Its been a while.....
So, its been a year ( a little longer actually) since I wrote last. I find that with two kids, and a ton of stuff to do, blogging tends to fall by the wayside. So, as summer is in full swing, I will take some time to upload pictures (some a year old!), tell a few stories, and generally catch you all up on the goings on of the Morris Family. They don't call it mayhem for nothing!
Snowball conversations, young theologians, etc.
So, last night, during a hang nail incident, I was in Jackson's room talking. I told him that it was going to be time to lay down, cover up and try to sleep, after the hang nail was gone, of course. He asked me why, and I explained that it was WAY past his bedtime, and he needed to go to sleep. When prompted with "How far is Way past?" I told him, one hour or 60 minutes. I said 60 is more minutes than Bigs (his grandpa) is old. The rest went like this:
J: Whoa. That's alot.
M: Yes, it is.
J: How long til I am 60?
M: 56 years. About as long as Bigs is old.
J: Whoa. Will I be like Bigs?
M: I bet you will. And you know what? You will probably have grandkids, too.
J: What do you mean? How can I have grandkids?
M: Well, when you are Bigs' age, you will probably have a son or daughter around Daddy's age, and they will probably have a son or a daughter. So you will be a grandpa like Bigs.
J: How long til I am 100?
M: 96 years. That's more years than Mammy is old. 10 more years.
J: WHOA. THAT'S OLD.
M: And you know what? You will be so old, that your grandchildren could have grandchildren!
J: How?
M: Well, if you are 100, your son might be 75, his son might be 50, his son might be 25, and he could have a son, too. That's alot of people. Your grandkids could have their own grandkids.
J: Whoa. Yeah. (Pause) Mommy, can I live in a house when I am 100?
M: Sure, I guess.
J: Whoa. That will have to be one HUGE house (see, at 4, Jackson equates age with height and growing)
M: (chuckle) Buddy, you don't keep growing forever. One day you will stop getting taller. Like....Daddy. He won't get any taller than he is right now, and he is just 32.
J: No, Mommy.....you keep growing until you go to see God (here it comes...) That's how he made us.
M: Oh, ok.
J: Will everyone be the same age (As everyone else) when we get to Heaven?
M: I don't know, Buddy.
J: Will I get to go to heaven when I am a kid?
M: (worrying that I can't explain why I don't want to say yes, even though that's the answer he wants....so impatient, my children) I don't think so, Buddy.
J: Mommy, what if no one went to Heaven to see God? We just stayed here and got to be 100 or bigger?
M: Well, there would be a lot of old, tired people.
J: But will we all be the same age?
M: I don't know, Buddy. We don't want to go and see God in Heaven until it is time for us to go. That's why you don't want to go if you're a kid, because you have to stay here and finish all the stuff that God needs you to finish.
J: (Wide eyed) Yeah.....what if there was no heaven and no God. Everyone would just stay here forever. Yeah, what if there was no God?
M: Well, if there was no God, the world would be a scary place. Everyone would be mean, and try to hurt each other. There would still be some good people, but it would not be a good place to live. (sensing the impending nightmare material...) But you don't have to worry about that Buddy, because there is God.
J: Right. God made us, and takes care of us, and watches out for us.
M: That's right, He does.
J: Yeah, and His son, Jesus, he was CRUCIFIED. (yes, you could almost here the "duh duh duh...." in his voice)
M: Yes, he was. (in amazement at the word crucified from my 4 year old, rather than "on the cross", etc)
J: Mommy, do you know WHY Jesus was crucified?
M: (while thinking that if he said, "so that we would be forgiven" I could be done parenting him, and only worry about Jacey) Why?
J: Because there are SOOOO many people in the world, that God needed help to watch over us, so Jesus died so he could help.
M: Yes. And God had a job for Jesus on Earth, too.
J: He did?
M: Yes. Well, its hard to understand....but Jesus' job WAS to be crucified. When He died, God forgave us for all of our sins. Jesus died for our sins, so that we wouldn't have to.
J: Yeah, but He died, and THEN he came back to life for 10 years (Where he got that, I don't know), and THEN he went to be with God to help take care of us.
M: Ok. And so God forgave us for all of our sins, right?
J: Yeah. Like....how everyone is SUPPOSED to tell the truth, but they lie. BUT...you just get in trouble, like a spanking and stuff, and then you take a deep breath, and its over. Like it never happened.
M: (sensing a gap in translation that might imply that its OKAY to lie, because forgiveness is there) Right. Kind of. But its not okay to lie. You are supposed to always TRY to do whats right. Always TRY to tell the truth, and act the right way, but when we make a mistake, we get forgiveness. That's what God says.
J: No. A mistake is when you mean to do something, but you accidentally do something else (yes, my 4 year old gets that lies are usually NOT accidents)
M: Right, but sometimes mistakes are like oopses....we get to try again.
J: YEAH. (THATS WHAT I SAID....) So you just get in trouble, take a deep breath and its like it never happened.
M:Ok. But you understand that you are supposed to tell the truth. You can't just get in trouble. You have to tell the truth. Say your sorry, then when you have done all that, you get to try again.
J: Yeah, like it NEVER happened.
M: Jackson?
J: what?
M: go to sleep......
Oh, how random conversation can take a turn. Jacey will be our engineering, "figure it out" mind. Jackson will be our talk it out, relate it to everything in the world, and how the world works, theologian. What a night....
Museum Days and Street fairs
We have had a full summer so far with teeball....ALL THE TIME. But now its over, and there is a little more time for blogging, updating pics, etc. Since APSU let out in May, we have had a couple days we could do some things. We went to the Customs House Museum here in Clarksville. Its small, but the kids LOVE it. And, one night after eating and errands, we stopped a by a little carnival in the mall parking lot. After checking thoroughly that there were no raw peanuts sold on the premises, the fun began! Mostly it was great, but Jackson like it a little better than Jacey. She is still a little young. Oh well, good times!
TEEBALL BEGINS!!!
Jackson started Teeball!! He is LOVING it! Daddy is coaching, with some help from other dads, and we are having a blast! Jackson is the best batter on our team. We are all learning a thing or two, and we are working on focusing on well.....what's going on. We are the Yankees, and our team is great! Not to mention....sooo cute!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACEY!!!
