrggghh!
Dear, i need to get the 500gb ones k? Still haven't used up my $400 LDS money.Bila nak pergi?
Oh, this time must buy the one yang ada one touch backup function tau.
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As of today, my fiance had reminded me thrice that we have to go to his closest cousin's engagement next week.
He knew if i could escape it, i probably will. LOL!
I'm not anti-social. It's just that his maternal family members are so huge! It literally scares me off. Really! They are boyanese. What do you expect. Boyanese are known for their close-knitted family bonds, gatherings & loudness.
It will definitely take time for me to blend into this culture. I'm brought up in a small family. We seldom have gatherings. The only gatherings we had were probably weddings, hari raya or funerals.
Besides, i'm someone who prefers serenity & quiet, after having to deal with noise in school.
I need to learn to deal with his maternal side kecoh-ness and loud-ness.
I'm much more comfortable and knows his paternal family members better.In fact, closer to them. Probably because i managed to spend some quiet time with his paternal family members & know them as a person as they get to know me as an individual too.
Each time he talks about maternal aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces or nephews, he didn't know that inside my head, i'm trying hard to remember their names, their hierarchy, who stayed where (almost all of them stayed in Tampines) and best of all, grappling to match the names with their faces.
Most of the times, i'll be super quiet cos' i'm afraid of calling his aunties with the wrong names. Or match his nieces to the wrong cousins. Or match his cousins to the wrong aunties.
I'm still confused though.
Now that we're engaged, i can't possibly not go for his family's official events.
Thanks to him for covering me up, i managed to "not go" for previous gatherings.
But i don't think i can escape this one, unless emergency crop up.
Furthermore, if he had reminded me many times, means he really want me to go with him.
How could i say no to him, right?
I have a lot of work to do after becoming the official daughter-in-law in 6 months to come.
I'm not hoping to be the best daughter-in-law in the world.
I just hope i can be the best daughter-in-law in his parents' eyes.
After all, i AM the ONLY daughter-in-law they'll ever have.
Results will be out!
I heard just in time news from Faridah that results will be out today.
I hate & seldom check my UniSIM emails...cos' i don't bother if they inform that the library's close (i have NEVER been to the library this whole year) or some workshops are being conducted (cos' i'll never have the time to attend them) or watching Transformers movies at a super discounted rate, but not allowed to bring another person (which is kinda lame).
I only check for important stuffs like timetable, venue change, payments deadlines & the ultimate EXAM RESULTS.
So for my faculty, results will be released at 12 noon.
It's now 12 noon on the dot...will be back to update results.
I'm 150% sure network will be congested.
Wish me luck, people.
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Managed to access and view my results at 12.23pm.
Alhamdulillah! I passed! Well, that is.
B for Vik's module.
B for Audrey's module.
A- for uCore module.
It's by God's will that so far i'm doing pretty well in Uni.
So much better compared to my poly or NIE days.
It's irony especially now that i'm juggling work with studies.
I pray & hope that i'll still be able to keep these results or better once the husband & kids come along.
GPA-wise - able to keep to the 3.91. But i calculate it's suppose to be 4. Hmmm, wonder how they calculate. Whatever it is, i'm happy with my results, given that i start my assignments 1 week before deadline. Start studying for exams 4 days before the day.
I remember when we were taking our seats for the exam, a fellow classmate who is also a teacher commented out loud, "Don't ever let my students see me in this situation." LOL! I so understand his feelings.
Thank you Allah, for making all these easy for me.
Thank you to family for being supportive & for your prayers.
Thank you fiance for watching out for me.
I'm officially in Year 2 now..Woohoo! 1 more year to go.
June '09 holidays
I'm only left with Friday & the weekends before I officially end my June holidays.
If anyone out there ever thinks that teachers enjoy a WHOLE month of school holidays, you guys are SO VERY WRONG.
If you have a nice principal, like mine, who give us 2 weeks of protected holidays, count your lucky stars. Protected holidays means, no mass meetings. But IF you have activities with small groups or with students, you still have to go for it.
Initially i only need to be back in school on Tuesday for the 4-day long staff seminar, only to receive email from my P that i need to be in the EXCO meeting tomorrow. All these thanks to the H1N1 flu.
It's escalating so fast, we just have to prepare to activate the home-based learning package within 24 hours in case of any announcements for school closure. I hope there'll be no school closure *prays hard*. I need to prepare my P6s for PSLE! It's the final lap for them (and me).
For once, i don't dread starting Term 3.
This year's hols is the best i've hard, despite not going anywhere.
I managed to spend quality time with the fiance. Lots of it, that is. Managed to catch up on my sleep. Watched the latest movies at the cinemas. Catch up on work here & there. So basically, a well spent holiday, although i'm just bumming around.
And all teachers know that once Semester 2 kicks in, it'll be a hectic, busy, no-time-to-breathe-let-alone-slack work schedule for full 20 weeks. Somehow in the teaching world, July to October pass by super fast compared to Jan - May period. And because of that, the wait for my wedding will be reduced.
Therefore, i'm starting Term 3 with a positive attitude. It'll be busy for sure, but i hope it'll be breezy one for me, too. InsyaAllah.
Connecting with Cher
I connected with Cherlyn thru' FB after so many years since she left the teaching service & Cedar.
Cherlyn is the first friend i had when first posted to Cedar.
It all started when she called me and asked if it's ok to swap the interview time with me as she had something to attend to. Back then, my former principal made it a point to talk to each of the newly posted staff to find out more about us.
I agreed, and the rest is history.
Cherlyn has a contagious laughter. That's what i remembered her for. She decided to resign from the teaching fraternity soon after her bond ended.
I have her name in my guests list. I so wanted to gather my batch-mates together for my wedding. It'll be nice to have all of us together again; Me, Cherlyn, Faridah, Zaki, Adi & Vivian. All of us came into Cedar together in June 2004.
But lo & behold, her wedding's on the same day as mine! Bummer! Now, she can't attend my wedding & i can't attend hers.
Nevertheless, i'm happy for her. We'll share the same wedding anniversary for life. LOL!
She looked all radiant & happy in her Greece wedding photoshoot. Read: ATHENS, GREECE.
Oh man! Can i have a destination wedding too? Or a photo shoot at least?
Sponsors anyone?
Welcome to Facebook (to me)
Remember the last time i blogged if i should start a facebook account?
Well,i already created it a long time ago only that i didn't use my real name and also it's a dormant account, till yesterday that is.
It's amazing ( and scary) that within 24 hours i have 17 people in my account.
Hmm, now that i'm "exposed" i have to think real hard before i post any pics in FB.
Now my issue would be, who should i add and who i should not.
It's great that i managed to connect my long time friend Dina thru' FB.
And a couple of my NIE mates, students & former students (yikes!) and few others.
Since i'm in my thinking cap mode, my FB will be a boring one till i'm done with selecting appropriate pictures. Not that i have inappropriate ones, but well, my family, friends & i do need some privacy with those corny, crazy pictures that we took.
Wedding Updates
Breathe in, breathe out. In.Out
I will NOT allow the morons affect my wedding excitement.
As i mentioned before, i wanted to enjoy the journey to being a bride. So most updates will all be about my pre-wedding preps. If you are not happy or feel like vomitting, please LEAVE. This space is mine & mine ALONE. It's all about ME now. I don't care if you think i'm bragging or being too over the moon. It's my life. It's my journey. Except for my family, i owe no one anything. PERIOD.
Anyway, yesterday the fiance and I made our way to International Plaza to get my wedding shoes customised at LeapinLizard.
Why customised? Because i had broad feet! And i so want to show off my inai later on. So i'm looking for strappy, bling-bling, sexy stilettos.
Also because off-the shelves shoes either don't fit me well, uncomfortable or too high for me.
I do not want to be towering over my FH while walking down the aisle hand in hand.
I custom-made 2 pairs. One gold and one silver. Both with diamantes, strappy and sexy stilettos with the right heel height. Perfect! (although i wanted 4-inch high stilletos)
The price i had to pay for both shoes. GULP! $590.
I almost wanted to cancel the order until the fiance gave me the assuring look (to me, at least) that it's ok to go ahead with what i want. He's such a sweetie although i believe he's much concerned about the heel height hehe.
August will be the scheduled shoe-fitting appointment before collection 2 weeks later.
I'm so relief one more item striked off the list. Next that i'm working towards will be the tailoring of hantaran baju kurungs and booking of venue next month. Time is really moving real fast.
Super Mad!
I'm super mad at the recent event. Even sis, mum & bro too.
What the h*** do you want from us?
16 years of freedom from all of you is happiness for us.
Isn't it enough of what you have done to us back then?
Just admit itlah, ALL of you are envious of the life that my family and i are living right now.
You expect us to be down and out when we made that fateful decision in 1993.
You expect us to come crawling back to your lives.
You expect us to lead a life of pauper & misery.
YA RIGHT!! We are much better off without you guys around.
We are not pauper or in misery.
We live a life in luxury, free from debts, happy, with each of us doing super well.
Now, you came again to disrupt our lives?
Come on, HAVE A LIFE!
I'm not sure if you know the existence of this blog.
But if you do, well, this entry is specially for you.
Mind your own business. Even if my family is down & out, it is NONE of your business!
For the record, YOU want to be like us! That's why YOU choose the same school as me! The same CCA as me! The same academic path as me!
Oh, i want to mention that the achievements that i achieved today, started off just because i want to spite and prove to ALL of you, and make you swallow back your pride, words & actions that you have tormented me with for the first 11 years of my life!!
By God's will, your hurtful words made me strive to be where i am today. Now, you look up to me as a role model to "beat". Such an irony and hypocrite but I'm flattered.
Cos' in my whole entire life, NEVER, EVER had i came across such MEAN people.
Ya Allah,
Kau jauhkanlah diriku, keluargaku dan orang-orang yang aku sayangi daripada orang-orang hasad dan dengki. Amin!
My Best Friend's Wedding
The bestie finally got married to her long time beau & the love of her life on the 6th June 2009.
She had a simple wedding. Simple yet sweet, just like her.
But throughout my 17 years of friendship with her, never had i seen her so happy before. The way she looked at her husband was purely true love and serene happiness.
As expected, i cried. Thrice in fact. Once, during her nikah. It's funny when i turned away to avoid her from seeing my tears, her little sister was crying too. Both of us scrambled to look for tissue papers and she said to me, "Kak, we better get out of here." cos' Aishah's eyes was already welling up in tears and holding my hands when she saw me cried. I just had to stop her from crying too and ruining her make-up.
Another, when i saw her for the 1st time on the dais in her pink outfit. Third, when i gave her a final hug after her dinner function.
Aishah is such a petite, simple, sopan yet tak-tahu-duduk-diam kind of girl. She seldom puts on make up.
I can't help laughing at her when she was scolded umpteen times by the mak andam for scratching her face after all the mak andam's effort piling the layers of foundation & powder on the bride's face.
She screamed out loud when the mak andam puts on the fake lashes that caused the mak andam to panic & quickly pull it off her lashes. Because of all her screamings & tak tahu duduk diam, she was still not ready even when the groom & his entourage has already arrived. Kecoh seh!
Aishah was still in denial until the veil was pinned to her head, she commented, "Now i feel that i'm getting married."
She made funny faces and funny movements even time bersanding. I simply had to scold her to behave herself. LOL! But i'm glad she had loads of fun.
All my married friends told me that getting married is fun, despite the bridal blues and hype before the wedding. I'll see if all that is true 6 months from now, insyaAllah.
Anyway, back to my best friend.
I couldn't be any happier for her. Somehow, in my eyes & heart, she'll always be that 10-year old friend that went window-shopping at the school bookshop with me. The 11-year old friend that went for tuition classes with me. That 12-year old friend who had a sleepover at my place and made a ruckus out of my mum's kitchen preparing for a class party.
The friend that shared my embarrassment when we had to return A&W food because i forgot my mum's PIN number (btw,mum gave permission ok! Treat for passing our exams well.) The friend that tirelessly coached me in my Math homework. And the ONLY friend so far that said i sound like a bee to her each time i nagged.
We've shared many laughters, tears, anger, bruised skin and broken hearts.
Most importantly, that 17 years of genuine, sincere, caring & unconditional love in the friendship that binds us strongly till now, and hopefully for many, many, many years to come.
So to my best friend, Nuraishah,
Wishing you and Mat a lifetime of marital bliss.
May your marriage be forever blessed.
May you be blessed with juniors that are soleh & solehah.
As you embark on a new chapter of your lives, enjoy your journey with each other.
And always know, if anything goes wrong, i'm always here for you like i always do.
Love ya!
Tribute to Wai Leng
Wai Leng's last day was suppose to be last week, but she stayed a week more to clear some of the stuff that she needs and overlooked the last event for her department, Cedar Sports and Health Carnival.
Wai Leng is our HOD PE/CCA/Aesthetics. She received a scholarship from MOE and is going away for her Masters.
Many colleagues come & go in my 6 years in Cedar. But only 2 had made me cried and i do miss their presence. One was Dina. She married an Australian and migrated to Perth. Now it's Wai Leng.
Seeing the school and kids bid farewell to her. Watching the tribute videos. Making a farewell speech to her, make me cry. It's time for Wai Leng to leave.
Some people like her.Some people don't.
But i do. I've worked with her in many, many projects. She's a natural motivator & has inspired me a lot to strive for the best for the children.
She makes corny & nonsensical jokes. Most times it's so merepek that we laughed at her instead of the jokes.
She's a very reflective person. Some times making me think beyond my imagination and think critically.
She's never stingy with her smile, laughter, comforting hugs. Meetings with her are never boring.
She's a team player & people person.
I'm amazed at how she interacted with the kids. Always very patient, caring, motivating and encouraging.
She's always in PE t-shirts & track pants. But i'll never forget how beautiful she looked on her wedding day last year.
I really hate to see her go. She has left footprints in my heart.
So to Wai Leng,
Thank you for being a leader, a mentor and a friend to me.
You have impacted my life in many ways
Though we hate to see you go, we know you must.
All the best in your future endeavours.
May you be a loving wife and a caring mother.
Do come back & visit us often.
You will be missed deeply...
You have imparted this to me.
Something that i remember and be my guiding principle when the going gets too tough.
"Always believe in miracles. Always believe in yourself."
Believe in myself, i will.
Believe and work for miracles, i shall.
Do request to come back to Cedar, please.
I'll see you on my wedding day, hopefully.
Fate chooses our relatives, we choose our friends.
Managed to squeeze in last minute dinner date with the bestie when she sms-ed me & said that she couldn't go for her ngaji due to her menses.
The dinner date was just a short 1.5h meet up.We missed spending time with each other. I spend the time "counselling" her. Well, she had her bridal blues & suddenly don't look forward to the wedding, which by the way is just next week.
She was so caught up making life easy for her colleagues that she forgot to take care of herself & just be the excited, nervous & happy bride that all girls should be.
Her words,"You know me so well, eh?"
Yes babe. I knew you too well in fact to understand you deep down.
Over the thosai and battura dinner, we had our normal catch-up-with-each other's-life talk, and reminiscing past days when we were younger,problem-less and carefree life.
We laughed a lot too, as usual. And i'm glad she loved the guestbook wedding present that i gave her. It comes with a personal note from me somewhere in between the pages. Despite my garang look, i'm actually a sentimental person.
So aishah-babe, i'm so looking forward to your wedding. I'll be there during your berinai day, your nikah, your lunch reception, as well as your dinner reception.
I didn't tailor any baju specially for her wedding. My problem now, what should i wear?
Like finally!
Finally! My exams are over.I can finally relax, go out more, watch more movies, read more books without feling guilty at all.
How was my exams?
One was fine. Can write 15 pages of essay confidently. While the other one, leaves me feeling all jittery. The marks allocation just don't go with the amount of answers that they asked for. How can a one-liner answer be 5 marks? Well, that makes me nervous.
Nevertheless, i know i can pass. It's a matter of keeping the 3.91GPA that i achieved last semester or even getting more that i am working towards.
But at the end of the day, i knew i had tried my best, i had put on 150% of effort, then the rest is left to God.