Jacey turned 1!! What a big girl! She isn't quite walking on her own, yet....but she sure has enough attitude to out last 5 1 year olds! (And a mommy or two). We partied at home, at Bobo and Mommaw's, at daycare and Bigs and Deba's. Whew......what a time! What better way to end a perfect birthday?? Falling asleep in the Toy Box, surrounded by stuffed animals. Perfect.
We love you Jacey!! Happy birthday baby girl!
EASTER 2010
Well, its that time of year again. Last Easter was VERY eventful. Joel, Jackson and I went to church, then lunch with family, and to play with some bunnies. Then after a nap, over to Bobo and Mommaw's house for pizza and hanging out. Oh but wait, an unexpected arrival.....JACEY!! My water broke while we were there, and just 3 or so hours later, she joined us for Easter! It was a perfect day.
Here are some of this year's pictures. Dress up photos, and of course, Easter Bunny goodies. Oh, and don't forget the trip to the Easter Egg Patch! We are so thankful for all of our blessings!
Playing together!
Jackson and Jacey have a love hate relationship.....they love to play together, but they hate to share what they are playing with. It is quite the conundrum. Regardless, one of the favorite games now is....play IN the toy box! These pics start in March 2010
Snow Days!
Here are some snow pics from February 8, 2010. Jacey wasn't so sure about cold white stuff, but Jackson and Daddy thought it was perfect for snowman building!
Home for days with sickness and snow
Well.....Jacey got sick again. She had an ear infection with a fever on Wednesday, but after beginning a rough bout of stomach sickness (you get the idea) we had to go in for a shot of antibiotics, since the rest weren't staying in. Then ANOTHER catheter, more fever, and tons of meds later, we are, possibly, on the mend.
On the upside, it has been snowing like CRAZY, for Clarksville. We have 6 inches, and its beautiful. I will upload snow pics as soon as possible! But, for now, goodnight!
Christmas Cuties
Mom took GREAT pictures of Jackson and Jacey (and us, too) for Christmas! Check them out here.
Fall FUN
Mom took pictures of all of us for Fall. Usually this includes Joel's brother, Cory, and his family, and Joel's parents. The pictures are good. Well, the one's of everyone else. I need better photo presence, but I am working on it!
Updates
Okay, so after a long absence, I am updating the blog. Please be sure to check Jackson and Jacey's sections, as well as this one, as I will be adding pictures and such there.
Job News
Well, the aforementioned interview did not lead to a position. Its okay. I am teaching again this semester, and enjoying it. My students are less lethargic and more motivated, so that is motivating to me. I have been applying for more positions several places. I recently got a phone call from the City of Clarksville Parks and Recreation Department, and they have asked me to interview for a position with them. So, that's interesting. We will see how it goes. Keep hoping.
Never what we expect...
Today I had an interview (fingers crossed) for a full-time position as an Online Academic Advisor at APSU. It was phone interview, which was weird, and it was with an entire committee instead of just one person. I felt like I repeated myself too often, and that some of my answers were great, but some of them weren't. I tried to convey to them the best part of me and my desire to stay at APSU. I don't know if they got that out of it, but during the whole stressful process, here is what I learned...
The longer I wait for an opening that I may actually get hired into, the less confident I become. I was astonished at how nervous I was, especially considering this is not my normal personality. I found that I was more nervous because, due to my role as a PUBLIC speaking teacher, I generally excel in these type of situations. BUT...it was a phone interview. How do you read people's facial reactions to your answers, or body language otherwise, if you are on the phone. Everything I am accustomed to was irrelevant.
Also, I was surprised to admit, out loud, that I was looking forward to and hoping for this position more than I thought. I have had this picture in my head of me doing event planning, or writing press releases, or representing some large organization or company. BUT... I WANT to be at Austin Peay. I have spent the last 8 1/2 years of my life, give or take, studying and working at APSU. I feel at ease and at home there. I BELONG there. I guess that is why I keep going back.
I used to say that "You can do any job with a public relations degree. It doesn't matter what, as long as you are working with the public, you are using your degree." For those of you who know me best, and have been listening to me whine and complain about not being able to find a job that used my education, you know how odd it is to hear this. BUT... I think that, while preparing for this interview, I have come back to this realization. You don't have to be protecting the reputation of the Governor. Public Relations applies to all jobs, all careers, all walks of like. PR is working with people. That's all I ever really wanted to do. I don't know when I got all caught up in logistics.
I hope that the interview went okay. I hope that the search committee realizes how endebted I feel to the university, and how badly I want to help other students who are like me. I want to give the students the support that I got through my roles at APSU. I was never just a student, and that allowed me many priveleges and relationships that helped me in my college endeavors. Maybe I didn't interview well (I can't tell you, because it was a PHONE interview, and I couldn't read their reaction (See above)) and maybe I won't get it. Either way, I have a newfound respect for where I want to go. I believe in education. I believe in my students, and I believe in the university and the ways that it attempts to help them all. I believe I just might be figuring this out...
UPDATES
I have updated some videos and pictures to Jackson's and Jacey's sites. More to come. Check them out!
Lesson Learned.
Okay, so.....FYI:
When making homemade salsa, inspired by a student's delicious "How To" speech, be sure to wait until the blender OFFICIALLY stops spinning before removing the lid. This is especially important for contact wearers after adding garlic, onion, cilantro, jalapeno and bell pepper, which can, as it sounds, burn your eyes quite badly.
If your blender explodes, run immediately, CLOTHED, into a cold shower, remove contacts, rinse off the pound of pureed spiciness from your eyes, face and clothes. Then wait, return contacts when burning sensation has subsided, and proceed in cleaning the walls, window shade, floor and counters of your kitchen.
Thank goodness I had yet to reach the "add tomatoes" step!
oh, I forgot one.....MY CAR....
So, my brand new, less than a year old, only has 12,000 miles on it vehicle, is in the shop. AGAIN. Over the past 3 weeks, I have only been in possession of my vehicle for 8 days. I complained at the dealer of a VIOLENT SHAKING, occurring usually between 45-60 miles per hour. They wrote, vibration, even though I POINTED OUT SPECIFICALLY that it was a VIOLENT SHAKING, but whatever, not pertinent, just annoying. They kept the car a day, said "oh, you need a torque converter (for the transmission apparently), and gave it back to us. The next week, they get the part, we take it in, they keep it 3 days, we pay for a rental, they give us back our car. STILL SHAKING VIOLENTLY. The a few days later, when they finally gave us an appointment, we take it back. They look at it, tell us they need to REPLACE THE ENTIRE TRANSMISSION, (Please see the first sentence of this entry), and keep it. For TEN days. Now, I must admit, this time THEY pay for the rental, but mostly because Joel told them they had to in a not-asking-nicely kind of way. So, ten days later, we get our car back. Rather, I get the car back. (This is the part where I find it necessary to point out that the gas tank was below E and the gas light was on. Not only is it inconsiderate, but obviously they are under the impression that I am NOT the kind of person to point this out when I see them again. Yes, AGAIN....(Oh, but you know better don't you?)) And, 10 miles later, STILL SHAKING VIOLENTLY. (Ok, REALLY? I am starting to believe they never even drove it to check after they replaced the transmission. Obviously, had they driven it, they wouldn't have given it back. Right?) Now, I should have called and immediately taken it back, but I happened to NEED my car, so we waited a few days. This Tuesday we took it back for the FOURTH time. They pay for a rental, again, (Thats right, they have the fear), and keep the car. We call them that afternoon, and THEY HAVEN'T EVEN LOOKED AT IT (10 hours later). 2 DAYS later, we call THEM, (They are obviously not good at follow-up), and they say this..."Well, you're going to have to keep the rental until at LEAST next week, we don't know what's wrong." Joel says, "Are you having trouble replicating the problem?" They say, "OH NO, we can definitely make it happen, we just have NO IDEA why, or what's causing it. We have been on the phone with Chrysler all day..." We assume this means they are looking for some kind of answer from higher up. At this point, after I think I have been BEYOND patient with their incompetence and rudeness, I am, well, pretty much done. Although fixing it would be great, I am secretly hoping that they can't fix it and will replace the car completely. Even better, they should refund the purchase price of our vehicle, not depreciated, in accordance to Tennessee State Lemon Law. Then, we could pay off the car loan, and purchase an even cooler (Yes, I have found a cooler car than the one I loved and thought was fantastic) 2010 Chevy Equinox, (I miss my old Equinox, Co), which would allow us to pay less (Thats right LESS), AND avoid ever having to deal with this dealer and its mechanics again. SO....almost off my soapbox, I ask that you hope with me for a vehicle which works, sans VIOLENT SHAKING, and is possibly, newer, better and cheaper. Here's hoping.........
UPDATES
OK, I have been slacking, and am thus behind in my blogging. I apologize and promise to make more attempts. I will even add pictures soon and try to be a better Mommy when it comes to digital/photographic upkeep. Anyway, here goes......
Fishy Cracker.....well, he didn't make it. Only lasted a few days after "the incident". Fishy, the fish who was added to give Fishy Cracker a friend, actually bit it first. Who'da thought? Anyway, after a few days, when Jackson finally noticed they weren't there, and a VERY dramatic fit of devastation thrown RIGHT before church, we headed to the fish store. We now have a bigger tank, (WITH A LID), and new rocks, and a tunnel thing and 3 new fish (tetras, not goldfish, since the guy says they live longer and tend NOT to try to kill themselves). Their names? Fishy Cracker II (though in honesty probably V). Fishy II, and Fishy Cookie (which may have been a desparate 3 year old attempt at making their names the same). So, wish us luck....or them, whichever you think would be more successful.
Jacey rolls all the way over now, and back again when she gets a hankering. She is eating solid foods, and I must admit, she loves her veggies. Jackson does, too. Which is odd, I think, since he's 3 and a boy, but whatever, I'll take it. I have pictures of that, too. Jacey eating veggies, not Jackson.
Joel lost 65 pounds. No, I am NOT exaggerating, and in less than 90 days. Its ridiculous. I point out to him that if HE had carried our children I could have lost 65 pounds that quickly. But alas, he can't, I did, and now I am stuck struggling, exercising and eating healthy, all while watching him be all skinny and in shape. He's gonna run a 5K in November you know. Show off.....
School started back. My kids, by this I mean college students, so some are not kids, think I am awesome AND hysterical, but I mean, its me, so who can blame 'em. I was dreading the first day, but am thouroughly enjoying being back at work. Somewhere around that first paycheck in September and I think I will feel, temporarily, less guilty. Still looking for permanent, high paying (or at least DECENT paying) work though, so if you know someone, put in a good word.
Hmmm....I am sure there is more, but my arm is tired from sitting crooked and typing, and motherhood calls. I'll fill you all in more later!
CRAZY FISH (See pics below)
So recently, earlier this week, we bought a new fish tank. The fish we had, "Fishy Cracker", was getting too big for his britches, or at least for his tank. So we got a bigger one, and a little friend for him to swim with. They've been doing great all week, until........
This morning I went in to feed the fish. I noticed I could only find one of them. The new one. Now keep in mind that Fishy Cracker is pretty big for a home-based goldfish, and has been with us over a year and a half. (He came to us when Jackson actually tossed one of those crazy balls into the bowl at the fair. That fish died, and the one after, and Fishy Cracker came in as the second replacement). I looked in the little tunnel, I looked behind the filter....nothing.
So, I called Joel in, and with a little checking, he discovered that Fishy Cracker had apparently jumped OUT of his brand new home, and landed in Jackson's fireman's helmet beside the dresser. Though he was still, Joel could see he was still breathing, or rather gasping. In desperation he dumped him out of the helmet back into the water.
Slowly, our suicidal little fish is coming back to life. He had trouble swimming at first, and spent some time in odd positions, but as we wait, he is looking better. We'll see what happens.
This CRAZY fish JUMPED out of the water. The tank is pretty tall, and I should have put the lid on, but he had never done anything like that before. The other tank would have been much easier to escape from. Poor fellow, I wonder what happened to make him want to meet his maker. Maybe the new fish, "Fishy" (yes, Jackson named them himself), was heckling him? We may never know....
Peanut-free wonderment!
Well, we gave it a try, and the SunButter works surprisingly well as a substitute for peanut butter!! Last week for Mommaw's birthday we all enjoyed a special treat: Spoonful of Cookie! Previously banned for its peanut butter contaminants, this wonderful dessert has made its way back into our lives!