Of course all these wouldn't be possible without my pillars of strength behind me: Mum, dad, siblings & the fiance whom endlessly prayed for me, right till the moment i sat for the exam.
If i did pass well, i owe it to their prayers. God grant their prayers for me. Honestly, i'm such a blessed soul to be blessed with all these people in my life.
On another note, Ain has finally 'pop' to a baby boy, Muhd Izz Zikry..very beautiful name. I don't know when time will permit me to visit her and the baby. Hopefully next week. What should i get her and the baby? Ideas anyone?
Left one more week to the June hols. Well, i'm more than happy if i get 2 weeks break UNTOUCHED by anyone. Hols are packed with P6 study camp, APRC competition, Robotics training, and the strategic meetings. *Groan*
Yup, i'm a complain queen. But only internally. Complain & groan & whine, but ultimately what needs to be done, will be done for sure.
But right now, only 1 more week left. Meet the Parents session on Monday. House practice the whole week followed by Sports Carnival cum Open House coming up next Saturday. A very hectic ending week coming up. But i so love the adrenaline rush! Just hope i can shed some weight during the week long house practice. LOL!
Am i romantic?
I did this quiz to see if i'm a romantic minah cintan-cintun or i'm a demanding person as i portray myself to be at times.
I'm glad i came across this quiz & it is what i deeply feel about my relationship with the fiance, and match my prominent language of love.
I hope he reads this...
The Steady
When it comes to your love life, you appreciate the romantic gifts: Roses, chocolates and other sweet surprises. But ultimately what touch your heart most are those intangible little gestures of love, like how he pays attention to your wants and needs, really listens to you and is always there to share your joys and tears.
You're down-to-earth, and that's great because you don't expect the impossible from your partner or a fairy-tale relationship. Sure, you're super glad to have found someone to share your life with, but at the same time you need your own space too.
Still, keep feeding your relationship with romance day after day and you can strengthen it even more: Give him a kiss, a cuddle and ask him how he's doing. Indulge in fancy dinner dates and surprise him with a Valentine card every now and then. The more attention you give to your relationship, the closer you'll become.
Will be MIA-ing
To my "avid" readers out there who often comes here to know how i'm doing or feeling or hearing me complain & whine, or simply being a busybody, i'll be MIA-ing for a couple of days.
It is to make way for me to study for the exams as well as to do my pupils' results processing & analysis.
After being in this line for 7 years, i appreciate ALL my teachers.
Anyway, doing the results processing is giving me a major heart attack.
Also, as mentioned in one of my previous post, my colleague is happily on maternity leave waiting for the arrival of her baby boy & my trainee is happily enjoying her term break before reporting to her posted school, which by the way is NOT Cedar Pri.
Therefore, i have YET to see & experience the aftermath of all these incidences.
I'm praying for the best.
Besides work, nothing interesting is happening in my life right now.
Only that, yesterday managed to catch Wolverine at the cinema with the fiance, while people have to work. Best tau! Few people, cheap tickets, no traffic jam, plenty of parking lots.
Except that a moron spilt his popcorn ON me. Read: ON ME! It literally fell all over my head.
It sounds funny now when i imagined it, but yesterday it wasn't ok!
Luckily the fiance help to brush it away quickly, knowing my temper. If not, confirm that moron will receive a cold, hard glare from me.
Ok, better get back to memorising those notes.
What are friends for? Seriously...
OK! My best fren fractured her toe & her wedding is in 3 weeks time!
Can anyone tell me how long does a fractured toe take to heal?
I'm so freaking excited & nervous & sad...well, just lots of emotional turmoil in me that my best fren of 17 years is settling down soon.
Macam tak percaya gitu.
We saw each other go thru' the child period in P4. Then the kentalz period in Sec 1, although we were in different schools, our schools are just side by side! Me in TKSS & she in TKGS. LOL!
Then we saw each other dealing with menarche (1st menstruation) and crushes.
We were there to help each other go thru' first break-ups.
In fact her first mat-tahir was a schoolmate of mine & i gave hell to him when i know how he had two-timed my best friend. B****** fella!
Then the struggle of choosing our tertiary path after the 'O'.
We had about the same 'O' level grades. We went to then Outram Institute for our 3-mth stint and we had LOTS of fun goofing around instead of studying. She tried coaxing me to enter the same JC as her. Well, i chose the poly path because SRJC is just a "2nd home" of TKSS students.
Tertiary saw us meeting our soul mates. She & her FH & me & my FH. Of cos' many events transpired in between before we both assure each other that our choices of FH are perfect for us.
Then comes the working world. Both of us landed in the jobs that we both aspire to be as young as 10 years old. She's a social worker & me a teacher.Jobs that take most of our time.
She got engaged first in Dec 2007 & me a year later, Oct 2008.
Her parents & sisters treat me like their own family.
They looked after me when my parents went haji.
We had sleepovers.
We were so close that her mum once commented,"Kalau salah satu lelaki, aku kahwin kan korang dua-dua." LOL!
And now, we are seeing each other into the next phase of our lives:Marriage.
Some 8-9 years back, we envisioned ourselves meeting up for coffee with husbands & kids in tow. Haha! It's coming real soon i guess.
As our lives passed, we didnt manage to spend as much time as we would want to.
Priorities come first. But we were always there for each other.
Since she's getting married soon, honestly, it's a bittersweet feeling. Yes, i'm super-duper happy for her. Yet it's so surreal for me.
I'm an introvert therefore I have difficulty making friends. But the friends that i have are sincere & genuine ppl & those i keep close to my hearts & will forever remain friends.
Come my wedding, the friends that i invite will be real friends. Not some Tom, Dick or Harry whom have forgotten me, just to to distribute the 500 cards.
If you "tercicir" some of your friends in between your lives, it just reflects what kind of person you are.
Arwah datuk pesan.
"Kalau nak tahu orang tu baik ke tak, ask his friends.
If 1 cakap dia baik, 9 cakap tak, maknanya dia tak baik.
But if 9 cakap baik, 1 tak, maknanya he's a good person."
So moral of the nasihat, "Jangan nak tunjuk baik cos' your true colours will eventually surfaced"
Hahaha!
Maaflah ye kalau ada sapa-sapa yang terasa.
Renungkanlah...
1 more day
1 more day for many things.
By tomorrow we have to finish marking all exam scripts.
By tomorrow some levels will have to be check their marks.
By tomorrow I have to key in results into the system.
And the exam is happening today.
Noticed the time shortage?
Tomorrow is the start of my long weekends + exam leave.
Tomorrow is the last day to quickly come out with Mother's Day celebration.
Tomorrow i will have to think of a date plan with the fiance.
Tomorrow i'm leaving school early (hopefully) to have lunch at Delifrance with Kat.
Tomorrow i'm hoping to go for pedi & manicure with Kat.
A weekend full of happiness.
Tomorrow is Ain's last day before she goes off for her 4 months maternity leave.
Tomorrow is Asiyah's last day as a trainee here.
Tomorrow is the start of Faridah's 10 days of exam leave.
Notice that i will be running & teaching 6 levels for 2-whole days with no help from anyone next week on top of ensuring smooth admin protocols for the department?
Notice how stressful life is for me & Faridah till Ain comes back in September?
Notice how TWO of us have to set 6 levels x 4 exam components each + Foundation & Higher Malay papers (Do your own calculations) by July?
Notice how both of us are freaking out now?
While i know Ain MUST go for her delivery, i always tell her, please don't go!
I pray Allah give all of us the strength & stamina to go thru' 4 more months.
With the hope Faridah keeps her health & immune system at A-OK.
With the hope Ain don't take extended maternity leave till next year.
With the hope I don't crumble down in the midst of wedding preps & and home adversities.
Just 1 more day to savour 3 extra helping hands running the department before i have to run it alone.
God, please help me to get thru' all safe & sound & unwounded physically, mentally & emotionally.
Time is Finite
It's the peak period now at work with SA1 exams up & running.
My whole body is aching. Mcm org tua-tua pulak.
But it's true!
My calves are strained thanks to wearing heels at work.
My shoulder blades are heavy & tired.
Though it's bad for my effort to lose weight (wic don't seem to work) & save money, i've indulged myself in coke. Adi noticed it & he know's Durrah + coke/chocs = OVER STRESS.
Can't wait to fix an appointment with the centre.
Apparently i've forgotten i have about 9 more treatment sessions leftover since 2006. Mak oi! Lama tu!
And if i remember correctly, i still have $90 worth of spa treatment with Matahari Spa which have moved to Cathay. Jauh seh!
And not forgetting, the spa birthday treat from auntie dearest which have not been redeemed.
And also, niat nak sign up for my bridal spa belum kesampaian. LOL!
So many wonderful things around, but time is definitely not enough.
Ppl say now zaman kemelesetan ekonomi.
But i have been spending like i used too. In fact splurging on luxury items for my wedding.
And while orang desperate making ends meet to pay bills, i (& sister), alhamdulillah have been given pay increment.
Mana org tak mata merah!
But ni semua REZEKI.
Selagi banting tulang 4 kerat, selagi ingat Allah, selagi belanja duit dgn cara yang HALAL, selagi hati tak BUSUK & DENGKI, Allah give rezeki in all ways.
Alhamdulillah! So to ppl out there yang meeting ends meet now, look deep within yourselves. Something is amiss.
And to adik, bila nak redeem spa treatment from Cik Hawa? Badan tgh sengal-sengal ni.
Working Style
Tried another quiz online. Decided to try the working style quiz to find out some of the alternative career track that i can choose, in case i am stuck in the wrong career.
But guess what?
Look at the results below.
Your Working StyleYou are extremely dependable and devotedly accept responsibilities beyond the call of duty. You have a complete, realistic, and practical respect for the facts. When you see from the facts that something needs to be done, you pause to think about it. If you decide that action will be helpful, you accept the responsibility. You can remember and use any number of facts, but want them all accurate. You like everything clearly stated. Your private reactions, which seldom show in your face, are often vivid and intense. Even when dealing with a crisis you look calm and composed. Behind your outer calm you are viewing the situation from an intensely individual angle, often a delightfully humorous one. When you are "on duty" and dealing with the world, however, your behavior is sound and sensible. You are thorough, painstaking, hard-working, and patient with particulars and procedures. You can do the "little" things that need to be done to carry a project to completion. Your perseverance tends to stabilize everything with which you are connected. You do not enter into things impulsively, but once in, you are very hard to distract or discourage. You do not quit unless experience convinces you that you are wrong. You often choose careers where you can combine your careful observation and your caring for people, as in the health professions. Other fields attractive to you are teaching, office work, and occupations that provide services or personal care. You show your feeling preference in your contacts with the world. You are kind, sympathetic, tactful, and genuinely concerned; traits that make you very supportive to persons in need. Because of your concern for accuracy and organization, you often move into supervisory roles. If you are in charge of something, your practical judgment and appreciation of what works make you conservative and consistent. You take care to collect the facts necessary to support your evaluations and decisions. A you gain experience, you compare the present problem to past situations. For you, problems may be arise if your judgment is not developed. If your feeling preference remains undeveloped, you will not be effective in dealing with the world. You may instead retreat, becoming silently absorbed in your inner reactions to sense-impressions. Then nothing of value is likely to come out. Another potential problem is that you tend to be somewhat suspicious of imagination and intuition and not take it seriously enough.
What can i say? I am in the right career based on my personality & even the so-called "alternative" falls in the same track. I guess it's my fate. Then again, teachers have to cover most jobs in the world ie. being a nurse, being a counsellor, social worker, photocopy auntie, receptionist, admin clerk, dirt collector, nanny, babysitter & endless jobs. |
| Suitable Careers - bookkeeper
- clerical supervisor
- computer operator
- counselor
- curator
- dental hygienist
- dietician
- health service worker
- household worker
- librarian
- medical assistant
- nurse
- office manager
- optician
- paralegal
- pharmacist
- physical therapist
- probation officer
- religious educator
- respiratory therapist
- retail owner
- secretary
- social worker
- speech pathologist
- teacher
- veterinarian
|
Weekends Bummer
Didn't manage to de-stress over the long weekends due to some circumstances.
2 weeks w/o my movie de-stressors + PMS + the incident + the dumb swine flu emergency, make me a cranky person.
I've been having splitting migraine since Friday night.
Weekends didn't turn out the way i thought it would & it just disappoint me especially when i've been counting the days to the last weekends.
I've many errands to do.
I've run out of red pens. My lesson plan file is thick & full. My stapler is spoilt. Trainee is leaving end of this week, hence wanted to get a farewell gift for her. My lucky dip box for the kids is running dry. Need to refill.
So, i guess i'll be going after work either today or tomorrow, depending on my migraine attacks, the weather & my lazy factor. But die die have to go.
The fiance had told me loud & clear that he'll be busy next week. Therefore wont be expecting much either. There goes my long weekends again next week. I'll be on leave till Wed for the exams. Got to start studying. Groan.
It's gonna be a loonngggg week ahead.
Wonder if i could do a catch up girl session with the bestie before she becomes someone's wife in a month's time. Maybe catch a movie with her. I'll sms her soon.
For now, emergency meeting. Ya right!
Personality DNA
I came across this personality DNA test online.
Here's the results. Interestingly me. Mouse over each coloured tile to know what it means
The explanation is long. But here's the summary of my "FAITHFUL ANALYST" personality.
FAITHFUL: Your trust in others, respect for tradition, and caring nature make you FAITHFUL.
ANALYST: Your attention to detail, confidence, sense of order, and focus on functionality combine to make you an ANALYST.
Hip, Hip, Hurray!
YAAAY!!!!!
My twitter & chatterbox are up & running!
Oh man! How can i not realise the functions available. Dumb me.
So now (invited) people can place comments without having to sign in & i can complain on my twitter.
YAAAY!
Yang selalu tengok website kita ni, leave msgs lah ok...asik kita je leave msgs kat website awak.
Fickle mindedness
OMG! I'm so fickle minded.
Just flipped thru' the albums & realised that i like another one too.
It's gorgeous!
I need my sis to decide certain things for me.
She's the imaginative sort & can imagine how things gonna turn out.
But for me, colours put side by side don't bring any meaning at all.
But i'm glad, i've cleared quite a few things yesterday.
Of cos' the budget is blown up. But if it includes everything, then it's gonna be worth it & i know the outcome will be worth every single cent.
Tonight, going to get more of mum's & sis' inputs yet again.
Excited? No?
Just received news from my principal that i'm next in line to go for the 8-day Korea trip in March next year.
Great..when we've plan to go for our honeymoon then.
I felt down. The fiance too. He asked me, "When we've just got married?", "What about me?", "Where do i stay w/o you?" "I'll feel uncomfortable living with yr parents w/o you. I tknk balik rumah mak i."
I know the only reason that i could & would reject the working trip if Allah give us rezeki, in the form of a child, soon after our wedding. Now, the fiance is asking me to speed up the process of looking for a flat. At least he has his own home to stay.
Surprisingly, the after-effects of our 2-day marriage prep course is still lingering around me.
We've learnt so much about each other. We've shared our deepest feelings, worries & hopes. And ended it off with a love letter to each other with the title "Demi cintaku padamu."
Every cent that i paid Suchi Success for this course is worth it. It's practical, realistic, hands-on activities. Will upload some pictures of the 2-day thingie soon.
I almost teared when Ustaz Sallim Jasman explained the responsibilities & meaning of nikah. At least i know, my fears so far is not unfounded. It is a huge step that i'm going to take.
Yani told me, it's my bridal blues to be all emotional at this stage.
And now that i'm told i'm going to Korea, we'll have to plan for a short getaway somewhere near immediately after the wedding. And hearing the fiance's voice after i told him the plan, makes me all upset now.
The last time i went for a 3-day KL trip with my friends, he called me almost every hour, he refused to sleep & only sleep the moment he "feels" that i've reached the Singapore borders.Called him when i reached the S'pre checkpoint, his sister told me he had just fallen asleep. He didn't sleep while i'm away.
Imagine me leaving my husband for 8 days soon after the wedding.
I don't know. I'll let Allah arrange what's best for me.
Demise of a grandfather
2 funerals in a week.