Next, we gave some too Debra, and she made her famous Peanut Butter Bars, only with Sunbutter. YUM! You can barely tell a difference, and it made our hearts feel a little bit better. This could be the road to a better life!
New Videos
I have also added new videos to the VIDEOS album at the right. Jackson walking the balance beam, and Jacey being cute....and talking to the camera! More to come!
Whats Wrong with this picture?
So Jacey has this ADORABLE outfit....but wait? What does it say? What a "swee" baby girl we have!
Updates and whatnot
Ok, so I haven't updated the blog in a while. I have been quite busy, and thus, distracted. I am adding a new album from the new camera with updated pictures from July. Enjoy!
Jacey Discovers
Recently, Jacey has discovered that she can hit things if she tries hard enough. The object of her affection? A plastic ladybug dangling from her car seat toy. Since its easy to move around, we sometimes attach it to the bouncy, as seen here. She is amazed. She will hit that poor ladybug, watch it spin, and when it stops, start the game again! She even discusses the game with me and the toy, I imagine.
My apologies ahead of time for the poor quality of video. This comes to us via cell phone. My camera died quite suddenly, and while I am waiting for Mom and Mommaw to ever so graciously help me correct the situation, the phone is all I have!
Pink Polka Dot Pajamas
Ok, so its not a milestone...but she looks so cute! I feel like she belongs in Whoville, or perhaps in a scene from Horton Hears a Who. So cute!
Jacey Hams it up!
Ok, so today, sans Jackson, I had time to snap a couple phone shots of Jacey. Today, she discovered the camera. It is difficult to make her laugh when she is so mesmerized that she won't even look at me! Oh, well, she's cute anyway....cute dress courtesy of Deba. :)
A Play Date for Jackson
This week Jackson, (Who was VERY excited) got to go to Drew's house for a play date! After a chaotic morning, (who would expect less with two kids), Jackson, Jacey and I all made it over, albeit a little late, to see Drew, and Jonna and Kate.
The boys threw sticky balls at the door, had a picnic lunch in the living room, and played baseball and rode in Drew's new truck. All the fun was cut a little short by very ominous skies, which only panicked the mommies a little, but we got to hang out through the storm. It was a good day, overall. Not only do I prefer to ride out scary storms with a friend, rather than alone, but its nice to have children so tuckered they sleep a good deal in the afternoon.
Maybe next time Jackson's friends will visit at our house. He had the BEST time, and is still talking about how much fun it was to play with Drew!
Check out pictures of his big day, courtesy of Jonna, in the CUTE KIDDOS file.
All smiles!
After many attempts by the BoBo Paprazzi, I have secured a smiley picture from that cute little girl of mine! Isn't she adorable!
Job hunting
Soooo....another crushing blow to the confidence. As you all know, I have been diligently searching for a job in my field. I have managed to become someone with 2 degrees who can't get 1 good job (with a good salary...I love teaching, but part time pay won't cut it).
I got another letter today telling me how talented I am, but that they have chosen a better candidate. Thats fine. I GET IT. I do. If I were in their place, I would pick the best person, too. Its not that thats bothering me. Its lack of interviews.
See, how do they KNOW they don't want me if they don't interview me? Is that a new common practice? Just look at resumes, throw away the ones that may not be right for the job and hire the guy that looks best on paper? If it is....how could I NOT look good on paper? I have experience, proven job dedication, a higher education degree, a 3.9 GPA, great letters of recommendation, and skills that I learned even if I didn't need them. What about me screams....."nah" ? Why don't they even want to MEET me?
Geez....what a blow to the gut. Keep your fingers crossed. And your ears open.
Jackson does GYMNASTICS!
Last week Jackson went to his first gymnastics class. He LOVES it! He has only had two classes, but he already thinks he's a pro! Not only has he charmed the pants off all of the girls who coach there, (no real suprise), he is keeping them hopping with his constant questions. Leave it to Jackson to have to know exactly how and why something works or doesn't work.
He is in love with Coach Meghan. She is very patient, and although having to explain her twin sister who also worked there was difficult (how do you tell a 3 year old why someone looks like you?), she thinks he is pretty wonderful, too.
So far, he has done the trampoline, balance beam and bars. He is so excited to try all of the things that he has seen on his Kidsongs video. He even managed to talk her into letting him hang from the highest of the parallel bars, even after she explained (several times) that the high bar is for the bigger kids.
Check out all of Jackson's gymnastics photos! He has surprisingly great upper body strength, and believe it or not, has proven to follow direction pretty well. Well, at least by the 2nd class. He didn't quite get the whole "do as I do" thing the first time. He is far too independent to be a copycat! He is having sooo much fun! Click the option to play the gymnastics photos as a Slideshow, I have added captions explaining each picture that will show in the Slideshow view!
Jacey Sleeps
Last night Jacey took her bottle at 9:30, stayed awake until about 11:00, and then went straight to sleep. She woke up to eat this morning at (drumroll, please.....) 5:30! That's TECHNICALLY an all-nighter, though I must admit, I don't actually consider 5:30 to be morning.
Isn't it funny though how things work out? The first night she sleeps straight through, we get up anyway. Joel got called in to work during a storm at about 1:30, Jackson woke up at 2:00 having had a bad dream about a spider, which forced me to turn on the lights, check his bed and room, and prove there was no spider, then allow him to watch his video until he fell asleep. All this got me back asleep by 3:00, to be woken up at 5:30 for a feeding. Jacey went back to sleep, I went back to bed and at 6:30 Joel called to say he was coming home. This announcement required me to get up and unset the house alarm.
So.....Jacey slept all night....no one else did. Baby steps....
Mood changes....
Note the picture to the right...Jacey in a dress! I know I said she would not wear them often, but what can I say....my kid is adorable, and dresses accent her insane ability to be cute!
Still going strong....
Ok, so summer is here! We have gotten to swim at BoBo's a few times and Jackson loves it! Though I must say, the weather here in Tennessee has been unpredictable (go figure) and has been unseasonably rainy and cool. Not only is this ruining building plans for Mommaw, but it is keeping the swimming to a minimum as it is either raining, or the water is too cool. I am sure that in good ole Tennessee fashion, the weather will soon turn and we will be begging for cooler conditions.