This time was my datuk sedara, my late grandfather's bro-in-law.
I was just thinking of him & his wife just the other day & now Allah has taken him back.
The last time i saw him was many, many, many, many months back.
Ppl say if you want to know how you have lived your life, it can be seen during your funeral. In his case, he was a good person, very good in fact. Therefore, the ppl that came to give respect to him berduyun-duyun. The doas, Yaasin & tahlil for him did not stop.
I envy his family. This datuk led his family very well. Always solat berjemaah together. He did not care about materials. His humble flat is sparsely decorated. Not that he's poor or a pauper, but he knows material wealth do not bring him to Jannah. His & his wife's lips never stop praying for others. Even if my sister or i give them a peck on the cheek, their doa will be, "Baik cucu-cucu. Panjanglah umur kau, cu." Not to mention the doas they say to us when we give them some money, even as little as $5.
I thought i will not cry yesterday. In fact i didn't until i saw his wife & his mayat. His wife is my late grandfather's sister. And she looks SO ALIKE my late grandpa. I missed my grandpa. Mum, dad & all my maternal uncles & aunties told me that i am my grandpa's favourite grandchild. I knew tt. And even though i'm only 2 when he passed away, i still remembered how he looked like & how i'll sleep under his armpits every nite.
So when i saw his sister yesterday, my tears rolled freely. In fact, i'm glad i went yesterday. It's what i needed to see.
I actually went thru' an emotional 2-day marriage course during the weekends & i wanted to blog abt it today. but becos' of this entry, that will have to wait awhile.
During the funeral, i saw the nenek looking at her husband. Praying for him. Yet, in a serene way. Penuh dengan keredhaan & ketaqwaan, with eyes full of love. Her husband of 60 YEARS who have shared her whole life with, died. It was heartrending for me. Tears just flow. I guess his granddaughter would wonder why the heck i would cry so much when i only visit him once a year.
If i love my fiance so much, what about her husband of 60 long years? But how she could go thru' it dgn tabah is beyond my imagination. Will i ever be like that?
Besides that, i saw my late grandfather in her face. I missed him so much. In fact more than my grandmother. Maybe becos' i had spend time with my grandma, though not as much as i want to, but i manage to. Maybe becos' i had the opportunity to do good to her. Maybe becos' i had the chance to look after her in her old age.
But i terkilan that i don't have time with my grandpa. No chance to look after him. No chance to do good to him. I'm the last grandchild that saw him alive. I truly miss my grandpa.
With that said, in loving memory to the people that i love most, always forever in my heart. Al-Fatihah.
TGIF
I'm so looking forward to this weekends.
My week has been super hectic.
The maulud at the mosque yesterday was full of people, noisy, stuffy and i got restless come maghrib time cos' i had my gastric attack.
And i can't go home today, becos' of oral exam in the afternoon followed by my night class.
If not of my lecturer doing revision tonight, i would be skipping the class. Sigh.
Anyway, tomorrow my fiance & i will be going for our marriage preparatory course. We decide to go for a 2-day class back to back. So it will be tmrw & Sunday.
When i told my sis the other night, she was like, "You are going already?"
Yup! How time flies. We signed up under Suchi Success. I heard good reviews about them.
2 weeks ago, i surfed the net to find out what to expect for the 2-day course. It was disappointing that they did not post us any details about the upcoming course. We are expected to appear at the mosque's auditorium 8.45am sharp tnrw.
Back to the results of my search. Yeah, it was all the common things about financial planning, intimacy, family planning, knowing each other bla bla bla, until i came across a pointer that states we have to come out with our 3-year family plans & goals & family's mission & vision.
OMG! That sounds so much like working world! Doing strategic planning, vision, mission. Honestly, i spend the last 2 weeks thinking about it. While i know what i want for my family, i definitely do not have a specific let alone a strategic plan for my family. Oh man!
I thought i had enough doing all these for my department & school.
Now, my marriage, too?
We'll see what's in store for us the next 2 days.
I'm looking forward to knowing my fiance better than i know him now.
Once the fiance & i have come up with our family's vision & mission, i'll share it with all of you. It's weird though to just be thinking about it. LOL!
Melt Away Stress
Recently my sister & i tried the Johnson's Melt Away Stress shower foam.
It claimed that the shower foam is enriched with chamomile and lavender aromatherapy functions.
I use it only during my after work shower.
And i have been sleeping like a baby every night.
Only i wonder if it's really the aromatherapy thingie in the soap or it's all in my mind LOL!
While i sleep soundly at night, my body is truly aching.
It's mid year already & the pace will be faster.
I really, really need a break. Due to the nature of my work, immediate honeymoon after the wedding is a no-no. We'll have to put it off till the March 2010 hols. But it's ok. We hope to be able to save more and go somewhere further. I longed to go to European countries & Middle East.
Especially after the sharing by the Slovenian boy yesterday. OMG! The country is ABSOLUTELY gorgeous and stunning and breathtaking, MasyaAllah. With the Alps mountains, countrysides, white horses, caves with stalagmites and it's 6 million years worth of history, culture and architecture.
I'll wait for my TA to download the photos & hopefully i can spare some time uploading it into shutterfly.
I have yet to upload my outing with my NIE buddies in Dec last year, my birthday photos, my random pictures with the fiance and many, many more.
Blame it on my laziness.
Long day ahead
I havent had a break since i stepped into the school at 7am today.
Busy hosting a Slovenian boy.
Will upload his pictures soon.
Next will be observing my trainee. Finally, her last observation. Poor her!
Followed by ICT Learning community presentation at 3pm later on.
I'm shagged, man! I just came back from sending the boy back to Cedar Girls' Sec.
And today's Wednesday.
Wednesday is a loooooooooonnnnngggggg day for me.
Thank goodness, Vik's module is officially over, and he has been giving me good grades so far.
Alhamdulillah!
And i've successfully submitted my FINAL TMA for the semester! Yaay!
Now left the exams only.
So waiting for the June holidays.
Hmmm, where can i go for a break?
Alright gtg for class. Sigh...
In memory of granduncle
The news came in shocking at dawn.
My granduncle passed away, a bit sudden to me.
I knew he had a heart problem but he is always healthy & had lost weight to take care of his health.
Then again, ajal maut di tangan Tuhan.
The last time i met him was during my engagement last year. In fact, i just discussed with dad the possibility of making him our witness during my solemnisation day.
But he left us too soon.
He was one of my favourite granduncle. Always called us 'Nak' when addressing us. Always rubbed our heads when we salam him. Always had good advices for us. Always be the neutral mediator amongst his nieces, nephews and grandchildren. And he remembered each & everyone of our names, something rare for old folks who usually can't remember which grandchildren belongs to who.
Hari Raya was never complete if we didn't visit him. He didn't care about hierarchy. Called us irregardless of our hierarchy each time we met outside. Always have food for us each time we visit him.
I have great respect for him. He is an example of what a family should look like. All his kids are close knitted. All his in-laws get along well with one another. All his grandchildren were adored by the elders in the family. He always visited us with his many children, daughters & son in laws & all his grandchildren in tow. Always have very strong bonding. I look up to his family to what i would want for my own family.
But he's left us. Only his memories will stay etched with us now & forever.
May his soul rest in peace and placed amongst the best. Al-fatihah.
Letter to my fiance
Dear Fiance,
Wishing you (and us) a happy 6th year courtship anniversary today.
6 years of courtship plus 2 years of friendship, that make us about 8 years together.
8 long years.
8 years of ups and downs.
8 years of dramatic events.
8 years of shared joy and tears.
8 years of waiting.
8 years patience.
8 years of wonderful memories with you.
The journey hasn't been easy.
It's full of challenges & obstacles.
We had our fair share of squabbles and quarrels.
Then again, no one told us it's going to be easy either.
But Alhamdulillah, we surpassed all challenges together.
We have come this far.
This far that i once thought a milestone that we couldn't reach.
I'm counting the days to our 1st engagement anniversary.
And as scared as i may be, I'm counting the days to our wedding.
Thank you for loving me unconditionally.
Thank you for accepting me for all my weaknesses & flaws.
Thank you for being there for me through it all.
May we have many more anniversaries to celebrate together in time to come.
I love you lots.
Love,
Me
I'm so pissed!
It's so sickening!
I'm SO angry that i cried. And all i really want was to talk to either mum, sis or the fiance.
Can't decide who, so i sms all 3 long sms-es telling them what happened & flood my sis' tagboard.
Yes i'm THAT angry! So angry that i want to leave the school and have my own quiet time away from everyone. Something which i hadn't done for so long.
But i can't, can I? Can't leave Faridah & Ain to settle it. After all i'm in-charge. So no matter where i go, i am still accountable for things that happened in my department.
The incident just now just confirmed my thoughts that i can't be a HOD. I called Zaki, and he was calm in giving me alternatives that i could consider.
Thanks Zaki. While i'm all angry & worked up, i managed to sought out solutions on the spot for the sake of my pupils.
The anger outburst only came after i let my kids & teachers settle down & all are running well.
The word sickening just can't describe the unfairness.
Please stop behaving like a HOD. You're an EX-HOD, in case you forget. And you are only a temp staff.
To those who wants to knw why i'm so blardy mad, it's a long story.
It's enough to know that i WON'T subject MY pupils to be placed along the walkways or some nook & cranny in the school to sit for their exams just becos' of their skin colour.
All i know, as a coordinator, i WON'T subject my teachers being shoo-ed out of the room that was ASSIGNED to them WAY in advance and can't conduct a fair assessment on my pupils.
So it all boils down to how my pupils are being treated.
Once in a while when i forget why on earth i signed up to be an ML teacher & not some other 'main' subjects, things will happen & reminded me why i chose ML when i'm one of those rare ones that was given the privilege to choose what i want to teach.
It's basically i'm protective of my Malay community & heritage. I'm sick of ppl labelling the Malays. And i'm determined that all my Malay kids that goes through my hands will not be labelled and have unfair treatment & learn to stand up for themselves and prove to the society that not all Malays are useless.
So this morning, for once in my 6 years in this school, ppl see me lose my temper. Suka-suka kau nak halau budak-budak aku. Don't even DREAM you can step on my Malay kids & teachers. The last time it happened, i was away from school & poor Faridah was attacked 360 degrees that she called me up in tears.
Thank God, today i'm around to settle the problem. I can't imagine my 14 8-year old kiddos sitting outside the toilet corridor sitting for an exam.
Do you now know why i'm so mad? Kids have rights too. Their voices are too soft to be heard. Their sizes are too small to be seen. Hence, I'm standing up for them.
Good Friday (literally)
It has been a good Good Friday holiday for me.
At least all are set.
All went smoothly despite all the turmoils prior to that. Alhamdulillah.
And mum & aunt have been using this phrase on me & sis VERY often.
"Korang belum jadi ibu. Korang tak tahu hati ibu..."
Yup, we understand that mum. Right sis?
So since everything's set, i can finally plan with ease of mind.
Of cos' i have 2 main advisors: sis & mum.
My sis so so much kecoh than the bride-to-be herself. Then again, i do need her.
We think alike. We have same taste & she is BRUTALLY HONEST in giving her thoughts & opinions.
So she'll be my main image-planner for my wedding stuff.
I hope to update & complete my wedding prep list soon. I know come term 3, i'll be super busy. Thanks to more projects shove to my face.
And dear God, please grant us that house soon. You know how badly i wanted it. But if it's not meant to be ours, please replace it with something better. Amin!
Everyone can be a good talker but not everyone can be a good listener
Why is it so hard for you to just listen?
All i need are not your words.
I just need you to LISTEN!
LISTEN to my woes
LISTEN to my stories
LISTEN to my frustrations
Then you'll realise i don't really need help.
I am well capable of making my own decisions & choices.
But just by listening w/o judging or blaming, though wordless,
does miracles for me.
Maybe i shouldn't be putting such high expectations on the people around me.
My training as a counsellor has done me more harm i guess.
I listen empathetically to others now. I feel for others more now & the worst, i expect the same from others too.
I love to share EVERYTHING with you.
But only if you learn to LISTEN to my tears & frustrations too.
If only you learn to extract the underlying meaning apart from is just heard.
But you are just putting me off from telling my sorrows with you.
But don't get me wrong.
I love to be there for you all the time.
I love to listen to you all the time.
In times of laughter. In times of tears.
It hurts when you don't understand me.
Or worst, misunderstood me.
It truly hurts!
It's my fault. I shouldn't have expected so much from you.
I'm sorry.
I promise to learn & adapt and cater to YOUR needs.
I'll just keep my sorrows to myself the next time until a kind soul comes along willing to LISTEN SILENTLY to my feelings.
Cos' that's what i actually need. Not someone to take the blame.
If that is what you expect and comfortable with, i'll do it.
Anything for you.
Surprise, surprise!
Surprise, surprise! The fiance has spoken! LOL!
Sape aje yang ajar dia blogging blogging & comment comment ni? Ish, ish, ish!
Ok fiance, this is my blog so don't steal the limelight from me ok?
Lately, i just feel at peace.
So many things happened, so many events, so many happenings..but honestly, i feel at peace.
I just think and feel like it's a miracle.
Of cos' i still have many worries. What to expect? I'm a worry wart. But not as intense as it used to be.
Do you know, that despite the many, many things you want in life, the many, many money that you wish you had, or the many, many things that you ask from Him, all that will make you a truly happy person, are only 4 things:
(1) Good health
(2) Peace of mind
(3) Peace of heart
(4) Loved ones
So while the going is rather tough right now for everyone in my circle of "My Loved Ones", I believe it made all of us stronger & closer to one another & also to Allah. Even bringing my fiance closer to my family.
Whatever peace He is giving it to me now, i pray He shower the same thing to all these people too.
Many happy returns of the day!
Wishing my best friend a happy 27th birthday!
For every year that we grow older, same goes for our friendship.
So this year marks our 17th year as besties.
May you be blessed with life's greatest happiness.
May our friendship remain strong.
Thank you for all your support, encouragement, care & concern & love all these years.
Thank you for being my mirror & helping me to reflect about life.
It's amazing how we remain best of friends for such long time, & be there & watch each other go thru' the different phases of life.
Am so looking forward to your wedding in June!
Am i required to make a speech during your wedding dinner?
Please prepare me waaaaayyy in advance if i have to, ok.
But let's have a catch up session soon, before you are eternally tied down.
Decisions, decision, decisions
Let me ask you this question.
IF you were asked to choose your team members to represent your company in an INTERNATIONAL COMPETITION, how would you go about choosing your team members?
Looks? Qualifications? Capabilities? Attitude?
Whatever it is, i'm sure you would have certain characteristics that would look out for. After all you want the best to represent your company & the nation, wouldn't you?
Yesterday, i asked my pupils to do the exact same thing.
Their task: Find a team member that you would want to pair up & work with throughout the competition (bearing in mind, they will be representing the school in a NATIONAL COMPETITION).
Our objective was to let them find someone they are comfortable working with instead of us forcing them together. We will re-shuffle the teams only if we find them ineffective.
So the teachers, just sat back & watch them organised themselves.
To my amusement AND amazement, i saw some of them choosing team members using scissors, paper, stone method lah!
I couldn't help but laugh. So cute!
I mentioned to my colleague that i worry 20-30 years from now, are they going to be making decisions that way? 20-30 years they will be the future generation running our nation, ok? (Now you know the seriousness of a teacher's job)
My colleague & i imagined this situation 30 years from now when these kids are in the workforce.
A: These 2 workers are under-performing. We should fire one of them.
B: I agree. Who shall we fire?
A: I don't know. Let's play scissors, paper, stone to decide.
B: OK! Scissors...paper....stone!
*faints*
Anyway, back to my reasons why i blog this.
Compare these kids to us, adults.
While adults will think, think, think. Ponder, ponder, ponder. Weigh pros & cons. Compare strengths & weaknesses. Some ppl, might also add in a dash of politics, a sprinkle of back-stabbing.
Children on the other hand, makes decision using such a simple method & they are happy about it & work towards working cordially & effectively with whatever fate & luck has given to them.
Such is the simplicity of a child's mind. Adults should learn a thing or two from them.