Jackson is becoming an old pro at the potty thing. He has gone 5 days without a poopy accident, and this is fantastic considering 5 days ago we were still having to clean up and what not. As stressful as it is running to the potty to "try" every 5 minutes, I can see a future that only has diapers for one child in it, and it is good.
I am considering cleaning my house, but am also considering not. This will be the last week of available day care time for Jackson for the month of June as Deba and Bigs go on vacation. I think cleaning would be self-defeating considering Jackson will be home for 3 weeks straight, and I will probably have to hire a cleaning service after that, but we'll see.
Anyway, I am going to post new pictures soon. Thanks to mom for fixing my layout.
Jackson POOPS!
Today, Jackson went poop in the potty with great resolve! Now, we are underwear bound, and he is so proud of himself, (and all of his poop presents!). He got special visits from BoBo, Mommaw Bigs and Deba. He is now the proud owner of a Catcher's mask (the real kind), a remote control stunt motorocycle, and a brand new bat and ball, not to mention new found confidence and pride!! We are sooo proud of him!!
My Niece!
Emily Hazel Morris arrived on Monday, May 25 at 10:36 a.m. She weighed 7 pounds 3 1/2 oz and was 20 inches long.
We love her so much and are so glad she is here! She has Cory's cleft chin, a little bit of hair and looks alot like her mommy! I will post pictures as soon as I get some good ones!
Jacey Naps
Today, for the very first time, Jacey took a nap in her crib. I had to steal Jackson's cd player so she would have lullaby music, but she seemed content in her own bed. I can't decide if she will sleep really well in there, but hey...she couldn't possibly be less comfortable than she acts like she is in the bassinet. Anyway, she was just adorable, so I thought I'd share. There is a picture of it on here....somewhere.
Catching up
Today I had a nice visit with a friend of mine. It was so much fun to hang out with someone who knows all too well what I go through everyday. She and I have been pregnant twice, both times together, and were each blessed with a boy first, and most recently, girls.
You forget, I think, when you're on maternity leave, what an adult conversation feels like. Often, I have found that other friends whose children are older, or who don't have children just yet, seem to shy away from stopping and chatting as their lives are inevitably busier than mine. I have the luxury of letting Jackson go to daycare whenever he, or I, feel like it. But, June is coming, and as daycare will be closed, I will trade my luxury for the privilege of having both of my children at home with me every day. Then, I suppose, my life will be busier than it seems now, with just me and Jacey at home all the time.
Anyway, it was a good day. Even though I did most of the talking, (go figure), it was fun to reminisce about pregnancies, and share little bits of our new "mommy of 2" lives. I enjoyed myself more today, in a different way, then I have in a while. I hope to be able to do it again very soon!
A new fence
Well, after all of the things we have listed that NEED to be done to our house, Joel broke down and started working on a WANT. We are getting a fence.
Now, I am not sure if we are trying to keep Jackson in, or something else out, but a fence is on its way. Its going to start out like mom's fence, a few posts and some of that covered wire fencing. Then, through the hopeful gain of giftcards for upcoming holidays and events, we will slowly, but surely, add "Real" fence pieces. You know, the tall wooden privacy kind. It may take several months,but thats the goal.
Then....Joel is going to build a small fence within the fence, so that Jackson can have his own baseball field. Thats right! BASEBALL field. I mean, every 3 year old needs a fence to hit homeruns over, and if its the big fence, then Joel or I have to go get it. SO.....he gets his own. What a good daddy.
Anyway, one home improvement down, and several more to go. It is beginning to look like we care about this house...which we do to the extent that we want its sale value to increase. Ahhh...here is hoping that improvements in this home, and in job hunting, will lead us to our forever house.
Two.....maybe three?
You know how I have made it no secret that Jacey was to be our last baby...and how blessed we were to have both her and Jackson....one of each! What is it about that new baby sensation that makes you worry you may not be able to follow through with your plans?
I miss being pregnant. Not the fatness, the heartburn, the swelling, the diet "no no's", but the bonding part. Obviously, we will bond more when she knows better that there is a me to bond with, but right now it feels kinda sad. I miss being the ONLY one who felt her every single move. When I hear her hiccup, I actually miss being able to say "Jacey has hiccups" and be the only one who knew for sure.
I miss that her hair gave me heartburn. I miss that her heartbeat could be heard at the same time as mine. I miss that "she is my secret" feeling. Oddly, I miss knowing that she knew my emotions when no one else did. She felt them. She lived through it with me. I love the Jacey I have, but I miss the Jacey I knew.
Apart from the contractions (which HURT in case you were wondering), and the stress that will inevitably be my life, I would totally do it all again.
Don't tell Joel. :)
Friends and Family
I think I may have misrepresented myself in a conversation the other day. I told someone that what my friends do doesn't matter to me, and that is not the case. Let me explain.
I have been having increased difficulty feeling connected to the friends that I have held so dear for so long in my life. Though my life is wonderful, and I refuse to change even a single aspect so far, I do also feel a disconnect from the "me" I always thought I knew. I guess part of me felt like my friends from that "me" was keeping us attached. I guess not.
I know that people move on in their own directions. The hard part is, they all seem to be moving together, and often, I feel left behind. My closest friends I rarely see, the ones that have been there for so long. The ones I see are "new" friends in the timeline, and I don't often feel as close to them. So, sometimes, it gets a little lonely here.
These were the friends that I deemed as close to me as my own family. Recently, my family dynamic has changed in many ways. I guess I should not have been surprised that this branch would have also.
It usually feels worse during summer vacation, or maternity leave, when I have so much extra time on my hands. Here's hoping for a full-time job, with a full-time salary, to give me so much to do between my beautiful little family and there that I have less time to mourn the loss of those that were so critical to the other "me".
Jacey
Ok, so Mom has been on my case about updating my blog. Now I know that the masses are very interested in my new mommy perspective, but I must admit, I have been a little busy. Regardless, I am here now for a little insight.
Jacey is here. It was a whirlwind, really, the whole baby birthing thing. Certainly NOT like I remembered. She came very quickly, and with gusto, but she is here and we all survived the shock of it.