Sisters
I was pleasantly surprised when i saw my outfit & tudung nicely ironed & hanged on my cupboard when i got back frm UniSIM last night.
I knew it was my sister's doing. Thank you dearie!
Sisters. Someone so irritatingly loved.
I don't knw how or when it transpired, but my r/s with my sister improved & gets closer over the years.
Everything you named, we have done it to each other. Hair-pulling, kicking, slapping, punching, 'stealing', sabo-ing, pao to-ing even taking the canings & scoldings "on behalf" of each other.
My sister is someone who shows her feelings & love thru her tiny ways. Being the nurse when i'm sick, being a listening ear, being my partner in crime and many more.
I dunno, but ever since the wedding plans are on the way, she seems to be more emotional (to me at least). Yah, she has (publicly) announced her happiness in kicking me out of the room. She has made plans to transformed the room. But on the hindsight, i do get a tinge of seperation anxiety. She wants the room yet asked me not to rush finding a house. She wants me to buy a big flat, yet asking me to stay at my parents' home. And i can't help noticing that sometimes from being bubbly & kepo, she suddenly turns quiet when the wedding & marriage discussions turned a bit serious.
For me, i am never good with handling with emotions. Honestly, i am feeling a bit of a seperation anxiety of being 'away' from mum & her. And things are moving so fast & it's feeling so surreal. From 8 years to only 8 mths away.
So sometimes when she show certain kind of feelings, i just dunno what to say to her. I'm afraid of hurting her. I'm afraid to disappoint her. Hence, i take the middle way. Advise what i can. The rest let her experience. It's only through failures that she'll become a stronger person.
Dad has always taught me, especially, to always remember our siblings. So since the 1st day she was born, i'm always expected to give in to her. It came as hatred initially. But now it's part of me. Buy food think of her. See clothes, think of her. Do things, think of her. I'm so used to giving in to her that at times, i find it hard to say no to her.
She's had her irritating moments no doubt. She does make me upset at times. But she's a sweet little sister, i must say.
So dear sister, thank you for taking time to iron my clothes. Thank you for helping me run thru my wedding plans. Thank you for listening to me complain & nag. Thank you for all the little things that you do for me. Trust me, though it's not mentioned, i do noticed.
As a human being,as a sister, i have my flaws & imperfections.
YOU, my little sister, have your flaws too but you are PERFECT in my eyes. Can't trade you for anything & anyone else in the world.
So, we have 8 more mths to "sleep" together. I so going to miss having you in my 'messy' room. My FH is a neat freak! No more messy rooms for me.
I found this online. It just sums up what sisters are about.
She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling or crying, even in the dark. She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days, she's the reason you wish you were an only child. ~Barbara Alpert~
Two down
The fiance's birthday was celebrated short & simple. What matters to us is just having each other. While i wanted to surprise him at swensens but alas, White Sands swensens is under renovation. So poor us, dinner was at the all-boring KFC.
Anyway, we were at White Sands for a mission. It's so rare to settle stuffs when your free time clashes with your other half's working time.
So while he decided to take leave on his birthday, a weekday, apa lagi! I managed to coax him to settle some wedding stuffs. LOL! It's so hard seh nak buat appointment. Wedding people are only free on weekdays. And we are busy on weekdays.
That said, videographer & photographer checked! Although, a BIT over budget but i guess it's all worth it. We've saved long & hard enough so yup, not splurging but since we have the means, savings & extra cash, why not? It's only once in a lifetime, insyaAllah.
My wedding preps list will be up soon.
So readers (ya right! macam banyak peminat je aku ni) if any aspect that i missed out pls, inform me.
And if sapa-sapa nak sponsor, please feel free to do so.
LOL! Sungguh tak tahu malu aku ni! Malu rugi pe!
Happy 27th Birthday!
Happy birthday Dear!
May you be blessed with long life to celebrate many more birthdays to come.
May you be blessed with good health to spend many more days with your loved ones.
May you be blessed with abundant wealth to live your life in luxury.
May you be blessed with keimanan to have peace in your life.
May you be blessed with patience to go through life's challenging moments.
May you be blessed with happiness to smile and laugh with life.
May you be blessed with rahmat & taqwa for a blissful life.
This year will be the first & only year we are celebrating your birthday as fiance-fiancee.
InsyaAllah, we'll celebrate your birthday as husband & wife next year.
Keep smiling. Keep happy. Keep 'round'.
Cos' i love the way you are.
Happy Birthday!
Another tag
I knew that my sister tagged me like a few days ago.
I just need some time to think of the answers. Cos' i realise what is important may not seem to matter, and what matters may not seem important. Geddit?
Nvm. I'll try to answer to my best ability & to how much i remember.
Disclaimer: The answers below is not ranked in order. It is based purely on what is remembered as at this hour.
List 10 everyday things that you love. Simple things that make your day a little brighter and put a spring. Things that you have experienced & not what you wish to experience.
1. Waking up to see my family. It is a habit that despite my morning grogginess i will turn & find my sister. Then, walk past my bro's room to see if he's home. Then my parents. If they are around. Anyone missing, i will call & ask where they are.
2. Getting & sending sms-es & calls from the fiance EVERYDAY. Even when quarelling, i still look forward to his sms-es. Strange.
3. Spending time with my fiance. Do i even need to state this? He looks after my work & play.That's why i have a fairly balanced work-life harmony.
4. Seeing my pupils in school. Their laughter, smiles, antics keep me going in this field of teaching.
5. Chatting & slacking in the staff lounge with my clique. Always so kecoh, nonsense & merepek yet comforting in a way.
6. Looking at babies. i have a picture of Adel, my godson on my workspace. Babies are adorable. Waiting for the day i'll get to put up my kids' photos around my work area.
7. My daily & sometimes, random chats with mummy & sister. My 2 kakis at home to let off steam, share, cry, complain, gossip, kutuk, laugh etc. Cos' it's always coupled up with genuine care & gd advices for me.
8. Eating my mum's cooking. I know one day i'm going to miss her cooking just like how i missed my grandma's cooking.So i'm savouring all her lovingly prepared dishes now.
9. Showering. I love to shower! Especially if the weather is scorching hot. I dream, think, cool down, relax while standing under the shower with the water running down. The coldness & sound of water calms me down.
10. Reading. My sister calls me a nerdy bookworm. Trust me when i say i can't sleep until i read something. Anything. Can be newspaper, books, comics, magazines even advertisements. I MUST read something before i end my day. Reading keeps me sane.
Hmm..i wish to put down rainbows but i don't see it everyday leh. So that is not counted is it?
Panic attack
I'm feeling breathless.
Simply can't breathe & my chest hurts big time.
These breathless attacks only come when i'm really, really very stress. And i feel like crying!
And the prescription pills that the doctor would usually give me would be a relaxing pills to loosen all my muscles and i will totally zonk out of this world.
I don't want to take MC. So many things to do.
The last time it happened, the fiance (bf back then) rushed me to CGH A&E where i had the luxury to cut all the queue numbers & went straight in & the doctor performed many, many checks on me. Alhamdulillah, i still have a long life.
Right now, it's super noisy in the staff room.
Everybody rushing for deadlines and discussing & moving in & out.
I'm getting stuffy and rimas, and sweating in an aircon room.
I really need my space.
I can't concentrate at all.
Ever since mum put out that table at the balcony corner, apart from the hard seat, i find that place very conducive & comfortable for me to work.
And i just want to go home now, sit there & do my work quietly & not being here.
But since that is impossible, i've plugged in my ears with my earphones.
ITunes playing full blast & typing away.
Anyone who needs to talk to me, pls come to my workspace to find me & talk.
No shouting from 5m away expecting me to answer your questions.
Pls, i really need my own space & time.
Rest assured all will be submitted on time, properly packed and checked.
Just leave me ALONE.
One side breathing down my neck. One side keep asking me to repeat myself.
It's hard being in the middle management. Neither here nor there.
So if you don't want me to rush to A&E just like the last time because of my panic attack, please leave me ALONE.
To one side, you do your part. I do mine & i'll do the consolidation later.
To the other side, just like ALL the times, all will be delivered to you on time. Any mistakes, i'll take full responsibility like i've always done. Only that i wish, don't give me last minute changes. 5 times changes within a week. Especially not when i've done EVERYTHING.
Try being in my position.
Breathe in....Breathe out....i still have 36 hours before the deadline.
Massage Therapy
I just have to blog this!
Urgh! I wish i have a blogspot to post pictures for this entry.
My school just purchased a full OSIM body, calf, head, feet massage chair!!!!!!
and it's placed in the staff lounge!!!!
How exciting! (to me at least)
Just yesterday, we have a new 5L huge fridge to replace the smelly, small one.
And for 2 consecutive weeks, we have been served with Delifrance delicacies during Connect Time.
And each staff received a $28 GV gift voucher + a pair of movie money.
Thank you MOE for the productivity savings award $$$$!
Thank you staff welfare comm for the thoughtful purchases!
Wait a minute.
Are those things bought to redeem yourselves for making us work very hard?
Or
Hoping these will make us stay longer in school?
I'm so happy...i cheered up immediately upon seeing the chair.
I'm waiting for somebody to fix the chair then i just be the tak tahu malu one to try it. LOL!
Suggestions to the staff welfare comm:
a spa treatment package would be nice
or
a pair of 2-way air tickets to Mauritius will be much appreciated, too! LOL!
The perks of being a teacher...i just wonder if all those $$ have been used up or there's still more surprises to come.
Why?
Why am i doing 2 entries for today?
Basically, i'm disoriented & i'm waiting for 3pm so i can go home & do my assignment.
Since i feel like using this time to slack, i'll do the questionnaire that my sister tagged me.
Do i know my other half (well enough)?
1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
- either sports or cartoons
2. You're out to eat. What kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
- nothing. he don't eat salad.
3. What's one food he doesn't like?
- vegetables
4. You go out to eat & have a drink. What does he order?
- barley or bandung (barley is a rare find)
5. Where did he go to high school?
ITE Clementi
6. What size shoes does he wear?
- 5 or 6 (mine is bigger!)
7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
- Transformers figurines (he's been pestering me to allow him to have a showcase in our
own house. chet!)
8. What is his favourite type of sandwich?
- hmm... he seldom eats sandwich.
9. What would this person eat everyday if he could?
- My mum's ayam masak merah
10. What is his favourite cereal?
- He is a true, blue selera Melayu. No cereals for him.
11. What he would never wear?
- colours. i am still "training" him.
12. What is his favourite sports team?
- Gosh! I dunno.
13. What did he vote for?
- same as my sis' ans. Vote what?
14. Who is his best friend?
- Me! (tak tahu malu nye aku!) Dunno. But he's closest friend is Goh.
15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
- keeping quiet when i'm upset over something.
16. What is his heritage?
- Javanese
17. What is his favourite colour?
- black
18. What is his habit?
- sleep, sleep, call me, sleep, bring me out, movies, sleep, sleep, sleep
19. What is he proud of?
- Me. He loves to show me off even though i prefer a low profile.
20. Lastly, will he read this?
- YES!
OK! Back to work now. *GROAN*
Term 2
Finally the March hols is OVER!!
Did i enjoy it?
Ok-ok. Because i was SICK! How can i enjoy myself?
The only thing i enjoyed was spending time with the fiance.
I was too sick that i had no energy to do anything.
Talking about being sick, i would like to express my gratitude & tribute to my roommate aka my sister for tolerating my coughing (or rather, barking) throughout the whole week. I was so afraid that i would affect her precious sleep (she had to work, although i don't need to), that i volunteer myself to sleep at the balcony one night.
So dear sis, thank you so much! Muackz! Love you. But bear with it for a couple more days ok? It's getting better, but still there. Hehe..
I know my sister had tagged me for the questionnaire. Give me time to do it ok?
I'm rushing many, many things right now. URGENT on the list: my video transcript & critique.
Arrghhh!!! I hate doing transcripts!
So adios! Taking my leave for now.
It's painful! HELP!!!!
I begin to doubt that i'm having a normal sore throat.
I begins to feel like i've contracted throat ULCERS.
It's damn painful!
Sore throats would usually get numbed or go away after i drink my chrysanthemum tea, or suck on my pain relief strepsils or the orange tablets given by the doctors.
But this time NO!
I've drunk so many teas & finished so many packets of strepsils but it just won't go away. It has been torturing me since last Friday. As a result, i can't sleep at night thus causing me to have migraine. And now, i'm feeling feverish/
Tomorrow, i'm suppose to go for some conference at NIE & i felt bad. Simply because, the school paid hundreds of dollars for me to attend it & i felt bad about wasting the school's money. Secondly, i've promised Marianne, that i'll give her a lift to NIE tomorrow. So, i felt super bad if i caused her to make some last minute arrangements for tmrw.
Oh God! What am i suppose to do? Should i go to the clinic tonight?
I know the fiance would be super-dee-duper happy if i were to take MC tmrw. He don't understand why i had to work during the school hols.
Just this morning he followed me to school & help me do up my classroom's notice board.
So sweet of him. And yes, he's the one with the artistic touch and flare compared to me. Now my class looks much more cheerful after his touches. LOL! Baru bersemangat nak update my notice boards!
For now, my throat hurts! Help!
Saturday Afternoon
The house is super quiet.
Sis is out to a birthday party. Brother is out to God knows where. And poor mum had to work late. Dad is sleeping.
And me?
Having a scratchy throat & feeling feverish. I'm falling sick soon. So much for the start of a school holiday. Sigh...
The fiance planned to bring me out for lunch at Arnolds today, sebab dia yang mengidam. But it seems I have to wait till tmrw aje. He's sleeping too. Knowing him, he will only wake at 9pm just in time to go to work.
Something happened yesterday. I felt bad for my sister. And i knew she felt worse. Cos' she made a mistake that left her with no choice but to recall back her painful past. I felt sucky as i had to rush & be at SIM instead of being with her and telling her that it's really alright and i'm not angry nor upset, let alone blaming her.
But dear sis, it all happened for a reason. Well, he got to see that you know longer need him or yearn for him. That he got to see you being independent, happy and successful & no longer a girl whom he can bully.
I'll never forget that day. Words can't describe how painful it is for me to see you cried that much. That fateful day when i was so afraid of the thought that God could take you way. Never felt how much you actually loved me.
We quarrelled, we fought. Everything you name it, we had done it. I guess back then we didn't know how to show our love. But that night, when you cried out for me to be there with you, i knew at least i am important to you as much as you are important to me.
And when you came out safe & sound, i swore to myself, i'll give in to you. Cos' i had a taste of being on the verge of losing you.
So, if i was at home yesterday, or if you had messaged me he's coming down to see you, i would have told you to leave it. I wouldn't want you to have your past appeared in front of you & bring back painful memories.
Mum pass me her "will", and told me to look after the both of you. And the kind of "dream" husband that she had for you. Someone yang kuat iman & can tolerate your impulsiveness. I guess mum's doas are answered. But as with all parents, she had difficulty trusting the men wooing her daughters. I've gone thru it & now it's your turn.
Both of you need to give her time & never stop doa that both sides will accept both of you dengan seikhlasnya & seadanya. A doa which i never fail to ask for the past 8 years.
For now, i knew, you knew, we had to let certain things settle down first.
Remember. Your happiness. And that's what i want for you.
Parable of a Pencil
It's the last day of term 1.
And as a tradition, my principal would call for a Term Closure Assembly.
She loved sharing stories with us and today, she shared this story with the whole school, which struck a deep chord within me.
I hope the kids understood the underlying message (though i doubt so).
And i love to commemorate her inspiring story in this memory 'book' of mine for years to come.
Parable of a Pencil
The Pencil Maker took the pencil aside, just before putting him into the box.
"There are 5 things you need to know," he told the pencil, "Before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be."
"One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand."
"Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a better pencil."
"Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make."
"Four: The most important part of you will always be what's inside."
"And Five: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you
must continue to write."
The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.
Now replacing the place of the pencil with you. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.
One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And
allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.
Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems in life, but
you'll need it to become a stronger person.
Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make. Do so responsibly.
Four: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside. Your heart. Your character.
And Five: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you
must continue to do your duties.
Allow this parable on the pencil to encourage you to know that you are a special person and only you can fulfill the purpose to which you were born to accomplish.
Never allow yourself to get discouraged and think that your life is insignificant and cannot make a change.
With that, happy break to all teachers.
Take the time to rejuvenate & spend time with your loved ones. Term 2 promises many more things to come.
Best Friend
My 'friend' is here to visit me & it has more or less immobilised me.
With a killing pain at my spine, & the throbbing cramps, i just wish i could take it out & put it away.
Doesn't help with my half-closed eyes. Only had 4 hrs of sleep last night.
I'm terribly, terribly tired.
So today, everything for me seems to be a slow motion picture. Although it's a happening day with the fire-drill and evacuation exercise & the SCDF guys coming in to do a fire-extinguisher demo.
I coop up myself in my work area and tried to do my work, but nothing is working for me.
Come on brain! Think! Work!
I'll be a grumpy woman today if not for the fact that Seetha is here to do a 2-day relief stint!
Yaay!
All of us missed her so much.
And she announced that she's getting married! Double joy! So waiting to attend her wedding. It's only a few weeks before mine.
Oh, did i forget to announce Kak Nahidah has given birth to a bee-yooo-ti-ful baby girl. She's a gorgeous little baby! So triple joy for our clique at CPS. Lucky baby to have shared the same birthday as our Rasulullah s.a.w. I hope she'll grow up to have a beautiful akhlak as Rasulullah to go with her beautiful face. Amin.
That explains why i'm still in this school after almost 6 years. The people we have here are great. The camaraderie is superb. The support given is endless. So, now waiting for Ain's turn to 'pop'.
Having rambling all that, i SO NEED my bed right now. D.E.S.P.E.R.A.T.E.L.Y
For the 1st time
For the first time, last Sun, the fiance was out with my WHOLE jing-gang KECOH & ALL-FOR-ONE kind of family.
It felt weird for me cos' honestly, mum & dad only met him ONCE in our whole entire 8 yrs together. During the day he came over to be introduced to my prnts. Den from then on, many things & events transpired untillah last Sunday.
I was very self-conscious throughout & felt super duper tak kena especially when seeing my dad joking with him (*roll eyes*) and dad found a new partner to re-tell all his dulu-dulu cerita (adik! we are fwee from all his non-stop reruns of stories. Fwee! Fwee!)
And mum actually bahasakan herself as "mak" when talking to him (like "what? did i hear her right?") it just felt weird.
The fiance wondered why i felt tt way when i should be happy. Dear darling, it's because my parents were NVR open abt these kind of things with us, her daughters, all our lives! But i'm happy that everyone gets along, although i do expect him to get teased the most by my 2 irritating siblings.
He on the other hand, had a kind of culture shock. His family were nvr really involved in his life so when he saw my WHOLE family getting out of the car to give us the support & opinions abt our flat-to-be, he was in awe.
Well dear, that's us for you. Always forever involved in each others' lives, yet giving each of us the autonomy, trust, freedom & space to find our own paths yet knowing, we have our parents' & siblings love & concern back at home to cushion all our failures and heartaches.
I can't help but feel blessed. To have all the ppl that's important to me around me together. Only missing for now, are the tiny tots running ard.
I just need to get rid of my awkwardness with this whole thingie with him & my parents. Just can't believe that it all falls into place neatly. Thank YOU for answering my prayers.
Do as you deem fit
Stop being a hypocritelah!
Don't you know that EVERYONE knows this about you?
Don't you know that EVERYONE is just pretending to be nice to you?
Don't you know that EVERYONE is keeping their distance from you?
Don't you know that EVERYONE hates having to work with you?
Now, you are doing it to us.
It's just our (bad) luck lah.
But wth!
If you enjoyed making such remarks,
If you enjoyed telling tales,
If you enjoyed making others feel shitty,
Go ahead.
I for one, do not give a damn about whatever you have said, spread, told etc, behind all the facade & masks that you put on.
Come onlah, other than age & qualifications, you are no where better or older than any of us.
In fact, even worse!
So you think, we'll be affected?
Forget itlah.
I truly don't care cos' i know whatever i do, i said, you'll just turn it around for your own benefits.
I have a life!
And rezeki aku BUKAN dalam tangan kau.
Rezeki aku dalam tangan Allah.
Adakah kau merasakan diri kau malaikat rezeki? Malaikat maut? yang perlu aku takutkan dan ikut jari telunjuk kau?
Orang lain, maybe.
But not me.
Jadi, selagi Allah masih ada rezeki untuk diberikan kepada aku, apa cara sekali pun kau buat aku tetap dapat.
And it has been proven all these years isn't it?
You do so many things to put me down, but i still survive & WIN.
So, as any typical teacher would say, Try Harder.
I still believe in kuasa Allah.
Passing shower
After the long day & meeting yesterday, when i got out of the room, i said this to myself, "Alhamdulillah.The weather is so nice.Nt too hot neither is it raining." it has been raining heavily the past few days so yesterday i was concerned about where i should park e car at SIM if it rains heavily.
Then i went to the staff room to pack up. Barely 5 mins later, i went out & it was raining heavily! Since Faridah was with me, i said to her, "Tadi tak hujan."
Den i went to the toilet to touch up, 5 mins later, it was all sunny again!
This is what ppl said as a passing shower. According to old wives' tales, a passing shower is a blessing and a good omen. I pray tt it is. I prayed that the best will turn out on Monday.
i wish i could be there as per usual. But circumstances just don't allow me to. I mean, what can i do with 12 leave a year? of which 8 days set aside for my exams. And i've already taken 2 days leave. so technically, i'm left with 1 day only. Tt INCLUDES my HDB leave.
But i know, come tt day, my heart & soul & my prayers will be with them.
Rain is a blessing. Just the other day, i was pissed with someone.
She commented, "Wah! Rain again ar. So heavy some more."
I replied, "Goodlah. The weather is colder. So ppl's moods & tempers are usually better."
She answered, "Nolah! Too much rain is no good!"
I was like wth! What do u mean by TOO much rain? Imagine of God didn't gv us any rain. Will u still have water to drink? Will u still live? There's no such thing as TOO much of a blessing ok!
Needless to say, whatever tt comes out of her stinky mouth during the remaining walk back to the staff room, was completely ignored.
I love rain. And i always remembered this. Masa hujan lebat turun, adalah salah satu masa yang dimustajabkan doanya. For tt, every time rain falls, i will look into the sky & pray and asked for my deepest wishes.
Humans are never completed or contented. We have so many things to ask from God be it for ourselves or for our love ones. Be it asking for forgiveness in the past, meeting our needs in the present, or even asking for guidance for the future.
Same goes for me. I have plenty to ask for.
Right now, in the present, at this moment my biggest need and wish, is for everything to go smoothly & safely,
For mum's & dad's happiness & health...
For my sister's career & jodoh ....
For my brother's educational success...
For my fiance's strength to stay patient ...
For my (our) safe & loving engagement period ...
For a dream marital home, tt we both like that is near my parents...
And of course, dilimpahkan keberkatan, rahmat, iman & taqwa to me & (future)family.
Reflections
Pardon me for my reflective moods lately. So many things happen daily.
Was doing my routine morning gate duty as usual this morning, looking at the c'dren come into the school. Can's help but feel my heart swelling full of love for them, even though they are not mine.
They grew up so fast & yes, despite their irritating-ness, mischievous-ness & naughty-ness (& sometimes rudeness) they are simply adorable and cute...so spontaneous & (too)honest.
They are fine on their own. But don't be fooled by them ok. Many a times, teachers are being conned due to their cuteness & (pretend) innocence.
But we love them to bits. So any aspiring teachers-to-be out there, rule of the thumb: LOVE & ADORE c'dren like they are your own & you'll see your passion for teaching staying intact & persevere thru' everything.
Then i notice prnts sending their kids & kissing them goodbye (like they are leaving for months) but this morning, i particularly noticed this couple stood there for a very long time, looking at their son from far.
I'm not a parent YET. I wonder how parents feel. If i love a stranger's child to bits, what more them? Then i wonder, if i will have the luxury to see my child off to school MYSELF, or will i have to leave it to hubby, or the grandparents, or my siblings or worse the school bus, to see them off to school?
I got me all sappy this morning. I guess my dream career would be to be a superwoman. To have time for everything and be able to do everything with my own 2 hands.
But my instincts would be the grandparents (or AUNTY aka CIK IDA, or UNCLE aka CIK OS) to send them school, at least at pre-school level.
Anyway, why the hell am i thinking abt this? Becos' of this, my kids today had extra TLC from me. Penat nak scold them for the 'good' results they gave me. Then again, blame it on me for having super high expectations on them.
So today is the start of a super long, tired weekend. Congratulations to me.
Another step taken
Ok, we have officially received our approved HDB loan amount on last Saturday. It's weird seeing our names on one letter. I mean what do you expect? I've been single the past 26 years & all my life it has been me, myself & i.
My bestie of 16 years, warned me that once i'm engaged, we'll be talking (not behaving ok? Haram) like husband & wife. Which is so true! It's now about the flat, the renovation, the financial planning, the future...sometimes, i feel like too overwhelmed with the upcoming responsibilities.
I guess, since we married late, our maturity played a major role. We have enjoyed enough. Not some cintan-cintun love-sick teenagers. In fact, we have already started planning for a comfortable retirement.
The lovey-dovey romanticism (is there such a word?) has long gone. I guess when it's true love, all the flowers & gifts don't really matter (but i still love getting them ok? *Hint hint*).
I use to receive flower deliveries on my bdays, anniversaries or even a way of him apologising to me. But now, chet! I get offered nasi lemak delivery. Read: OFFERED not even delivered. Well, it's better than nothing. Too bad i have no time at work to eat bfast, hence i turned down his offer.
So, it's now flat viewing. Which i saw one that i like, only the walking distance from the flat to the main road, was a bit of a concern. Macam jauh gitu.
We still have about 9 months to go before finding our marital home. InsyaAllah, our rezeki will come soon. I pray HE gives us the best cos' only HE knows what the future holds.
Till then, i'm treasuring every moment with my sis. In 10 months time, i'm sharing my room with someone else. Someone neater than me *groan*.
With that, i have a shopping date with my sis later in the evening yaaay!
When the mind starts thinking
I just came back from watching Slumdog Millionaire with the fiance. It was one of the underdogs movies that didn't get much publicity or trailer slots when voila! they won 8 Oscar awards.
It's all out of my curiosity as to why the movie could win so many awards & i wasn't disappointed. And it managed to hook my sleepy fiance to stay focus throughout the 2 hours.
The cinematography was great! The real life depiction of what India is all about. It made me wonder how could there be ppl living in such a state? And how could they survive?
Indians actually are very intelligent ppl. They produced world class IT engineers. It's just too bad that their own country is not as developed as others. If it was, i guess it would be one of the world biggest economy. I remembered the days during my poly attachment. My "teachers" were actually from India. And boy, were they good! But they were paid a meagre sum. A sum that S'poreans won't work for.
Ok enuff about India & Indians. Everyone should watch the movie. Thriller, romance, suspense all in one. 5 popcorns!
That aside, i have been contemplating if i should start a facebook. i knw it's the in thing now & i'm probably one of those who didn't have it. But the thought of "catching up" with unwanted ppl or ppl who are just out to get a sneak preview of my life, i rather not.
So facebook? or no facebook? still contemplating...
Zzzz
Had a filling brunch with the family just now. Now, everyone is sleeping. Dad, mum, sis even my fiance. I wish i had the courage to chuck my macbook aside & sleep too. My eyelids are heavy.
But the pressure of having to submit my assignment on Monday, and worse, i don't know how to do it, made me sit out here alone, in the silence trying to work something out.
Am i glad, when the fiance said that he's tired today & wondered if we could push out date to tomorrow instead. I am more than happy sweetie. I don't have the heart to tell him no each time he asks me out.
Basically because we have little time together and every moment is very precious. Also, he's going through a rather bad patch now, and i just have to be there for him to calm him down.
So right now, i just wish life was what it use to be. Free weekends. No bringing home of work. Movie weekends. Sleep as much as i want.
Ya right! Fat hope!
Few down
Too many deadlines to meet.
Too many things to look into.
Too many people to catch up with.
And i only have 2 hands, 1 brain & 24 hours a day, of which 7 hours is needed for my sleep, which leaves me with only 17 hours, which is NOT ENUFF!!!!
As of 25th Feb 2009, my energy level is down to only 60%. I wish i had a battery meter stuck to my head to show ppl how much i can take / handle at a time, excluding the times when my patience and temper are tested.
Breathe in...Breathe out....
One step at a time.
Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku dunia dan akhirat. Amin!
And i'm missing all my loved ones.
I hardly had the time for the usual sit down & chit chat with my parents, now that mum is working office hours.
I hardly had the time to gossip or share my frustrations with my sis, or even listen to her stories, after maghrib hours or before-we-doze-off-to-sleep time. I can only manage to squeeze in 10 mins every morning while we rush thru' getting ready for me.
I hardly had the time to see, let alone scold my brother.
I hardly had the time to meet up with the fiance until the weekends, and squeezing time in between my free periods & before he catch up his sleep to call him.
Even dropping by Faridah's workspace to have lunch together pun susah. Padahal satu office.
I just hope all these are worth the sacrifices when i finally graduate & bring home my bigger pay check, to match the kind of work i'm doing right now.
They are not complaining. In fact all of them are my drivers and supporters to why i'm doing all these. And have been motivating me with lots of tender loving care. It's not easy to work, study, planning for a wedding, getting married, looking for a flat, on top of families' circumstances all at the same time.
So, with Allah's guidance & family's love, i'll hang in there.
I'm back!
Ok, so i have been disappearing from this space for a long time. Blame it on the lagging Shutterfly.
Anyway, it's been 2 months since 2009 started. It had been pretty hectic so far, with hardly any breathing space.
And i had just turned 27 last Tuesday.
It was my best birthday since a long time. Probably becos' everyone knows it's gonna be my last 'single' bday. It was nothing grand or big. Just intimate moments with my friends at work, my pupils in school, my fiance, and my family at home.
Just like any typical S'porean, the fiance celebrated my bday at HDB hub, with chocs & teddy bear & HLE form submission.
I just felt all emotional. Excited yet anxious. Then again, i'm looking forward to celebrating my 28th bday with a husband next year, insyaAllah.
So thank you to my colleagues is school for the Bonia bag & Body Shop stuff and a the many bday wishes.
Thank you to my students for the resounding bday song.
Thank you to my aunt, for the very touching bday sms & spa treat.
Thank you mum, dad, sister & brother, for the mango cake, Guess handbag & of cos' all yr love & care for me.
To the fiance, thank you for the chocs & bear & the best present, your intention to make me your wife...seikhlasnya.
I may not have many family or friends. But whoever i have, i keep them close in my heart always & forever.
Happy (belated) 27th birthday to me! May I be blessed with iman, taqwa, health, wealth & happiness surrounded by my loved ones.
December Holidays
It's that time of the year again where i can rest and laze around as much as i can.
It's the end of the year school hols!
This time round i have many,many weddings to attend and tried my best to go for all.
Had planned to go for a short getaway to Selangor with family and my aunt's family, while surveying for wedding items.
But due to unforeseen circumstances, the plan had to be shelved till god knows when.
So yup, again i'm stuck in Singapore, lazing around, putting on weight, catching up on lost sleep, watch more tv...basically bumming around.
So don't blame me if i'm soooooooooo looking forward to my honeymoon.
I'm blissfully engaged for the past 2.5 months, of course not forgetting the challenges that we had to go through.
And i find time flew by so fast! So here i am trying hard to finalise my wedding prep decisions because i am so fickle-minded, counting every single cent that we had and searching for our dream marital home.
And all along my dearest fiance is taking it easy. Arrrggghhhhhhh! He drove me nuts with his complacency.
With me taking 3 levels next year, while covering duty for my colleague who's going away for maternity leave, admist my SIM studies, wedding preps and family 'story', i'm expecting my stress level to go up super high.
Therefore, i hope my end of Jan 2009, i've made up my mind over many, many things.