Life with Jacey AND Jackson is different than I thought. Joel and I actually discussed today how Jackson is doing so much better than we had originally given him credit for. He doesn't seem too jealous, and is not reverting back to "baby" behavior. He just loves her. He loves her very much. He dotes on her, checks on her when she fusses, gets diapers, wipes and burp cloths. He is a regular little errand machine, and its because this Big Brother thing is cake. He hasn't been feeling well the last couple days, and has been helping and doting anyway. I told him what a big helper he was being and asked him if he needed anything. He responded, "Nah, Mommy, I'm good."
Jacey is doing great. She is quite a bit smaller than we expected, though we were basing it on Jackson's quite large size as a newborn, so I guess she isn't too small. She is, temporarily, wearing preemie clothes though. She is just as long as a regular baby, but she certainly is skinny. Though, in this family, I doubt we should complain. The only thing we really forgot about was the whole no sleep thing. She has this habit of sleeping during the day and only needing to eat every 4 hours. At night though, she is a 2 hour phenom, and seems to constantly want to eat. We are napping during the day though, a little less easily since Jackson can't go to daycare at all for a few days, and so that is helping a bit.
Anyway, I can honestly say, so far so great. It has been, overall, easier than we expected. Though, now that I've said it, it may turn for the worse. She is beautiful. I am good at what I do, this whole baby making art. A master in my field, you might say....who ever thought it would be baby making and not PR?
Sprinkles and Showers
Well, the last of my showers (this one a sprinkle in intent, but ended up as a shower) has ended. I am EXHAUSTED, and quite overwhelmed by the generosity of it all. So many people have come out in droves to help us prepare for Jacey. We are truly blessed, and cannot wait to have the opportunity to introduce her to everyone. Now, we just need to make sure to get everything put away before she surprises us with her arrival!!
Freaking out, but reassured....
Ok, so Tuesday night was ROUGH. These practice contractions are feeling less and less like practice. After a two hour period that almost ended up at the hospital, I finally fell asleep. The car is officially packed though. An early scare will do that to you. Jacey's carseat is installed and waiting. My suitcase (with Joel's stuff, too) is loaded, along with Jacey's diaperbag, and a bag for Jackson that includes outfits, pajamas, tooth brush, shampoo, toys, books, etc. (all essential) for him to go home with whoever it is we send him home with from the hospital.
I went to my 35 week check up yesterday, and Dr. Anderson says everything is ok for now...no baby yet. See, at this point, a few of you were a little disappointed. I, on the other hand, am not. First, she needs to stay in at least another week. Second, the closer we get to this whole thing the more worried I am. This is all starting to seem stressful, and not as much like the good idea it started out as.
Anyway, we are getting excited. Just making sure everything is ready, the house is clean (more so that people won't judge me when they go to feed the dog and fish), and waiting. Keep in mind, I am married to Joel, so the waiting is VERY stressful, but we are also VERY (and by that I mean overly) prepared. Whats that? Do I hear a clock ticking?
A footrub
What great boys I have!! As my ankles start to swell a little, I get to talk Joel into rubbing my feet every once in a while. As caring as Jackson is, he was intrigued by this. So, my adorable, helpful and loving little boy....helped!
Snow in the Spring
Ok... so this week we got an odd surprise. 48 hours after 80 degree weather, we were "blessed" (?) with about 1/2 inch of snow. Now, most of us preferred the warmer weather, but Jackson was glad for another opportunity to build a snowman (small and pitiful, but snowman nonetheless). Here are a couple of pictures. The trees, if you click on them and look closely, are covered in white flowered blossoms. Very much the opposite of what a snow day should look like!
Nursery News
Well, we are getting closer. We have painted and hung Jacey's name above her crib. She now has a cute little white table lamp that we added some of her butterfly decals to. There are sleepers in the dresser, and I am packing the diaper bag, just in case. We are a few steps closer, and the weeks are ticking by.
Jackson's Playground
Jackson got his very own playground this past month! Built by the Mennonites, Jackson's playground is great! He called it the biggest surprise EVER.
Jackson's playground has swings, a seesaw, a clubhouse (complete with telescope and steering wheel) and a slide (and ramp for climbing up)! Daddy even added a sandbox under the clubhouse.
So far we have played every single day over 60 degrees, and he is loving every minute of it.
Mommy is hoping the playground will make life a little easier when Jacey gets here. We've always had to go down to the culdesac to play. There wasn't much besides grass in the backyard. But, with a baby on the way, the culdesac isn't a great place on 90 degree days. So, the playgrouns is in the shade, just feet from the back porch, where he can play and swing, and Mommy can sit on the deck and watch, with Jacey safely inside the back door. We'll see how this works out. For now though, we swing every day and spend as much time playing as possible!
Nursery news and picture update
So, first... we have pics of Jacey in 4D. If you are curious, check your email, pretty sure Mom sent them to everyone she knows, and as I have heard, a couple people she doesn't!
Next..... the nursery is almost, but not quite, finished! Jacey has a bed, a changing table, clothes in her closet, a cute little red book case, and butterflies!! Now, we just need to add some accessories and we will be ready for her arrival!
Nerves and Worries
OK, so this seems stupid, but I think I am becoming a worry wort.
I believe that at some point in this pregnancy (or labor) something bad is bound to happen. We have a 4D ultrasound scheduled today. What if Jacey is not a girl? What if she is missing toes or fingers or an eye?
What if when I go into labor this time I won't know I'm in labor? I didn't know last time, and by some merciful act of God I had a regular check-up with my OB, who checked my cervix. I was already almost halfway done dilating, and was having contractions every 2 1/2 minutes, which is VERY close together to be just going to the hospital? What if I don't know again, and she is born in Kroger? WITHOUT an epidural?
Epidurals...........hmmm......What if my labor went so ridiculously well last time that I am bound to have something bad happen this time? What if I'm one of those people who only goes halfway numb and then I have to feel half of the excruciating pain? What if they paralyze me this time? What if I am too far along and can't get one AT ALL?
I know, I should have faith that everything will work out for the best. However....my past life experience tells me that when something goes great (like labor last time), the next time around is bound to make up for it!
Appointment rescheduling
So we went to our appointment, and much to our dismay, we were rescheduled for Friday. Its ok though....Dr. Anderson was off being an OB. You should have heard the secretaries and nurses apologizing for him. "He is in labor and delivery....we are so sorry!"