So happy hols to all teachers out there. Have a good break. Rejuvenate yourselves before the 2009 academic year comes along :)
My Engagement: 26th Oct 2008 (26 Syawal 1429H)
On 26th Oct 08, 2.43pm, my status changed from a single woman to someone's fiancee.
I'm finally engaged to my sweetheart.
Alhamdulillah everything went well & smoothly.
The food was great.
The ambience was perfect.
My mak andam made me look like a doll.
I'm surrounded by family & friends.
I couldn't ask for a more perfect engagement.
My deepest & sincerest thank you to these people for ensuring my engagement turned out well:
1. My parents - w/o their blessings this day would not take place.
2. My sis - for being my planner, receptionist, decorater, confidante etc but most importantly my
partner in crime.
3. My brother - for being the 'strong' man in helping with the bulky chores.
4. My aunt, Cik Hawa - for being my listening ear and floor manager.
5. My uncle, Cik Zali - for being the patient man, and driver.
6. My cousin, Amalina - for being my camerawoman & henna artist
7. My another cousin, Nurul - for being my bridesmaid, running around doing errands for me.
8. My cute cousin, Nana - for simply being cute, adorable and talkative.
9. Yayi Husin - for agreeing to be my wakil.
10. And to all friends, family, cousins, neighbours etc who took the time out to share my day with
me or have helped in one way or another.
A very BIG thank you to each and every one of you.
and the most important, my syukur to Allah for making the day possible and guiding me through everything.
I pray that we go through a safe engagement before we move on to the next level.
One final one
Malay paper is officially over today. My heart beats very fast and i am feeling nervous for the kids.
Tomorrow will be their last main paper and HMT for some of them on Thursday.
I hope the kids had put in their best effort throughout the exam.
Now, it all depends on their luck and fate.
My prayers are with them till the results are released in about 1.5 months time.
Saturday Morning
Good morning everyone!
It's the 3rd day of Hari Raya & I'm at work trying to start on my assignment while providing free consultation to my pupils.
I'm finally starting on my engagement preps which unfortunately is not advancing too much.
With only 3 weeks left to prepare, and stuck in a super busy term at school, with the many assigment deadlines and upcoming exams both for my pupils & myself, i'm definitely not having it easy.
But i'll hang in there and get through it with His help.
And not forgetting this, Good luck and all the best to my P6 kiddos. May all of you do well!
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!
It's 2 days away.
Ramadan came and gone.
Just in case I couldn't find the time to update, here's wishing all Muslims out there a happy & joyous Aidilfitri.
And to all who know me, minta maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki.
Halalkan apa-apa yang terminum, termakan, terhutang, terkasar bahasa, termarah, tersindir, ter-ketawakan, ter-ngumpat dan semua ter-ter yang lain.
Mudah-mudahan Aidilfitri tahun ini membawa sinar kebahagiaan dan keceriaan to you and your loved ones (and to my loved ones, too!)
I have a life even if you don't!
That email spoilt my day.
How inconsiderate can you be! You don't have to come back during YOUR day.
And now you made ME come back on MY day.
I bloody hell have a f****** life even if you don't!!
So, if my sister is reading this, I'm sorry i can't help you out on Saturday morning but i promise i'll do something on Saturday afternoon & on Sunday.
God's Gift to Us
Entered the school today.
Allysha came running to me, hugged me and gave me a wet kiss on my cheek with a 'muahz'.
How can that not make me smile?
Children are really God's gift to us ...to the world...
To bring us joy, smile, laughter (& high blood pressure at times) with their innocence & antics.
Occasional incidents like this reminds me of the reasons i chose teaching,
and it make my struggles all worthwhile to be doing it for them.
I had a great beginning. I hope you did too.
5-Day long weekend
Down with high fever & gastric flu over the weekends just as i expected.
Got back to school with a pile of worksheets on my table.
Now rushing thru' the marking so that can be returned and go thru' it with the kids just in time for the exams.
In the mean time, thank you so much to my dearest sis for showing me her concern(although a bit subtly)..but i'm touched that she bought me the cooling pack after her prayers... and covering my house chores and taking the rejection of me not eating her prepared buka simply becos' i have no appetite.
Right now, I'm wishing hard that an ice-cold drink will be in front of me. 
Sickly Sick
My brother is down with high fever.
Empathise with how he's feeling right now.
Hope he gets well soon.
Meanwhile it's the 11th Ramadan and my body is already having low immunity.
Throat feels scratchy. Nose is watery. Sure signs of flu setting in.
Sigh..not at this juncture please.
I've lots to do.
Welcome Back!
Classes resumed after a week of holidays. A term of hecticness & extra stress for the upcoming exams.
A kid vomited on my toes this morning.
What a great welcome for me 
.
A philosophy shared by my P with us for this term:
The most important time ... is now.
The most important one ... the one we are with.
The most important thing to do ... the good things to the one we are with.
It simply means treasuring the moment, giving your best all the time, and treasure the people around you at all times.
Have a nice day!
TMA01 Results are OUT!
Comparing to my own standards & expectations, I did excellently in one, and did relatively OK in the other one, considering i was breaking down during that period of time.
The stress & pressure was too much for me to handle.
I almost wanted to quit studying.
I'm thankful that Allah was there to help & guide me through it.
I'm praying hard that i can maintain a 3.5GPA to qualify for the Honours level.
Back to Work!
So I'm officially back to work today.
Starting with the P6s remedial lessons.
I hope all my effort will be paid off when the PSLE results are out. InsyaAllah.
Happy Teachers' Day!
Wishing myself a very happy teachers' day! And also not forgetting to all my fellow teachers out there. Please keep your teaching passion alive. Believe in what you do. Persevere through all the challenging times cos' the kids needs someone to believe in them.
Teachers' Day Celebration
Came back from the Cedar Big Walk..supposedly to be a leisurely walk, enjoying the morning breeze and nature. Yet the joy is only short lived. I got stressed & tired 'herding' the kids to stay as a group especially when i'm assigned to take charge of the P1s.
The sudden rain didn't make it better. The tiny tots with their small, tiny steps took longer than anyone to walk back to school. So they can neither walk fast nor run.
I was praying hard that it won't downpour suddenly.
Now almost everyone is having parties. The amount of food is making me nauseous. Too much food! And i'm hiding in my sanctuary to avoid having to eat more and calming down before it gets all rowdy & noisy during the concert.
So looking forward to the September break. At least for a few days to regain back my sanity.
Pre-Teachers' Day Party
Received a very delicious choc fudge cake from the P6's. 
I want more! Cos' they gave me a piece and finish up the rest of the cake.
So excited!
As you can see, i have been viewing this site of mine over and over again.
I guess this will turn to be my next blog since i can add journal entries to it.
I just love seeing the pictures of my loved ones right smack on the home page.
It's finally up!
My site is finally up! Yaay! Multiply was giving me so much problem and since then i've been sourcing out for alternative online albums till i found Shutterfly.
And i'm so happy! Thanks Shutterfly! Muackz!
So cam-whoring here i come!
Aishah's Wedding
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from her to him.JPG
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mcm momok.JPG
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her bridal chamber.JPG
her bridal chamber.JPG 2009-06-06
bila nak abis.JPG
bila nak abis.JPG 2009-06-06
only the eye liner.JPG
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1st layer tudung.JPG
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what to do next.JPG
what to do next.JPG 2009-06-06
the final touch.JPG
the final touch.JPG 2009-06-06
with her 2 nieces.JPG
with her 2 nieces.JPG 2009-06-06
bila nak start ni.JPG
bila nak start ni.JPG 2009-06-06
kita tunggu apa eh tok.JPG
kita tunggu apa eh tok.JPG 2009-06-06
quick snap before she becomes a wife.JPG
quick snap before she becomes a wife.JPG 2009-06-06
my face so oily!.JPG
my face so oily!.JPG 2009-06-06
her mentel smile.JPG
her mentel smile.JPG 2009-06-06
hearing the sermon.JPG
hearing the sermon.JPG 2009-06-06
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i'm yours.JPG
i'm yours.JPG 2009-06-06
d 1st halal kiss.JPG
d 1st halal kiss.JPG 2009-06-06
the mas kahwin.JPG
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here's yr dowry dear.JPG 2009-06-06
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her neutral theme dais.JPG
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looking sweet in pink.JPG
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her sis preparing the montage.JPG
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the bridal table.JPG
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her flower girls.JPG
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cute kan budak-budak ni!.JPG
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flower shower.JPG
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Her BIL.JPG
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apa kakak bebual ni.JPG
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the fiance enjoying his dinner.JPG
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the hungry couple.JPG
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the parting shot.JPG
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Asia-Pacific Robotics Competition 2009
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me.JPG
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Li Yan.JPG
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Rui Xia.JPG
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go robot go!.JPG
go robot go!.JPG 2009-06-02
on yr mark....JPG
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can we win not.JPG
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let see....JPG 2009-06-02
so nervous....JPG
so nervous....JPG 2009-06-02
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opponent not ready.JPG
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mine is bigger!.JPG
mine is bigger!.JPG 2009-06-02
u think u can win meh.JPG
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now wic button must i press.JPG 2009-06-02
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haiya,tt robot like want to collapse.JPG 2009-06-02
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look mummy.JPG
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so many ppl.JPG
so many ppl.JPG 2009-06-02
robot, pls win.JPG
robot, pls win.JPG 2009-06-02
all set to go.JPG
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with nahidah's kids.JPG 2009-06-02
we are shagged.JPG
we are shagged.JPG 2009-06-02
lion dance robot.JPG
lion dance robot.JPG 2009-06-02
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de liang's team.JPG
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yaay!we came in 2nd.JPG
yaay!we came in 2nd.JPG 2009-06-02
Cedar Sports Carnival 2009 cum Wai Leng's Farewell
Principal's speech.JPG
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Leopards.JPG
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Panther Jaguar Cheetah.JPG
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Parents.JPG
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Flag bearers.JPG
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Flag bearers & torch bearers.JPG
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Declare open!.JPG
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demo.JPG
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Hop hop hop.JPG
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throw d hoops.JPG
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scoop d ping pongs.JPG
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go mummy!.JPG
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flip d bean bags.JPG
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1,2 flip!.JPG
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opps i drop it.JPG
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run mummy.JPG
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dont drop d ball.JPG
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pick up d ropes.JPG
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prize presentation.JPG
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leopards red indians.JPG
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d cheer leaders.JPG
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panthers.JPG
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cheetahs.JPG
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jaguars.JPG
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2009 theme.JPG
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our mascot.JPG
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with ex pupils.JPG
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d leopars trs.JPG
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WL with P.JPG
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dont start cryg.JPG
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with maimon.JPG
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with d exco.JPG
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with her "brother".JPG
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shanti & wl.JPG
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wipe d tears.JPG
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another hug.JPG
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keep smiling.JPG
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one last photo.JPG
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im gonna miss u.JPG
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saiful caught me cryg.JPG
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with nazira.JPG
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tight hug.JPG
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all d best.JPG
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with vp.JPG
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leopard's trophy.JPG
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it's alla bt frenship.JPG
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Trip to Nilai
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My Engagement (26 Oct 08)
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bestest cuzins.JPG
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alysha & me.JPG
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for him_kinder bueno.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_pooh bear and rocher bouquet.JPG
for me_pooh bear and rocher bouquet.JPG 2008-10-25
for him_lapis prune from cik habsah.JPG
for him_lapis prune from cik habsah.JPG 2008-10-25
for him_merci choc frm cik hawa.JPG
for him_merci choc frm cik hawa.JPG 2008-10-25
for him_pastry basket from mum's fren.JPG
for him_pastry basket from mum's fren.JPG 2008-10-25
for him_rocher from deky.JPG
for him_rocher from deky.JPG 2008-10-25
for him_soccer cupcakes.JPG
for him_soccer cupcakes.JPG 2008-10-25
for him_sparkling juice & can drinks.JPG
for him_sparkling juice & can drinks.JPG 2008-10-25
for him_Solvil Titus watch.JPG
for him_Solvil Titus watch.JPG 2008-10-25
for me.JPG
for me.JPG 2008-10-26
for me_biscuits hamper.JPG
for me_biscuits hamper.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_choc basket.JPG
for me_choc basket.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_engagement cake.JPG
for me_engagement cake.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_food hamper.JPG
for me_food hamper.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_fruit basket.JPG
for me_fruit basket.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_jelly.JPG
for me_jelly.JPG 2008-10-25
his aunt.JPG
his aunt.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_pulut frm cedar colleagues.JPG
for me_pulut frm cedar colleagues.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_sweets.JPG
for me_sweets.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_ribena basket.JPG
for me_ribena basket.JPG 2008-10-25
for me_swiss roll.JPG
for me_swiss roll.JPG 2008-10-25
for mr_the dowry.JPG
for mr_the dowry.JPG 2008-10-25
from him to me.JPG
from him to me.JPG 2008-10-26
from me to him.JPG
from me to him.JPG 2008-10-26
full length shot.JPG
full length shot.JPG 2008-10-25
getting the hair out of the way.JPG
getting the hair out of the way.JPG 2008-10-25
gifts for me.JPG
gifts for me.JPG 2008-10-25
granduncles & grandaunties.JPG
granduncles & grandaunties.JPG 2008-10-25
handing over the dowry.JPG
handing over the dowry.JPG 2008-10-25
happiness.JPG
happiness.JPG 2008-10-25
hijab iran models.JPG
hijab iran models.JPG 2008-10-25
putting on the costume.JPG
putting on the costume.JPG 2008-10-25
his entourage on the way.JPG
his entourage on the way.JPG 2008-10-25
his side.JPG
his side.JPG 2008-10-25
i love the eye shadow.JPG
i love the eye shadow.JPG 2008-10-25
i'm nervous.JPG
i'm nervous.JPG 2008-10-26
i love them to bits.JPG
i love them to bits.JPG 2008-10-26
IMG_4314.JPG
IMG_4314.JPG 2008-10-25
i'm someone's fiancee.JPG
i'm someone's fiancee.JPG 2008-10-25
it's mine!.JPG
it's mine!.JPG 2008-10-25
kat & hubby.JPG
kat & hubby.JPG 2008-10-25
learning from the best.JPG
learning from the best.JPG 2008-10-25
kumpulan nasyid.JPG
kumpulan nasyid.JPG 2008-10-25
lovely siblings.JPG
lovely siblings.JPG 2008-10-26
maimon & daughters.JPG
maimon & daughters.JPG 2008-10-25
mak long & half family.JPG
mak long & half family.JPG 2008-10-25
mak long & wan.JPG
mak long & wan.JPG 2008-10-25
mana cik abang syg.JPG
mana cik abang syg.JPG 2008-10-25
maternal aunts.JPG
maternal aunts.JPG 2008-10-25
maternal cuzins.JPG
maternal cuzins.JPG 2008-10-26
mcm waitress.JPG
mcm waitress.JPG 2008-10-25
mdms & a ms.jPG
mdms & a ms.jPG 2008-10-25
mum & her friend.JPG
mum & her friend.JPG 2008-10-25
my cousin-the camerawoman.JPG
my cousin-the camerawoman.JPG 2008-10-25
my floor manager in pink.JPG
my floor manager in pink.JPG 2008-10-26
my life.JPG
my life.JPG 2008-10-26
my dimple is showing.JPG
my dimple is showing.JPG 2008-10-25
my pink butterfly curtains.JPG
my pink butterfly curtains.JPG 2008-10-26
my parents.JPG
my parents.JPG 2008-10-25
my sisters-in-law.JPG
my sisters-in-law.JPG 2008-10-25
naila.JPG
naila.JPG 2008-10-26
my token for them.JPG
my token for them.JPG 2008-10-25
neatening the folds.JPG
neatening the folds.JPG 2008-10-25
next bride or groom to be.JPG
next bride or groom to be.JPG 2008-10-25
nyai jamaliah & nyai siti.JPG
nyai jamaliah & nyai siti.JPG 2008-10-25
nyai piah & family.JPG
nyai piah & family.JPG 2008-10-25
officially engaged.JPG
officially engaged.JPG 2008-10-25
our ML dept.JPG
our ML dept.JPG 2008-10-25
partner in crime.JPG
partner in crime.JPG 2008-10-25
perfecting the brows.JPG
perfecting the brows.JPG 2008-10-25
pose again.JPG
pose again.JPG 2008-10-26
posing again.JPG
posing again.JPG 2008-10-25
posing with bakuls.JPG
posing with bakuls.JPG 2008-10-25
posing with some of the gubahans the night before.JPG
posing with some of the gubahans the night before.JPG 2008-10-25
putting on the anak tudung.JPG
putting on the anak tudung.JPG 2008-10-25
putting on the costume.JPG
putting on the costume.JPG 2008-10-25
with the hand bouquet.JPG
with the hand bouquet.JPG 2008-10-25
sealed with a ring.JPG
sealed with a ring.JPG 2008-10-25
sempat sms.JPG
sempat sms.JPG 2008-10-25
shok sendiri.JPG
shok sendiri.JPG 2008-10-26
siblings love.JPG
siblings love.JPG 2008-10-25
sis in law & her fiance.JPG
sis in law & her fiance.JPG 2008-10-25
sis with alysha.JPG
sis with alysha.JPG 2008-10-25
so many paparazzi.JPG
so many paparazzi.JPG 2008-10-25
tgk mana.JPG
tgk mana.JPG 2008-10-26
status changed.JPG
status changed.JPG 2008-10-25
the 1k ring.jpg
the 1k ring.jpg 2008-10-26
the accessories.JPG
the accessories.JPG 2008-10-25
the 2 wakils.JPG
the 2 wakils.JPG 2008-10-25
the annoying bro.JPG
the annoying bro.JPG 2008-10-25
the berkat girl.JPG
the berkat girl.JPG 2008-10-26
the blue shawl.JPG
the blue shawl.JPG 2008-10-25
the bling bling side comb.JPG
the bling bling side comb.JPG 2008-10-25
the bullied & bullies.JPG
the bullied & bullies.JPG 2008-10-26
the crowd.JPG
the crowd.JPG 2008-10-26
the buffet spread.JPG
the buffet spread.JPG 2008-10-25
the dessert.JPG
the dessert.JPG 2008-10-25
the engagement ring.JPG
the engagement ring.JPG 2008-10-25
the final touches.JPG
the final touches.JPG 2008-10-25
the gold shoes.JPG
the gold shoes.JPG 2008-10-25
the happy bride.JPG
the happy bride.JPG 2008-10-25
the helpful neighbour.JPG
the helpful neighbour.JPG 2008-10-25
the impt ppl in my life.JPG
the impt ppl in my life.JPG 2008-10-26
the hennaed hands.JPG
the hennaed hands.JPG 2008-10-25
the invites.jpg
the invites.jpg 2008-10-04
the keletah cousin.JPG
the keletah cousin.JPG 2008-10-25
the make up bag.JPG
the make up bag.JPG 2008-10-25
the perfect cover up.JPG
the perfect cover up.JPG 2008-10-25
the pink tudung.JPG
the pink tudung.JPG 2008-10-25
the still wet henna.JPG
the still wet henna.JPG 2008-10-24
the strong ppl.JPG
the strong ppl.JPG 2008-10-25
the unforgettable moment.JPG
the unforgettable moment.JPG 2008-10-25
touching up.JPG
touching up.JPG 2008-10-26
transformation.JPG
transformation.JPG 2008-10-26
the whole array.JPG
the whole array.JPG 2008-10-25
which to choose.jpg
which to choose.jpg 2008-10-07
waiting for kak jul.JPG
waiting for kak jul.JPG 2008-10-25
will u marry me.JPG
will u marry me.JPG 2008-10-25
with arlinah & bf.JPG
with arlinah & bf.JPG 2008-10-25
with arlinah.JPG
with arlinah.JPG 2008-10-25
with bestie & her fiance.JPG
with bestie & her fiance.JPG 2008-10-25
with bibik.JPG
with bibik.JPG 2008-10-25
with cusin, ajis & family.JPG
with cusin, ajis & family.JPG 2008-10-25
with kak jul & her asst.JPG
with kak jul & her asst.JPG 2008-10-25
with my closest cuzins.jpg
with my closest cuzins.jpg 2008-10-25
with my former babysitter.JPG
with my former babysitter.JPG 2008-10-25
with my niece.JPG
with my niece.JPG 2008-10-25
with my siblings.JPG
with my siblings.JPG 2008-10-25
with the dowry.JPG
with the dowry.JPG 2008-10-25
with the gubahans.JPG
with the gubahans.JPG 2008-10-25
Hari Raya 2008
a fren from Dubai.jpg
a fren from Dubai.jpg 2008-10-01
after stucked in 1hr jam.jpg
after stucked in 1hr jam.jpg 2008-10-01
an again.jpg
an again.jpg 2008-09-26
and again.jpg
and again.jpg 2008-09-26
and here she is again.jpg
and here she is again.jpg 2008-10-01
and it becomes this.jpg
and it becomes this.jpg 2008-10-01
and the perfect shot.jpg
and the perfect shot.jpg 2008-09-26
another part of our big family.jpg
another part of our big family.jpg 2008-10-01
apa mak kecoh.jpg
apa mak kecoh.jpg 2008-10-01
asik dia aje.jpg
asik dia aje.jpg 2008-10-01
bad picture.jpg
bad picture.jpg 2008-10-01
awang's daughters.jpg
awang's daughters.jpg 2008-10-01
beraya di kampung.jpg
beraya di kampung.jpg 2008-10-01
belilah bunga dan keropok kami.jpg
belilah bunga dan keropok kami.jpg 2008-10-01
best cousins.jpg
best cousins.jpg 2008-10-01
bestest family.jpg
bestest family.jpg 2008-10-01
big and small.jpg
big and small.jpg 2008-10-01
blue family.jpg
blue family.jpg 2008-10-01
blue theme.jpg
blue theme.jpg 2008-10-01
brother and sister bonding.jpg
brother and sister bonding.jpg 2008-10-01
but she still didnt stop.jpg
but she still didnt stop.jpg 2008-10-01
call sape je tau.jpg
call sape je tau.jpg 2008-10-01
cam whoring.jpg
cam whoring.jpg 2008-10-01
candid camera.jpg
candid camera.jpg 2008-10-01
cik atan family & us.jpg
cik atan family & us.jpg 2008-10-01
crazy!.jpg
crazy!.jpg 2008-10-01
dewan bersalin.jpg
dewan bersalin.jpg 2008-10-01
F&N ambassadors.jpg
F&N ambassadors.jpg 2008-10-01
family bonding.jpg
family bonding.jpg 2008-10-01
getting ready.jpg
getting ready.jpg 2008-10-01
hidden mum again.jpg
hidden mum again.jpg 2008-10-01
hidden mum.jpg
hidden mum.jpg 2008-10-01
i LOVE this shot!.jpg
i LOVE this shot!.jpg 2008-10-01
i lv him to bits.jpg
i lv him to bits.jpg 2008-10-01
ini yg ada dijual.jpg
ini yg ada dijual.jpg 2008-10-01
jgn tgk makan.jpg
jgn tgk makan.jpg 2008-10-01
joining feet forces.jpg
joining feet forces.jpg 2008-10-01
kami ada menjual....jpg
kami ada menjual....jpg 2008-10-01
kenapalah aku singsing kain.jpg
kenapalah aku singsing kain.jpg 2008-10-01
kita kita kita.jpg
kita kita kita.jpg 2008-10-01
lihat muscle ku.jpg
lihat muscle ku.jpg 2008-10-01
lihat tu.jpg
lihat tu.jpg 2008-10-01
mak limah's daughters.jpg
mak limah's daughters.jpg 2008-10-01
mak pun bo layan.jpg
mak pun bo layan.jpg 2008-10-01
mat & minah PJ.jpg
mat & minah PJ.jpg 2008-10-01
matching blue!.jpg
matching blue!.jpg 2008-10-01
mcm teddybear eh.jpg
mcm teddybear eh.jpg 2008-10-01
men's talk.jpg
men's talk.jpg 2008-10-01
'menziarahi' hospital.jpg
'menziarahi' hospital.jpg 2008-10-01
mum & her pampered son.jpg
mum & her pampered son.jpg 2008-10-01
mum & sis.jpg
mum & sis.jpg 2008-10-01
my family.jpg
my family.jpg 2008-10-01
my inai artist.jpg
my inai artist.jpg 2008-10-01
my mum's cafe.jpg
my mum's cafe.jpg 2008-10-01
my not so little siblings.jpg
my not so little siblings.jpg 2008-10-01
my room mate.jpg
my room mate.jpg 2008-10-01
n again.jpg
n again.jpg 2008-09-26
nak minum apa.jpg
nak minum apa.jpg 2008-10-01
parental love.jpg
parental love.jpg 2008-10-01
part of my nieces & nephews.jpg
part of my nieces & nephews.jpg 2008-10-01
part of our big family.jpg
part of our big family.jpg 2008-10-01
part time cashiers.jpg
part time cashiers.jpg 2008-10-01
part time penjual makanan.jpg
part time penjual makanan.jpg 2008-10-01
patriotic NOT.jpg
patriotic NOT.jpg 2008-10-01
PERFECT!.jpg
PERFECT!.jpg 2008-10-01
picture perfect.jpg
picture perfect.jpg 2008-10-01
PJ.jpg
PJ.jpg 2008-10-01
Posing on the bed.jpg
Posing on the bed.jpg 2008-09-26
reah for the stars.jpg
reah for the stars.jpg 2008-10-01
same tone-coloured car.jpg
same tone-coloured car.jpg 2008-10-01
she's so tall.jpg
she's so tall.jpg 2008-10-01
siao char bo!.jpg
siao char bo!.jpg 2008-10-01
siblings for eternity.jpg
siblings for eternity.jpg 2008-10-01
siblings.jpg
siblings.jpg 2008-10-01
sis can't be bothered.jpg
sis can't be bothered.jpg 2008-10-01
sister & bro .jpg
sister & bro .jpg 2008-10-01
sisterly love.jpg
sisterly love.jpg 2008-10-01
tak abis2 berbual ke.jpg
tak abis2 berbual ke.jpg 2008-10-01
Tak menjadi.jpg
Tak menjadi.jpg 2008-09-26
tak pernah tgk bintang ke.jpg
tak pernah tgk bintang ke.jpg 2008-10-01
tangga pun nak bergambar.jpg
tangga pun nak bergambar.jpg 2008-10-01
the 2 rascals.jpg
the 2 rascals.jpg 2008-10-01
the best ones.jpg
the best ones.jpg 2008-10-01
the big small bro.jpg
the big small bro.jpg 2008-10-01
the biras-es.jpg
the biras-es.jpg 2008-10-01
the round ones.jpg
the round ones.jpg 2008-10-01
the sweet ones.jpg
the sweet ones.jpg 2008-10-01
the tired but happy look.jpg
the tired but happy look.jpg 2008-10-01
the young ones.jpg
the young ones.jpg 2008-10-01
towards the end of the day.jpg
towards the end of the day.jpg 2008-10-01
Try again.jpg
Try again.jpg 2008-09-26
us & mak long's family.jpg
us & mak long's family.jpg 2008-10-01
us again.jpg
us again.jpg 2008-10-01
us.jpg
us.jpg 2008-10-01
visi dan misi.jpg
visi dan misi.jpg 2008-10-01
What is nana looking at.jpg
What is nana looking at.jpg 2008-10-01
what the heck.jpg
what the heck.jpg 2008-10-01
what's with the plastic ladies.jpg
what's with the plastic ladies.jpg 2008-10-01
whose shoes are prettiest.jpg
whose shoes are prettiest.jpg 2008-10-01
Day2_3 siblings.jpg
Day2_3 siblings.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_the sisters.jpg
D2_the sisters.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_Kuih putih telur.jpg
D2_Kuih putih telur.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_a retake.jpg
D2_a retake.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_blocking the way.jpg
D2_blocking the way.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_entering neighbours house.jpg
D2_entering neighbours house.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_forever vain.jpg
D2_forever vain.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_gorging ourselves.jpg
D2_gorging ourselves.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_me again.jpg
D2_me again.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_me.jpg
D2_me.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_my mum.jpg
D2_my mum.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_the big eater.jpg
D2_the big eater.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_nasib muat gate.jpg
D2_nasib muat gate.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_posing.jpg
D2_posing.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_My sis.jpg
D2_My sis.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_my parents.jpg
D2_my parents.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_the breakfast served.jpg
D2_the breakfast served.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_the noisy parrot.jpg
D2_the noisy parrot.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_the bro and sis.jpg
D2_the bro and sis.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_the rascal.jpg
D2_the rascal.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_the other 2 rascals.jpg
D2_the other 2 rascals.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_another family shot.jpg
D2_another family shot.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_enjoying the goodies.jpg
D2_enjoying the goodies.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_with the car.jpg
D2_with the car.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_the tired mummy.jpg
D2_the tired mummy.jpg 2008-10-05
D2_us again.jpg
D2_us again.jpg 2008-10-05
Me & the Love of My Life
Abg2.JPG
Abg2.JPG 2008-08-24
Abg 26th Bday.JPG
Abg 26th Bday.JPG 2008-03-30
Abg eating my cake!.JPG
Abg eating my cake!.JPG 2008-03-30
Abg n I.JPG
Abg n I.JPG 2006-07-22
gg jemputan.JPG
gg jemputan.JPG 2008-07-20
at my workplace.JPG
at my workplace.JPG 2007-12-04
i'm so fat.JPG
i'm so fat.JPG 2007-12-23
lagi kita.JPG
lagi kita.JPG 2008-07-12
Mini mango cake.JPG
Mini mango cake.JPG 2008-03-30
My passport photo.jpg
My passport photo.jpg 2007-01-31
me.JPG
me.JPG 2007-12-23
Nice photo.JPG
Nice photo.JPG 2008-07-12
Oh oh.JPG
Oh oh.JPG 2008-07-20
one more shot.JPG
one more shot.JPG 2008-07-20
straw in the nose.JPG
straw in the nose.JPG 2007-12-23
tak habis habis.JPG
tak habis habis.JPG 2008-07-12
termenung bang.JPG
termenung bang.JPG 2008-06-11
us.JPG
us.JPG 2007-11-17
SANY0327.JPG
SANY0327.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0328.JPG
SANY0328.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0329.JPG
SANY0329.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0314.JPG
SANY0314.JPG 2008-08-29
Wada's Wedding
SANY0333.JPG
SANY0333.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0332.JPG
SANY0332.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0335.JPG
SANY0335.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0334.JPG
SANY0334.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0337.JPG
SANY0337.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0336.JPG
SANY0336.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0338.JPG
SANY0338.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0339.JPG
SANY0339.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0341.JPG
SANY0341.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0342.JPG
SANY0342.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0343.JPG
SANY0343.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0344.JPG
SANY0344.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0345.JPG
SANY0345.JPG 2008-08-30
SANY0346.JPG
SANY0346.JPG 2008-08-30
Teachers' Day cum ACES day 2008
SANY0258.JPG
SANY0258.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0257.JPG
SANY0257.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0259.JPG
SANY0259.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0261.JPG
SANY0261.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0262.JPG
SANY0262.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0263.JPG