Sorry?!!? Are there people out there who would be mad that he was delivering a baby??? I mean really....isn't that the WHOLE point. I figure it this way: He better be delivering my baby when I am in labor, and not stressing out about all the NOT in labor pregnant women back at the office. I mean sure, they're all pregnant, I get that they're important, but if the baby isn't crowning...they will be alright.
I just thought it was interesting how worried the poor nurses looked that I would be angry. All that means is that there are women who WOULD be angry....in which case, I hope when they have their babies, he's on lunch.
SOO FAST!
So, Joel and I had this interesting revelation the other day. This may not mean much to you not-pregnant people, but it says a lot to us!!
Anyway.....this coming Monday we will go to our 30 week appointment. Yes, there are only 40 weeks, so Jacey is still, theoretically, 10 weeks away. That sounds far!! But look at it this way:
While you're pregnant you go to the doctor once every 4 weeks for a check up. At 30 weeks that changes to once every 2 weeks. You do that 3 times, and at 36 weeks you start going every week and checking for dilation.
So............... we have officially passed the first stage, and are entering out VERY short second stage (2 week appts.). I got through stage 2 with Jackson, and at my next appt. we had a baby (at 36 weeks and 4 days). So, in the grand scheme of things, she is coming very soon!
$80 Diaper Bag!!
So....my birthday was last week, and I got my present delivered yesterday....
My BEAUTIFUL diaper bag, courtesy of my loving husband!! Check out the pictures I posted!!
Here are the juicy details:
Two insulated zip bottle pockets;
Three large outer pockets;
Internal elasticated large storage pockets;
Zipped pocket to keep valuables;
Wipe clean lining;
Wipe clean outer printed fabric;
An adjustable shoulder strap;
Changing mat;
By the way....and for the record....it was on sale, he only paid $65.00. Somewhere along the way he decided I deserved it.....for all the human making and all.
Jacey's real
Ok, so I read what mom wrote about a purple outfit putting it all in perspective. Well....we have bedding.
Now, I recognize that the puking, the fatness, the baby kicking, etc. should have made it real for me a while ago. The thing is....she can do all that without me. All I have to do is wake-up, and the rest is kind of her own thing for now. The bedding made it real for us....out here....in the world already. See, the nursery isn't cleared out, nothings clean, nothings painted. She only has like 15 outfits, and most of them are for when she gets a little older. We have no diapers....the bassinet is still in storage.
Basically, if Jacey came soon, which we hope she does not because it is certainly NOT time....she would come into a world that looked as if we didn't want her or anticipate her. Our lives are busy, and we just haven't gotten around to it. My lack of preparedness made the delivery of the ADORABLE bedding this overwhelming realization that she is real....and I am NOT ready.
Baby Names
For a child who was named 2 1/2 years before she was conceived, there is a good possibility that Jacey may not have a middle name. Joel and I are having trouble deciding, and though the endless suggestions I get are somewhat helpful, they also serve to make the decision that much more difficult.
Its hard to decide what to do. Some people want her to be named after someone, some want an old fashioned or traditional name. I like something less common, and Joel wants something that just sounds right. The problem? Of the thousands of names that are available for discovery, none just strike me as perfect.
Truth be told....I feel a little sad for her.
Flossing and pregnancy
You know what I learned today? Flossing daily and brushing your teeth at least twice a day can increase your chances of having a full term pregnancy. Really?
Yes, really. According to the ADA, and Whattoexpect.com, good oral hygiene can improve chances of full gestation. Why? Well, not taking care of your teeth can lead to gingivitis, which, if not cared for properly, can lead to periodontitis. Periodontitis, a type of infection in your gums, is linked closely to preeclampsia, which everyone knows is bad. Preeclampsia often, and mostly, results in premature labor and birth.
Hmmm....so, taking care of my teeth takes care of my baby.....good to know.
Whining.....and winning
You know that thing that 3 year olds do? That really high-pitched, horrible, nasal whine? Well, today I have had enough. I understand that 3 year olds need attention. I do. I understand that every little disappointment, inability to throw a ball just right, or sometimes, even an accomplishment, needs to be addressed and handled. However, when the whining reaches a point in which all words have the same nasal undertone, every other thought is expressed at a higher decible, and we begin to play mind games like "I want that. But I don't want to pick it up." Pick it up says the Mommy. "I can't. Don't put it AWAY, I wanted it!" This is the point that Mommies break things, and begin to formulate a plan.
If any of you reading this keep my son or are around him regularly, here is the plan.
If Jackson whines, even ONCE, he goes to time out for 3 minutes. We don't tell him to stop whining. We don't give him ONE MORE CHANCE. He goes to time out for 3 minutes with the simple words...."You're whining. Go to time out for 3 minutes." He knows the drill. Set the timer. When it beeps, and he is not whining or crying, he can come out and play. He whines again....he goes to time out for 3 minutes.
Ok, so I am sure that Super-Nanny thought of this WAY before I did. I am, however, feeling a little triumphant. After only 2 time outs, albeit, both in 15 minutes, the whining has ceased. So, age 47,000.....Mommy and Daddy 1. Sometimes winning a battle, is just as sweet as ending the war. I'll take what I can get and hope for the best.
Cool creation.....
Ok, so I have referenced my amazing baby building abilities several times. Here are a couple cool things I learned this week.
At 23, almost 24 weeks, I am in my sixth month, but not done with it yet. Jacey can blink her eyes, is more coordinated (trust me, she can definitely kick AND punch at the same time), and has a firm grip. Her vocal chord will be completely developed by 27 weeks, which is awesome, even though she can't make noise yet. By Jackson's birthday, she will be over a foot long, and weigh almost 2 pounds, or more than that which would make her "above average" like the rest of us.
Jacey gets hiccups all the time, which is odd, since there are no air bubbles in there. She kicks a lot, but hiccups are different.....perfectly rythmic and consistent. Or, maybe she is just musically inclined and has really good beat.....who knows for sure?
My book says that if Jacey is born in January, even though she's not due til April, she could survive and be perfectly normal. Maybe a little small, but otherwise ok. We would be in the hospital A LOT, until like March or April probably, but she could survive. Isn't it amazing the way development works? Isn't is cool that God made us able to survive even if we decide to break the rules and jump the gun a bit?
So, keep praying she stays in there until April....but either way, its good to know.
Spending money
OK....so, I have officially begun to spend too much money on Jacey, and she isn't even here yet. No, I did not purchase my $80 diaper bag, though I have every intention. Yesterday I got a few outfits, very cute but not TOO girly, but they were gently used, so I have no guilt. Today.....well today was different. I bought the bedding for the nursery, for those of you who haven't seen it, I am attaching a picture. I also bought the new stroller and car seat combo, and a matching pack n' play. Ok, so, I didn't need a new stroller, our other one works fine, but it was blue and brown, and Jacey is, well, a Jacey, so we got green with a little pink instead. The matching pack n' play is green with a little pink too, hence the "matching" part. Our other one was in fine working order. You would, however, be surprised to see all the cool changes they make to these things over a course of 3 years. We just wanted the super cool, handy, and MATCHING updated version. I can attach pictures of those, too, I guess.
Anyway, we are selling and/or consigning Jackson's old clothes, some toys and maybe bigger items, (unless anyone wants or needs a stroller and carseat combo or a pack n' play). I figure I can justify the purchases a little bit better if I am making a little money off of stuff that has been in storage, making us NO money, for 3 years.
Joel hasn't even gotten upset yet, which is good, since I would probably buy it anyway. Again, I say..... I am making a HUMAN. So, here's to spending money on a baby that couldn't care less.
A little bit about me.....
Ok, so apparently a 10-things list is all the rage. Here goes:
1. I have never blogged before. Generally, this is due merely to the fact that those who need to know, do. But, in this new technology day and age, true friends who care enough to ask, or listen when they do, are few and far between. So, I blog as a means of release. I blog as a means of communication. I blog as a means of information.
2. I have a mortgage, and no full time job. I have a husband and no regrets whatsoever. I have a son, who is my masterpiece, despite my constant striving for some form of educational or employment satisfaction. I also have a daughter. I have the ability, now, to say I also have a daughter. I have a family. My family extends well beyond my spouse and children, and even further beyond my bloodline.
3. I have two degrees. One I worked for, and one I worked really hard for. I have two degrees in the same field, even though the first degree never brought me a career or satisfaction in that sector of my life. Oddly, I still think my second degree, in the same field, was worth every drop of sweat, minute spent writing, and point of high blood pressure. Its odd how even logical people find logic where most others do not.
4. I am a dreamer. Some say I am far too negative to be a dreamer, but I would beg to differ. I think, more often than I should probably, that perhaps I am negative. Then, I think of optomists. You know, in order to truly be negative, I would have to constantly believe the opposite of positive. I don't. I believe in truth. I believe in logic. It just so happens, that despite the optomists best efforts, reality falls more in my realm than theirs. Its a shame to be right so often, but one of those things that the "right" must suffer with. Anyway, I dream of the day when the optomists are always right.
5. I am fully aware of my blessings. Not many people can say that anymore. I CAN. I may not always sound appreciative. I admit that much. But I am aware. As I write, I can hear my son breathing a nap away, content with his mommy, but anxiously awaiting the return of Daddy "after his nap". I am blessed with both a wonderful son,and a man who is so much greater than most other men, that he is worthy of my son's full attention. I can feel my daughter kick. This seems like a new found phenomenon each and every time. Jackson kicked. It was new every time with him too. Kicks and breaths are blessings. Trust is a blessing. Trust and consistency. I was told once that someone was glad not to have my life. My life holds me down. My life restricts my movements. What a misconception, I think. My life....well, these are my movements. I make many mistakes. But you ask anyone who has met me. My mistakes, in fact all of my decisions, are never made lightly. What that means, if I am not making myself clear, is that my life is perfect. I am glad not to have the life that cannot realize that.
6. I teach. Granted, its not astrophysics, or DNA or cancer research. But....I TEACH. I swore I would never teach. Its interesting the paths we take. I teach others how to overcome a fear of speaking in groups. The one natural talent I can honestly say I have perfected, and I get to teach it. Oh, and by the way, I rock at it.
7. I buy $80 diaper bags. Well, I haven't bought one, but I fully intend to. Actually, I intend to buy 3. One for me, my husband, and my brother-in-law. I think people who buy bouncy castles should open windows in their glass houses before throwing stones. :) Albeit, the bouncy castle is a hit. This much I admit. You know what else will be a hit? My diaper bags. Scoff if you will, but the 3 of us at least, will LOVE them. I am making a child. Today, I worked very specifically on lungs and hair. Today, I MADE hair. At the very least, I deserve whatever diaper bag I want. Did you know they make $400 diaper bags? In the grand scheme of things, $80 is a clearance sale.
8. I discovered recently that even little things, girly little things, can be enjoyed. There was a time in my life when I would have guffawed at the thought of participating in girly little things. You know, some of them are actually relaxing. Anyway, I got a massage, a facial and a pedicure yesterday. Not really like me. But....my toes look awesome, and my muscles are relaxed. So, I tip my hat to the girls....most of whom figured it out long before me.
9. My secret? I think I was smarter in high school. How's that for ironic? I have a bachelor's, a master's and life experience. Still, I think I was smarter in high school. Much of this I can attribute to a few bad decisions, and by decisions I mean people, that I met along the way. They're gone now, but that piece of me that KNEW I was worth everyone's undivided attention, the piece that required I be acknowledged when I walked into a room, well, that piece went with them. Its sad, I think, how people you meet and decisions you make ruin everything. I never did drugs. Not once. I have tried alcohol, but really....have you ever had too much? I am baffled by the location of the "fun" in drunkeness. It is certainly not for me. I avoid common mistakes like these, and in all my knowledge and wisdom, I managed to love a few who didn't deserve it, and THEY ruined me. Hmm....so the truth is, I am smarter NOW, I just feel less sure about it.
10. Ok, this is less deep. I HATE to clean my house. Have you had a 3 year old? Cleaning is one of the most pointless activities of my life. Jackson LITERALLY watches me put stuff away, asks me where it is, and then uses it for two seconds and puts it on the floor. I don't mind doing laundry. Washing clothes is easy, but I HATE to put them away. I HATE to mop the floor. I HATE to move EVERYTHING and dust. Cleaning is for the birds. Yet, I am ashamed to have it dirty. This is so odd to me. And did you know, my husband is OCD. In most cases, you would think this would help....but really, its about everything BUT cleanliness. Sigh..........I HATE to clean.