SANY0263.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0264.JPG
SANY0264.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0265.JPG
SANY0265.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0266.JPG
SANY0266.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0268.JPG
SANY0268.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0267.JPG
SANY0267.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0270.JPG
SANY0270.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0269.JPG
SANY0269.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0271.JPG
SANY0271.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0272.JPG
SANY0272.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0273.JPG
SANY0273.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0274.JPG
SANY0274.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0275.JPG
SANY0275.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0276.JPG
SANY0276.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0277.JPG
SANY0277.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0278.JPG
SANY0278.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0279.JPG
SANY0279.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0280.JPG
SANY0280.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0281.JPG
SANY0281.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0282.JPG
SANY0282.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0283.JPG
SANY0283.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0285.JPG
SANY0285.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0286.JPG
SANY0286.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0287.JPG
SANY0287.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0288.JPG
SANY0288.JPG 2008-08-28
SANY0289.JPG
SANY0289.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0290.JPG
SANY0290.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0291.JPG
SANY0291.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0292.JPG
SANY0292.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0293.JPG
SANY0293.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0294.JPG
SANY0294.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0295.JPG
SANY0295.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0296.JPG
SANY0296.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0297.JPG
SANY0297.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0298.JPG
SANY0298.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0300.JPG
SANY0300.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0299.JPG
SANY0299.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0302.JPG
SANY0302.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0301.JPG
SANY0301.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0303.JPG
SANY0303.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0304.JPG
SANY0304.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0305.JPG
SANY0305.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0306.JPG
SANY0306.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0307.JPG
SANY0307.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0308.JPG
SANY0308.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0309.JPG
SANY0309.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0311.JPG
SANY0311.JPG 2008-08-29
SANY0312.JPG
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Collaboration with East Coast Pri
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NIE Days
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P1 2006
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Lego & Robotics@CPS
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Creative Writing Workshop 2004
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Teachers' Visit to Taman Warisan
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Cluster Competition 2004
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P4 Group Work 2005
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P2 2004
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Cluster Meet the Parents Session 2005
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Concert At Potong Pasir
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Hari Raya Concert 2005
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TWA@Singapore Polytechnic
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Dina & Diana's Farewell
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Hari Raya 2005
Dekni Lagi.JPG
Dekni Lagi.JPG 2005-11-05
and again!.JPG
and again!.JPG 2005-11-05
Me n Sis.JPG
Me n Sis.JPG 2005-11-05
maid again.JPG
maid again.JPG 2005-11-05
minah perasan.JPG
minah perasan.JPG 2005-11-05
Moi Family.JPG
Moi Family.JPG 2005-11-05
Moi Family Again.JPG
Moi Family Again.JPG 2005-11-05
My darling prnts.JPG
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My irritiating beo.JPG
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my siblings.JPG
my siblings.JPG 2005-11-05
Our very 1st maid.JPG
Our very 1st maid.JPG 2005-11-05
our men.JPG
our men.JPG 2005-11-05
Sisters forever.JPG
Sisters forever.JPG 2005-11-05
the jambus.JPG
the jambus.JPG 2005-11-05
the jambus again.JPG
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us again.JPG
us again.JPG 2005-11-05
A Sat with Sis & Nadiah
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My Bro's 17th Birthday
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Hari Raya 2006
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DSCN0264.JPG 2006-10-29
A relative's Wedding
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makan edit.jpg
makan edit.jpg 2008-08-24
sis edit.jpg
sis edit.jpg 2008-08-24
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100_0397.jpg 2008-08-24
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100_0404.jpg 2008-08-24
NIE Graduation 2004
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DSC_0051.JPG 2004-08-23
Zoom Bahasa 2008
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IMG_0219.JPG 2007-06-29
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IMG_0221.JPG 2007-06-29
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IMG_0222.JPG 2007-06-29
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IMG_0224.JPG 2007-06-29
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IMG_0254.JPG 2007-06-29
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IMG_0255.JPG 2007-06-29
SP Robotics Attachment
Picture 013.jpg
Picture 013.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 012.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 014.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 017.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 018.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 019.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 020.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 021.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 022.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 023.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 024.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 025.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 027.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 028.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 029.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 030.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 031.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 032.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 033.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 034.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 035.jpg 2006-05-26
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Picture 036.jpg 2006-05-26
Picture 037.jpg
Picture 037.jpg 2006-05-26
Family
Alysha Qistina Yawning.JPG
Alysha Qistina Yawning.JPG 2007-11-25
Me n Alysha Qistina.JPG
Me n Alysha Qistina.JPG 2007-11-25
Tak bgn bgn budak ni.JPG
Tak bgn bgn budak ni.JPG 2007-11-25
TWA@IMH
4.JPG
4.JPG 2007-12-19
3.JPG
3.JPG 2007-12-17
2.JPG
2.JPG 2007-12-17
1.JPG
1.JPG 2007-12-17
6.JPG
6.JPG 2007-12-19
5.JPG
5.JPG 2007-12-19
7.JPG
7.JPG 2007-12-19
8.JPG
8.JPG 2007-12-19
10.JPG
10.JPG 2007-12-19
9.JPG
9.JPG 2007-12-19
11.JPG
11.JPG 2007-12-17
10a.JPG
10a.JPG 2007-12-19
11a.JPG
11a.JPG 2007-12-17
12.JPG
12.JPG 2007-12-17
13.JPG
13.JPG 2007-12-17
14.JPG
14.JPG 2007-12-17
15.JPG
15.JPG 2007-12-17
16.JPG
16.JPG 2007-12-17
17.JPG
17.JPG 2007-12-17
18.JPG
18.JPG 2007-12-17
19.JPG
19.JPG 2007-12-17
20.JPG
20.JPG 2007-12-17
21.JPG
21.JPG 2007-12-18
22.JPG
22.JPG 2007-12-18
23.JPG
23.JPG 2007-12-18
24.JPG
24.JPG 2007-12-18
25.JPG
25.JPG 2007-12-18
26.JPG
26.JPG 2007-12-18
28.JPG
28.JPG 2007-12-18
27.JPG
27.JPG 2007-12-18
30.JPG
30.JPG 2007-12-17
29.JPG
29.JPG 2007-12-18
30a.JPG
30a.JPG 2007-12-17
32.JPG
32.JPG 2007-12-17
33.JPG
33.JPG 2007-12-17
34.JPG
34.JPG 2007-12-17
35.JPG
35.JPG 2007-12-17
36.JPG
36.JPG 2007-12-21
37.JPG
37.JPG 2007-12-21
38.JPG
38.JPG 2007-12-21
39.JPG
39.JPG 2007-12-21
40.JPG
40.JPG 2007-12-21
41.JPG
41.JPG 2007-12-21
42.JPG
42.JPG 2007-12-21
43.JPG
43.JPG 2007-12-21
Sulia's Engagement
all smiles.JPG
all smiles.JPG 2008-05-25
apa yang dibincangkan.JPG
apa yang dibincangkan.JPG 2008-05-25
Cake.JPG
Cake.JPG 2008-05-25
banyak nye.JPG
banyak nye.JPG 2008-05-25
Grape Rocher.JPG
Grape Rocher.JPG 2008-05-25
exchange of rings.JPG
exchange of rings.JPG 2008-05-25
Ni dia cincin.JPG
Ni dia cincin.JPG 2008-05-25
sarungkan cincin.JPG
sarungkan cincin.JPG 2008-05-25
the dulang hantarans.JPG
the dulang hantarans.JPG 2008-05-25
the guy's side.JPG
the guy's side.JPG 2008-05-25
the ring.JPG
the ring.JPG 2008-05-25
wakil n wakil.JPG
wakil n wakil.JPG 2008-05-25
With her fren.JPG
With her fren.JPG 2008-05-25
Pupils
posing again.JPG
posing again.JPG 2007-11-15
missing them.JPG
missing them.JPG 2007-11-15
The girls_2007.JPG
The girls_2007.JPG 2007-11-15
Bunga Rampai Making session
Picture 002.jpg
Picture 002.jpg 2006-05-02
Picture 001.jpg
Picture 001.jpg 2006-05-02
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Picture 004.jpg 2006-05-02
Picture 003.jpg
Picture 003.jpg 2006-05-02
Picture 006.jpg
Picture 006.jpg 2006-05-02
Picture 005.jpg
Picture 005.jpg 2006-05-02
Picture 007.jpg
Picture 007.jpg 2006-05-02
Picture 008.jpg
Picture 008.jpg 2006-05-02
Picture 009.jpg
Picture 009.jpg 2006-05-02
Picture 010.jpg
Picture 010.jpg 2006-05-02
Picture 011.jpg
Picture 011.jpg 2006-05-02
National Day Celebration 2008
taekwondo kids getting ready.JPG
taekwondo kids getting ready.JPG 2008-08-08
a nepali dance.JPG
a nepali dance.JPG 2008-08-08
all so graceful.JPG
all so graceful.JPG 2008-08-08
even trs are wearing red.JPG
even trs are wearing red.JPG 2008-08-08
our creative dancers.JPG
our creative dancers.JPG 2008-08-08
our korean superband2.JPG
our korean superband2.JPG 2008-08-08
our korean superband.JPG
our korean superband.JPG 2008-08-08
singalong session.JPG
singalong session.JPG 2008-08-08
scouts.JPG
scouts.JPG 2008-08-08
sea of reds.JPG
sea of reds.JPG 2008-08-08
IMG_5473.JPG
IMG_5473.JPG 2008-08-07
IMG_5472.JPG
IMG_5472.JPG 2008-08-07
IMG_5475.JPG
IMG_5475.JPG 2008-08-07
IMG_5474.JPG
IMG_5474.JPG 2008-08-07
IMG_54766.jpg
IMG_54766.jpg 2008-08-25
IMG_5476.JPG
IMG_5476.JPG 2008-08-07
Friends
IMG_0449.JPG
IMG_0449.JPG 2004-09-06
FSCN0261.JPG
FSCN0261.JPG 2006-10-28
cpdd presentation_7 aug 08.JPG
cpdd presentation_7 aug 08.JPG 2008-08-07
Ain's Bday cake_yummy.JPG
Ain's Bday cake_yummy.JPG 2008-03-28
Ain's Bday.JPG
Ain's Bday.JPG 2008-03-28
The young ones.jpg
The young ones.jpg 2006-01-27
Ain cutting cake.JPG
Ain cutting cake.JPG 2008-03-28
Celebration in the pantry.jpg
Celebration in the pantry.jpg 2006-01-27
Course Grp Photo.jpg
Course Grp Photo.jpg 2008-08-25
Career guidance.JPG
Career guidance.JPG 2007-11-22
Dina Wedding.jpg
Dina Wedding.jpg 2006-06-04
ExcelFest 2006.jpg
ExcelFest 2006.jpg 2006-07-08
Faridah Jabbar Wai Leng.JPG
Faridah Jabbar Wai Leng.JPG 2007-09-21
hd1.jpg
hd1.jpg 2005-01-31
hd2.jpg
hd2.jpg 2005-01-31
LS Open house 2007.JPG
LS Open house 2007.JPG 2007-09-21
LS crowd.JPG
LS crowd.JPG 2007-09-21
MSS publication.jpg
MSS publication.jpg 2008-08-25
My sec 1 Lit tr.JPG
My sec 1 Lit tr.JPG 2006-08-08
Nazirah n Durrah n Nurain.jpg
Nazirah n Durrah n Nurain.jpg 2005-07-09
Our young clique.JPG
Our young clique.JPG 2006-08-11
Panca Delima 1.jpg
Panca Delima 1.jpg 2008-08-25
Panca Delima 2.jpg
Panca Delima 2.jpg 2008-08-25
The ladies n guys agaian.JPG
The ladies n guys agaian.JPG 2007-11-23
The ladies n guys.JPG
The ladies n guys.JPG 2007-11-23
The ladies.JPG
The ladies.JPG 2007-11-23
Cuzins' Outing
Black Pepper chicken.JPG
Black Pepper chicken.JPG 2008-05-24
apa ni.JPG
apa ni.JPG 2008-05-24
lagi!.JPG
lagi!.JPG 2008-05-24
minah mentels.JPG
minah mentels.JPG 2008-05-24
minah perasan 2.JPG
minah perasan 2.JPG 2008-05-24
minah perasan 3.JPG
minah perasan 3.JPG 2008-05-24
minah perasan.JPG
minah perasan.JPG 2008-05-24
nak sikit.JPG
nak sikit.JPG 2008-05-24
Nurul.JPG
Nurul.JPG 2008-05-24
order no 9.JPG
order no 9.JPG 2008-05-24
sampai menjilat jari.JPG
sampai menjilat jari.JPG 2008-05-24
them again!.JPG
them again!.JPG 2008-05-24
Mum's Day 2008
IMG_0411.JPG
IMG_0411.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0427.JPG
IMG_0427.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0410.JPG
IMG_0410.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0409.JPG
IMG_0409.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0412.JPG
IMG_0412.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0413.JPG
IMG_0413.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0414.JPG
IMG_0414.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0415.JPG
IMG_0415.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0416.JPG
IMG_0416.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0417.JPG
IMG_0417.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0418.JPG
IMG_0418.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0419.JPG
IMG_0419.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0420.JPG
IMG_0420.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0421.JPG
IMG_0421.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0422.JPG
IMG_0422.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0423.JPG
IMG_0423.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0425.JPG
IMG_0425.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0424.JPG
IMG_0424.JPG 2008-05-10
IMG_0426.JPG
IMG_0426.JPG 2008-05-10
Kat's Wedding
Adel Azlan.JPG
Adel Azlan.JPG 2008-08-26
Adel Azlan (1).JPG
Adel Azlan (1).JPG 2008-08-26
durrah2.jpg
durrah2.jpg 2008-08-24
durrah3.jpg
durrah3.jpg 2008-08-24
durrah1.jpg
durrah1.jpg 2008-08-24
durrah4.jpg
durrah4.jpg 2008-08-24
IMG_1821.jpg
IMG_1821.jpg 2007-11-10
IMG_1822.jpg
IMG_1822.jpg 2007-11-10
IMG_1823.jpg
IMG_1823.jpg 2007-11-10
IMG_1824.jpg
IMG_1824.jpg 2007-11-10
IMG_1827.jpg
IMG_1827.jpg 2007-11-10
IMG_1828.jpg
IMG_1828.jpg 2007-11-10
My darling P2s (2008)
Afiqah n Umira.JPG
Afiqah n Umira.JPG 2008-07-25
Amira n Quraisyah.JPG
Amira n Quraisyah.JPG 2008-07-25
Asiyah n Joshua.JPG
Asiyah n Joshua.JPG 2008-07-25
Baca semua.JPG
Baca semua.JPG 2008-07-25
Class Photo.JPG
Class Photo.JPG 2008-07-25
Dengar apa tu.JPG
Dengar apa tu.JPG 2008-07-25
Farhan n Eden.JPG
Farhan n Eden.JPG 2008-07-25
Funny Shots.JPG
Funny Shots.JPG 2008-07-25
My kungfu panda.JPG
My kungfu panda.JPG 2008-07-25
Refuse to have her pic taken_Farisha.JPG
Refuse to have her pic taken_Farisha.JPG 2008-07-25
Refuse to have her pic taken_Farisha.JPG
Refuse to have her pic taken_Farisha.JPG 2008-07-25
Sabila Aqil n Sara.JPG
Sabila Aqil n Sara.JPG 2008-07-25
Salinah lagi.JPG
Salinah lagi.JPG 2008-07-25
Salinah Posing.JPG
Salinah Posing.JPG 2008-07-25
The 4 cuties.JPG
The 4 cuties.JPG 2008-07-25
The duo hard at work.JPG
The duo hard at work.JPG 2008-07-25
Tina n irya.JPG
Tina n irya.JPG 2008-07-25
International Conference in Teaching and Learning with Technology (ICTLT) 2008
IMG_0699.JPG
IMG_0699.JPG 2007-09-05
IMG_0697.JPG
IMG_0697.JPG 2007-09-05
IMG_0695.JPG
IMG_0695.JPG 2007-09-05
IMG_0696.JPG
IMG_0696.JPG 2007-09-05
IMG_0700.JPG
IMG_0700.JPG 2007-09-05
IMG_0701.JPG
IMG_0701.JPG 2007-09-05
IMG_0703.JPG
IMG_0703.JPG 2007-09-05
IMG_0702.JPG
IMG_0702.JPG 2007-09-05
IMG_0704.JPG
IMG_0704.JPG 2007-09-05
Children's Day 2007
Batman n Zorro.JPG
Batman n Zorro.JPG 2007-09-28
Bollywood dance.JPG
Bollywood dance.JPG 2007-09-28
Batman Zorro Catwoman.JPG
Batman Zorro Catwoman.JPG 2007-09-28
This is where I embed the memorable moments in my life journey.
Memories that bring laughter and tears.
Their memories forever remains etched in my memory...
